My Heart v.s. My Head-My heart & my head just won't stop fighting, my head tells my heart no, but my heart just won't let go
Ch. 1(T.B. of T.E.)
"Hey!" I hear. I turn around to see who it is. I see Nancy looking at her boyfriend, Seth so it wasn't her, I see Stehany but she's walking away so it's definitely not her then I see Allis looking in my direction and waving at me. "Oh hey Allis" I call to her & wave back but she looks confused. "I wasn't talking to you" Allis says annoyed then she walks right past me. "Then who-" I start "-oh-". She goes to Sam who's right behind me. "Why did that weirdo say hi to you?" Sam asks Allis. "I don't know". I look down. "Of course, no one pays attention to me." I think as I look down & walk away with my hands in my pockets. I hear *CRASH!* so I look up to see what happened. It was James knocking Brittney's science project to the ground. Now I'm just standing there thinking "James needs to stop bullying others" I think as I push him back....er or as I imagined I pushed him back and Brittney fell for me but what actually happened was I just stood there watching James as he walks away, laughing. Brittney looks at me "Thanks Alex" she says sarcastically with a scowl then walks away leaving me feeling like a total asshole. She passes by & I start to reach out for her but pull back instead at the last second. 'She's already pissed off and annoyed with me, I don't really wanna push it.'
Ch. 2(Doosis)
I head to my first period which is Science & I mean I guess I'm ok at science, I mean sometimes I get an A but mostly get B's and I got a C twice. "We have a new student" Mr. Johnson announces, I look up to see it's this girl that's new in town, well she's been here for about 2/3 months so I wouldn't exactly say "new" so I'm a bit confused. She should've already been enrolled because school started a few months ago. She got here in March which, ironically was my birthday month. Even more ironic & kinda creepy is that she just happen to get here on my birthday, now I don't believe in destiny shit or whatever. To be honest I really think it's all abuncha bullshit but if we were to ever get together then that'd be exactly what I tell my future kids, nieces, nephews, or whatever. Anyways I clear off the desk next to me for her but she goes to sit next to James. 'Great! She's one of those' I whisper to myself as I grit my teath even though I was fantasizing only 5 seconds ago because James is a capital "A" Asshole. That and he goes outta his way to mess with me. Just as I think this, James walks behind me and ruffles my hair. "Hey buddy" he says sarcastically. "We are not buddies" I say while fixing my hair and feeling a bit annoyed. James fens being hurt. "Ow Alex, that hurts" he says laughing. I look away "Good" is all I say then I feel a hand on my shoulder. I look up, thinking it's James but it's Mr. Johnson. "That's not very nice Mr. Vansittert, appologize". I look at him incredulously. "NO!" I call out defintly. Mr. Johnson looks at me, seeing if I'm serious or not. When he sees that I am he looks irritated. "And why not?" He asks angrily. "Because he's an as-" I start but stop because I almost said 'asshole' in school. I'm only 17 so I can't say that in school. Mr. Johnson looks even more annoyed than before now. "He's a what!?" He asks then James snickers. You know what? I don't even care anymore, James has been an asshole to me all year for no reason. I stand up "Where are you going Vansittert!?" Mr. Johnson asks but instead of answering, I walk up behind James then turn & look at Mr. Johnson. "SIT BACK DOWN HERE MR. VANSITTERT!" he calls to me but I ignore him and put a hand on James' shoulder. He looks up. "Yea?" He asks me. I give him a fake smile "Hey buddy" I start then look at Mr. Johnson "Because he's been an ASSHOLE to me all year" I emphasize "asshole" then I pull James outta his chair and throw him to the ground. Mr. Johnson is surprised that his perfect student, who is always on time and never forgets his homework or cause any trouble just assaulted a star student while looking straight at him. "MR. VANSITTERT!!!" he yells out but I'm already walking out the door. He chases after me but just in time I slip into a Janitor's closet to hide. "I'M GONNA GET YOU MR. VANSITTERT!!!" he yells then goes back in his class to I guess check on James. I slip outta the closet & go to my locker to grab my stuff then I go to the gym because they have a backdoor that leads to the track & field. I sneak passed the gym class in progress & climb the fence that is between the school and the woods the school was built by. 'Thank God I go to a school built next to the woods' I think before I hop down from the top of the fence. I don't even go home, my parents, er my mom's at work anyways so she won't know I'm not at school. I walk to a gas station to buy a soda.
Ch. 3(Her)
While in there though, a woman calls out "ALEX! Hai!" I look back, it's Jaina. I smile at Jaina, even though I'm like 4 inches taller than her, she's 2 years older. "Hey Jaina! What are you doing here?" I ask her casually, smiling. "Well I could be asking you the same thing Alex, I mean...you're a Junoir right?" She asks me suspiciously. I sigh 'Dammit! She's too smart!' I curse myself while she's waiting for me to answer. "Um Alex? Earth to Vansittert" She asks again looking at me. 'Answer her you idiot!' I curse myself "Well....umm....you see....the thing is that I....uh....finished early" I lied to her thinking wow this is easy. No wonder my mom lied aboutwhere dad was all the time. "YOU FINISHED EARLY!!!" she exclaims, not believing me then asks "I know you're lying but what are you doing now?" I feel myself blush because I definitely wasn't prepared for this. "Well...I uh...have a job at....um TJ's" which is technically true because I do have a part time job as a waiter at TJ's. "Oh! Maybe I should get a job there too" she says surprising me. "What!?" I look at her incredibly. She smiles "I said maybe I should work there too" . I'm star struck, Jaina just suggested getting a job at TJ's because I mentioned it. But.....nevermind "That's a great idea!" I practically yell as I'm thinking about all the pros of her working there with me. But then in the back of my head, I find 1 big con. If she works there then she might find out about how I was expelled. I'm standing there thinking when I hear her voice. "I thought you were still in school? Isn't this your Junior year?"Jaina accuses me "Are you skipping?" She asks me pointedly. I start feeling uncomfortable. Not even hiding it this time, I truthfully tell her. "Well umm.....maybe..." I say slowly. She looks surprised at me. "ALEX!" she yells at me, making me jump. "Yeaaaa..." I drag out, looking down cause I can feel myself blushing which is embarrassing, not only cause it was to Jaina's face but also because I straight up lied to her. "You can't skip Alex!" Jaina tells me. Surprised I look at her. "But you skipped all the time! I'm actually really surprised you passed at all" I point out. She looks at me surprised. "So you follow me? Thinking that would impress me? Here's a hint Alex, it doesn't." I'm flustered "I can explain Jaina!" She looks at me. "Then explain Alex, why did you, the perfect student, except grades, skip school?" she asks. I look from side to side "Well? I'm waiting." She starts tapping her foot impatiently. "Well.....you see...what had happened was Jake Simply....pushed me." I tell her. She looks confused. "He pushed you?" She asks me. "Not like actually physically push me but like remember when I called you & I told you about James bullying me? " I start, she nods. "Well today was the last straw, I was in first period right? Well he walked up behind me and messed with my hair so I pulled him outta his chair then walked straight outta school." I tell her. She still looks confused. "You're better than this babyboy" she tells me, I feel my face get red. "Hey! That's a childhood nickname that I haven't used in years!" I tell her. She smiles "So what? Don't want me using it on you babyboy?" She teases me, I feel my face heating up. "I never said that, just....warn me....next time Jaina" I tell her, still blushing. "And how am I to warn you that Imma call you babyboy babyboy?" She asks me as she smiles. "I....don't know...." I mumble as she continues to smile. "What was that baby boy? I can't hear you if you mumble babyboy" she starts laughing at me. "I said I don't know" I say loud enough for her to hear. She's laughing at me again. "Then I don't think I will stop BABYBOY" she puts emphasis on "babyboy" so I start feeling red again. "Babycakes? Boo? Hun? Sweetie?" Nothing happens. She looks at me. "What are you doing?" She asks amused "Trying to think of a name to make me blush?" Jaina asks smiling again. I say nothing "Well it won't work! I'm impervious to that kinda stuff" I groan 'Fuck! Now she knows!' I think angrily at myself. 'Imma start thinking more instead of blurting shit out' I think then I smile at Jaina "What?" She asks me. I automatically look away. "Oh.....you're...." I start telling her. "I'm what?" She questions me. For some reason I start feeling uneasy. "Nothing" I tell her feeling a bit embarrassed. "Alex!? You need to man up and start actually talking to me babyboy. We've been friends for like 4/5 years, I KNOW you" she tells me. I shrug, "If you know me then you'd know what I said & what I was thinking Jaina" I tell her trying to calm myself down again. She just shrugs & let's it go. "Whatever Alex, I don't even care" she tells me but I know she does. "Well if we're...er...you are gonna skip then instead of being out in the open, we should go somewhere more secluded. How about you take me to the movies?" I look up, surprised that she suggested that . "WAIT WHAT!?" I ask her loudly to which she simply smiles at. "I said we should go see a movie Alex." So like 20 minutes later, we sit down to watch Evil Residents 6. I mean it's not exactly scary, especially since it's just a run off the mill zombie movie so.....yea, not very scary but Jaina still takes the time to lay against my shoulder. I don't know what I should do so I just sit there. "Hey Alex?" She says suddenly, sitting up. I motion for her to leave with me. "Yea Jaina?" I say once we get outta the theater/movie area. "Well.....see I kinda have a bit of a.....crush on you" she mumbles the last part then looks down blushing. I feel uneasy. "You what?" I ask, not knowing if she actually said what I thought she said. "I...have a....nevermind" I stare at her but she refuses to look back. She heads back into the theaters, I follow her, because I wanted to know if she said what I thought she said. "What were you saying Jaina?" I whispere loudly once I'm settled in next to her thinking I know what she's gonna say. She shakes her head. "Forget it Alex, it was nothing." She answers but I don't take that. "NO!" I call out "shhh!" A bystander in the theater shushed me. I ignore him, still staring at Jaina. "Tell me Jaina" I say to her "Please?" She starts walking out of the Theater & away from me & the movie, which hasn't even ended yet. I grab her shoulder then automatically let go. She turns around "What!?" She asks me but she doesn't sound annoyed. "What did you start saying?" I calmly ask her. She doesn't look at me & refuses to answer. I start getting annoyed. "Jaina!? Please tell me?" I say feeling surprised that I'm still talking to her because usually I'm really shy & get super self-conscious. She gives me a small smile. "I said...." she starts "Mhmm" I say, motioning for her to continue on. "....I kinda have....a crush on you Alex" she whispers the last part so quietly that I thought I heard her wrong. Surprised I just stare at her. "What!? Is there something on my face?" Her hand automatically goes for a disposable wipe she has on her. "No, there's nothing on your face." I say laughing at the assuredness of this situation. 'She has a crush on me!?' I think smiling at myself. "I do....yes Alex...." Confused for second before I noticed I had accidentally said that outload. I start to blush again when she smiles again. I feel my face heat up. "So umm...what now?" I ask unsure if Jaina really said she liked me or if I'm fantasizing again. She smiles at me then takes my hand. "Well if two people like eachother then usually they....start dating eachother". I look surprised at her. "They what?" I asked, blushing again. "They usually start dating" she repeats. I'm confused "So you want to start?...dating I mean?" I ask her, still not wanting to believe this is true. She smiles "Yes Alex, I guess I kinda do wanna date you" she says slowly I must look shocked because Jina quickly says "UNLESS YOU DON'T WANT TO!!! I'll be totally fine." She says, forcing smile but her smile that doesn't quite reach her eyes. "Well...Jaina..." I start "I'm sorry I pressured you Alex,!" Jaina blurts out. I smile at her. "No, no, you didn't pressure me or anything, it's just, because I've had a crush on you for the last 4 months." I admitted to her. She looks surprised. "You what!? Had a crush on me too!?" She asks me incredulously. "For how long!?" I look away. "For the last 4 months" I repeat. Then she just grabs me and she then kisses me right on the lips. I jump back but instantly regret it because Jaina looks hurt. "Oh...I thought....." she starts mumbling again. "NO! No no no! I'm sorry! Just I was surprised is all" I tell her quickly so she doesn't end up crying. She still looks kinda hurt. She stands up & walks outta my room. 'Maybe I was a bad kisser? Maybe she's hurt because I don't have any past experience?" I continue to explore the reasons I might've upset her as she leaves the room. "Alex?" Jaina calls from the living room. I sit up. "Yea!?" i call to her. "come here!" she yells back. "Coming!" I call to her then get up, put my phone in my pocket, I quickly grab her's that she had left in the room too.
To be continued.....