Entry No: 281
I got a job.
The result came in and I was busy talking to mom. I've muted my class group chat so I didn't know. But all of a sudden I received 7-8 notifications.
The message said congratulation.
And the first thought that came to my mind was, "Hell yeah, exams for this semester exams are canceled too."
Hehe…
The messages said otherwise. My happiness obviously overwhelmed my sadness that I still had to give exams.
But the news that literally said, "Mr. Vardhaman, you will now be able to survive in the wild world out there", filled me with so much relief.
I have been in disbelief throughout the day and as I write this, it is finally sinking in. I am employed.
It doesn't matter that I won't have any extra money for anything but I will survive. I will be well fed. And most importantly, I will be able to grow.
Mom and dad cried, with relief and happiness. Bro, got emotional too, so much more than me. God knows that I didn't work hard enough. I know I didn't work hard. And I know what I did was just a notch more than bare enough to get a job.
I have been average at everything, my whole life. The few things I ever was above and beyond anyone else were my observation, my EQ, and my analysis of any input I got because of the previous abilities.
Yes, this is my superpower.
I have a very high common sense.
Heart [That's nothing to brag about.]
Brain [Let me have this one. I'll be stepping into the real world soon.]
Heart [(exasperated sigh and eye roll) You did well.]
Brain [Hahahaha… I know I did. (blushing)]
Heart [Dad looked so relieved]
Brain [He worries too much.]
Heart [He worries for you.]
Brain [I know.]
Heart [The medication is working. He is better than before.]
Brain [Yeah. I have to work hard to be able to support all of them.]
Kabir, my elder brother decided to pursue acting. It is a whole other story of how that came to be. Basically, any career choice that is not stable, is very feared. The reason being the huge Indian population. There is so much competition and that is true for every other job but the uncertainty and instability are scary. All I can say is that he is gutsy.
Dad is a freelancer.
Mom is about to retire.
But there is still some time for me to work with.
Anyway, I am really happy today. Things are changing for the better. And I am thankful that I could be a part of this change. I don't regret not working hard enough. I never have and I never will. I don't know why but the thing that I worked hard in won't enable me to survive. So, that's that.
Heart [You did good kid.]
Brain [Oh, shut up.]
Heart [Good night.]
Brain [Hmm.]
Date: 25th December 2020.
Signed: Vardhaman Srivastava
Time: 23:58
Location: India