I haven't seen Luke in a week. I also asked his friends but they did not know either.
Maybe he won't hide from us just because I said he has a responsibility to that woman?
"Monica, Luke is not at their house yet," Mael said sadly
He also abandoned his own house. Where is he now?
"Monica, is there any news?" sis yen immediately asked when she saw me. Mael and I just shook our heads.
We also reported to the police that Luke was missing.
"It's my fault why Luke is missing now"
"Monica doesn't blame yourself, it's not your fault. Maybe Luke just went somewhere and forgot to say goodbye" Nard calmed me down
Luke did not run away because his clothes were still complete in their house. Luke's father said he also did not return to their house after I was hospitalized.
I have nowhere else to think about where he is going. I always look forward to seeing him at my house but he never comes.
I hope he is okay wherever he is.
"Guys look at this!" Kael shouted and ran towards us.
"Luke and Princess were caught on CCTV at an airport yesterday" Kael
He showed me the photo he was holding. I can't be wrong ... Luke is in the picture. But what is he doing at the airport?
"Is this the princess you're talking about Kael?" Mael
He pointed to the woman next to Luke in the photo.
what does this mean?
"What is that? They left the country?" Sis yen
"where did they go?" Nard wondered
I can't help but sigh. This is my fault. I should not have just listened to what Princess said ... I should not have let them be together. I should not have pushed Luke away. Luke should still be with me. he should still be by my side.
Maybe this is the time for me to regret my decision. Is it too late? Why now?
"Shit! I can't call her" Nard said while dialing the number on the phone.
It's too late for us. He left me.
"Monica, where are you going?" They asked me when I took my bag to leave.
"I want to be alone"
I kept walking until my feet took me to a church.
There are only a few people because the church is about to close. I sat down on the chair. I silently watched the people praying.
Perhaps they are praying for thanksgiving, asking for forgiveness, and asking for help.
Me?
Why am I here? I do not believe in god but I am here now. I am here to ask the god that most people believe in.
"Why are you like that? Don't you want me to be happy? I'm about to die, but you let the man I love go away? You're too much! I don't deserve that. Why me? Do you have mercy? I do not believe you Because of the time I need you, where are you? Are you helping me? Is this your plan for my life? Just living a life full of pain and bitterness? "
I did not notice that I was crying already. I no longer need anesthesia or painkillers because of all the things I have gone through, it is the most painful.
I immediately left the church. I know I am not welcome in the house of God.
I stopped walking in the middle of the bridge. This river is very deep.
I laid the bag and other belongings on the floor. I took a deep breath before standing on the side.
I knew my life would be useless. I'll just go back to my old plan. But I still have no certainty in my life. I am also tired of the pain I am experiencing, I want to rest.
In a short time, I felt to be happy. Luke made me feel important even for a few days.
I want you to be happy Luke. I hope you live long. Do not worry about me.
It is enough for me to see you happy even with others. It is enough for me to just feel your love. I will never forget you, Luke. if you do not come into my life, I will not experience love.
I just asked you to stand up for princess's son but I think I made the wrong decision.
I did not obey princess's order. It's hard for me to break up with you so I thought you should just support the child because I don't want to let you go, but I was wrong, you let me go ...
Luke, I hope you hear everything I tell you.
I will still love you until the next life.
I love you so much Luke Santos.
Goodbye!
I raised both my hands and felt the fresh air...