- I think it would be nice if you tried to at least resist the sirens' song! It was really scary seeing you with those black eyes whispering and then screaming to get out of the chains.
-For that I would need to be with something from the City of Light hanging from me but this is the only locket aboard... so...
- So good luck to me!
- Exactly! But I will do my best to stay lucid longer...
We were silent inside the cockpit for the longest and most disturbing thirty minutes of my whoke life.
I was trying to control my body and my mind so I wouldn't run out of that booth because of the previous events.
The images of Ben and their black eyes made me feel chilly and an insistent sweat on my hands and body.
I needed to take a deep breath to control myself enough to finish that part of the journey that was under my responsibility. A whole crew was in my charge and I had to do everything the right way.
- And here we go... - Benjamin said- Whatever there is don't look at me, don't listen to me and don't get out of control of the rudder! The currents are strong Enough to arrest me!
- All right!
As soon as Benjamin closed his lips a deafening sound began to ring from all directions outside the ship.
The sound sounded like the sound of angry, frightened and wild violins. Although there was not a sound more tuned and well played throughout the Empire still the savagery and cruelty that those chords inspired was absurdly frightening.
The ship was following its path through the calm waters of that region and the music was calming down until the melody of the violins was exchanged for the strength of a female choir of thousands and thousands of voices.
I was terrified, scared and desperate so that it would all end as soon as possible.
I looked back and I watched Benjamin, he was head down like he was asleep.
"Being locked in the bathroom until all this is over wouldn't be so bad..." - I thought to myself.
- Don't do this... face your fears and horrors... -A voice whispered behind me.
I looked back scared and eyes wide open but saw no one... there was no one in the cockpit but Benjamin chained to the table with his head down.
I turned my eyes to the water horizon and I stood firm in my pilot position.
- You drive so well... - Benjamin praised in the distance.
I kept myself absolutely silent. Under no circumstances did I ever want to face those black eyes again. The only thing I wanted was to get out of that situation as soon as possible.
- I could fill you with pleasure... make you lose your mind. You'd go crazy every day... that you smell so good... let me smell you, kiss you... please Kris...
Benjamin's voice sounded like a passionate plea, an irresistible plea from a man who couldn't spend a minute without me.
- Look at me...
I kept silent once more imagining those demonic black eyes popping out of Benjamin's face.
- Please... I looked at me. Just once... once Kris...
I took a deep breath and held the helm much harder. I had a mission to accomplish.
- Just once Kris... I want to see your eyes.
- No...
- Why not? - Benjamin asked with the sexiest voice possible.
- Because you are under the influence of mermaids... you do not want me just are feeling attracted to my smell.
The beats of my heart quickened more and more, every request Benjamin made me to look at him. Every supplicates passionate touched something inside my heart, touched a possible real passion that I felt for him, a physical and emotional attraction that throbbed in me.
Suddenly I realized my weakness and closed my eyes to remember better the black eyes of Benjamin.
- I know you want me... Kris... just give me a kiss! I just want a kiss from you!
The vocal choir became lower than it was and began to turn into a thin, melancholy song.
- Kris... give me a kiss... I just want a kiss from you...
Those requests, that feeling, that latent desire in me reaped my understanding and forced me to look at Ben.
He was normal with normal eyes but something about him made him seem more irresistible than before. He seemed to be more attractive, his sweaty body, his fleshy lips seemed so desirable, the curls of his hair seemed to be brighter and more vivid at that moment... but I had to concentrate.
I turned my eyes to the horizon, where my eyes should never have left.
- Kris... I know... you want me! It's written on your lips! Please kiss me... it's just a kiss...
- No... after we leave the Red Islands territory...
- Kris...I want you now...
Ben pleaded in such a loving way, so sweet that I almost lose my mind but I needed to stay at the helm. That was too big a responsibility to ignore.
A few more minutes have passed And Ben kept begging and begging for my lips by touching his.
I continued steadfastly and uncompromisingly until all the music stopped, until all the voices were silenced and until Benjamin's request stopped.
- Are we far enough? - Benjamin asked waking up from the trance in which his mind was stuck.
- I think so. - I answered cursed for what I was about to do.
- How long has it been since the sirens' voices were silenced?
- One hour...
- Thanks to the Old Gods! Let me go... we're far enough away from those sea snakes!
-Yes...
And I got the key to the lock that held Benjamin's chains.
I unlocked all the tangle of iron links And I helped Benjamin get up by being scared of his size.
- Did I say too much nonsense?
- A little bit...
- You are quieter... did I say you something that hurt you? Forgive me if I did or I said while I was trapped in the trance... - Benjamin approached my face with wet eyes in concern.
- No problem. You didn't do anything... don't worry about me. As I told you I'm just thinking.
- What are you thinking?
- In you!
With an act of courage I kissed him feeling each muscle of his lips corresponding with the movements of my mouth.
Benjamin's hands surrounded my waist and pulled my body closer to him. My hands migrated to the back of his head and in circular motion his tongue came into contact with mine.
Benjamin's mouth tasted like strawberries and the smell of his perfume had some hints of lemon which formed the perfect combination for that occasion.
Every second with my lips touching his lip was as if I were in another dimension. In another place away from everything and everyone.
The cuddling he did behind my back, the way he held me was better than any expression of affection that I have received in my entire life.
So I finally started thinking about what I was doing listening to my mind curse me for what I had done. I was kissing another Iudex! Even in the situation we were in, where it was lawful to do that because I was his pallaki until the end of the trip it still seemed wrong to me.
I pushed his body away with one of my hands on his chest creating a confused look on Benjamin's eyes.
- We can't do that... I think we should end here...
- To stop? We're just getting started, baby!
Benjamin pulled my waist and reconnected our lips once again in an intense and desperate kiss.
Maybe it was the fear of me falling hopelessly in love with a man I could never have or maybe some Insecurity mixed with the strong attraction I felt for him but my heart was breaking. Half of me wanted to keep kissing him like tomorrow wasn't gonna exist, like that was my last chance at may have those lips glued to mine, but the other half of my heart was afraid. Fear of being guilty, fear of being judged, fear of suffering some penalty.
The strong arms of Benjamin descend upon my body and lift me up in the air and then lie down on the cockpit table.
Ben's body on my body, the kisses he deposited on my neck, the growing excitement that burned in me... all that was too good to be true.
- Relax... you're still mine this week...
- Yes... but.
With one of his fingers Benjamin shuts my lips leaving only the sound of my half-cropped breath.
- Do you want to?
- What?
- Making love with me?
- Now?
- Yes... - Benjamin replies as if he was not just responding a question but begging... begging for more of me. And this supplication began to turn into warm, wet kisses on my neck that descended to the skin that the neckline of the dress left exposed- Please...
I lost my head with all those caresses and I was already ready to say yes when I looked back. At the exact moment I did that my eyes met with the rudder of the ship and all the blue immensity of the sea.
- Later... we have to recalculate the route to Nekrós...
- True... we have been off course for too long... - Benjamin spoke a little down.
- Are you mad at me for?