Ray
I have been thinking about Bella, her eye, her smile the kiss. I did not want to think about her. I could not have her even if I want to. I don't want anything coming in between me and Carl. He seemed to be really into her. He is opening his heart for the first time to love and be vulnerable like he calls it. I don't want to take that away from him.
After many failed attempts to keep her away from my thought. I started enjoying thinking about her at least that was the only part of her I could keep. I sometimes sat beside Carl when he called her just to listen to her voice. It sounds crazy but that's the only way I could be sure she was fine. I did not want Carl to find out about my feelings for her. I wanted him to feel very comfortable when we are together and Bella is with him
Besides he is like a brother to me and I want him happy. If giving up my feelings for Bella will bring that happiness then I will make that sacrifice.
