Julien felt depressed and that wasn't only about the wine.
He never lost his temper and turned violent like that throughout all his previous life. Recently, Julien noticed that there was something wrong with the way he was handling emotions, but he couldn't put the finger on it.
Julien didn't want to overthink so he left it be. But still, in the back of his mind, there was something that was telling him that his behavior was out of bounds. The latest heat was a very unpleasant experience and showed him that it may be more complicated than he thought.
When Julien first transmigrated he didn't think too much of being an omega. Of course, he knew it will bring changes, but he didn't treat it too seriously in the start and later Julien was confused by it.
Despite what his common sense told him, he was surprisingly inept at predicting how he will feel in various situations. It was the expectations versus reality clash and turned out not to be what he expected.
Julien sighed: "I'm so done with life right now."
[System: If your current situation needs changing, why don't you do something about it? If you don't act on it, you are just complaining for the sake of complaining.]
Julien shook his head in amusement and he clarified: "I can't change facts, right? If you want me to take responsibility for being in that kind of body then I don't know if I can. Responsibility is often just a form of delusion and is misused as a way to give up what you want to do."
Julien wasn't blissfully ignorant of the troubles that lay ahead and already done research. He learned a couple of things besides what he already knew from System.
Julien wrote down a few phenomenons and saved them in memory:
1. The spiritual connection between alpha and omega may be developed sooner than actual bonding during intercourse.
2. The alpha's pheromones can stabilize omega's emotions and also at the time of heat keep omega completely conscious.
3. After bonding the omega party doesn't have to wear inhibitor anymore, because other alphas will subconsciously resist their scent.
But those pieces of information were useless for now in Julien's opinion.
Although he was open for Lucius's pursuit, he had been hungry for so many years in his previous life that waiting a little more won't hurt him, not to mention the young blood flowing in his veins now. So Julien didn't worry about the future, because he didn't believe in no-win scenarios.
But Julien knew that he still needed to build more self-awareness. Becoming more aware of the situation he was in could free him from unnecessary problems and stress, those things Julien despite the most in life.
With a small frown, Julien hesitated, then said: "I fail to notice my lack of experience, my bad out there."
Who will have more experience with the heat cycle than him?
Doubtless, this person must be another omega and it happens, that he knew one.
Two hours later, Julien was already sitting on Etienne's sofa.
Etienne, who was eating a slice of watermelon while listening to Julien's story, suddenly interrupted him: "Have you met with Lucius before all that happened?"
Julien asked with narrowed eyes: "Do you think he may be the reason?"
Etienne calmly put down the watermelon rind, took a napkin and said: "He just may speeds things up."
Seeing him embarrassed, Etienne distracted him: "Don't fight with your heat, accept it and wait until it is over."
Julien still wanted to confirm something with Etienne: "What about this crazy behavior? I feel like not controlling it at all."
Etienne nodded towards Julien: "I'm always thinking of money and took a couple of loans online, completely unnecessary, while being in heat."
Julien turned around and saw this time Etienne's obvious embarrassment, the other omega clearly didn't know where to put his gaze.
His friend rushed to explain: "It's about my future partner that I don't know yet, but I'm sure he smells like money or is some kind of loan shark."
Julien was stunned for a moment, then quickly snapped out of it: "So it's like that? It means that mine will smell like wine?"
Other omega blinked his watery eyes and smiled: "Yes, definitely yes."
The room suddenly quietened for a while.
Julien felt there was no need to hide this kind of matter so after a little thought, he told his friend frankly: "I need to check Lucius's scent and if he is the one."
Etienne advised him: "Just be careful at it."
Julien stood to put on his coat: "You should know that I'm not the impulsive type, I'm going back first."
Etienne didn't realize what Julien was implying and was shocked: "Oh?"
Julien waved his hand: "Thank you for the conversation! Bye, bye!"
Etienne answered: "Oh!"
Julien left so quickly that after Etienne finally realized he is already gone it was too late to return the titanium credit card that his friend gave him some time ago.