Have you ever had that feeling: the feeling that you're in love with someone but you just can't tell them? That's how I feel. My name is Daryian and I'm 17.
"Daryian! C'mon, let's go! We're going to be late to class!"
That's my best friend, Roman. He is also 17 and I've been in love with him for awhile. I don't want to ruin anything, though! That is why I have never told him.
"I'm coming!!"
"What took you so long, dork!?"
"Oh- I was grabbing something from my locker?" "Well, we better hurry. First period starts in- negative 1 minute!"
"It's the first day of school. They're not going to be mad if we're 1 minute lat-"
"You two are late! Detention!"
"What did you say again? 'They're not going to be mad if we're 1 minute late?'"
"Shut up, Roman!"
Lunch
Sometimes I wonder if Roman likes me more than a friend. He acts straight when I'm not around but he acts gay only around me. He is the captain of the soccer team. Even if he was gay, he wouldn't want to ruin his reputation.
"Hey, dork! Stop daydreaming and get your lunch!"
"I wasn't daydreaming!"
"Okay, and my name's not Roman."
"Shut up, jerk."
"Hey guys!" Kylee exclaimed with Samara walking beside her. "We're sitting here whether you like it or not!"
"NO EXCEPTIONS!" Samara squealed.
"You idiot! You just RUINED THE MOOD!"
"I'M SORRY!!!"
"Uh Daryian, I think we should leave them be," Roman suggested.
"Yeah, agreed! See ya!"
"DARYIAN! ROMAN!" Kylee screamed. "Ugh, men."
To be honest, I didn't want to leave because it's hard for me to control myself around Roman when it's just us. When the girls are around, it's way easier to control my feelings.
"Hey, are you okay?"
"What? Oh yeah, I'm fine!"
"You've been acting weird lately. Are you sure something isn't wrong?"
"Yeah! Nothing is wrong, Roman. Don't worry about me!"
"Okay. So tell me, how have you and Kylee been doing?"
I forgot to mention, Kylee is my girlfriend and she's 17. I was gay when she admitted her feelings to me and I didn't want to hurt her. I had feelings for her when I asked her to be my girlfriend but I'm starting to loose those feelings.
"Uh, pretty good."
"That's good. Anyways, I have practice at 5 later and wanted to know if you would wait with me. Unless you don't want to of course or you're not abl-"
"No! I"ll wait with you."
"Alright, thanks! I'll see you then. I have to go talk to one of my teacher's right now."
"Ok. See you then!"
My thoughts are running wild. I just want Roman to hug me from behind-
"Babe! What the hell just happened?"
"Roman wanted to get away from your fight with Samara."
"Oh about that, can you tell him that we're sorry about that? We get worked up a lot." she giggled.
"No worries, I'll tell him."
Samara and Kylee are EXTREMELY crazy. Samara just turned 16. This is going to be fun.
"Thanks! Do you want to meet after school or do you have other plans?"
"I have plans with Roman. Maybe tomorrow?"
"Okay! I have to head to class. Love you!"
"Love you, too,"
After School
"Thanks for waiting with me."
"Anytime! Can you help me with this math problem?"
"Yeah, of course!"
Roman moved closer to me and started to help me with my math. His leg pressed against mine and I didn't want it to end.
"And that's how you do the problem. Daryian- Daryian?"
"Oh, uh, thank you! Do you have a pencil I could use?"
"Yeah. Here you go."
Sometimes love can make you feel wonderful and act crazy. This feeling that I feel is crazy but wonderful. I go crazy even if he barely touches me. Him just handing me a pencil and our hands barely touching was an amazing feeling to me.
"Thanks!" I have no idea what he said when he was explaining this equation. Oh well.