I thought my life is simple. Truly life is simple but in other way. The life we live today may not be the same as yesterday. A certain change could distort the way we live. That goes for all living organisms.
I was not prepared for this. I was snapped by this unwanted quest. But for some reason, my expression didn't frail in the slightest. I felt like my heart was overjoyed thinking to kill her. The reason, I don't know. No, If I think like that, I would definitely become like one of them.
No, I can't do that.
"What're doing there? Jodan." She asked in curious.
"Nothing, I was just texting Peter, a friend of mine."
"Oh, 'kay." She replied as if she didn't care much about that. I was relieved to know that she loses her interest in that matter. I again glance at the diary, that I was holding in my right hand. What should I do? There's no penalty written on the daily quest. So, if I don't do it, I won't get penalized. "So, you're messaging him on your diary?"
Jessica popped her head on my right shoulder, snatched the diary I was clenching. I jumped in surprise exactly five centimeters from the bench I was seated. Watching me get frightened, she chuckled unstoppably. I swiftly went near her to get back the diary, but she found my senile, she's gonna tease me now. "Nah Nah, I'm not gonna give this back to you until I have read it." Without listening to her, I tried, again and again, to get back the diary but failed. Because she hid it on her back. As a boy, I couldn't get there. Seeing no hope I gave up retrieving it. I was frightened thinking, what if she saw the daily quest? She would think I was going to kill her. Probably more than that.
Her face became serious. She was glazing at the pages intensely.
Did she find it? I thought subconsciously.
She cast some pages and said, "what were you writing. There's nothing here only blank pages, and what's that on the first page? Tomato sauce?"
"oh....yeah...." I said, acting to smile. I took the diary from her and flipped some pages and stood the diary towards her, "what're you seeing?" I asked her while closing the gap between my eyebrows.
"Blank pages, I suppose" what I learned is that only the user of the diary can see what's written inside. Non-users would only see blank pages. But if anything was on the cover or pages like the blood can be seen. Though I don't know if I write in the pages will be visible to others.
"We should head back," I said as I turned. "Hmm" we then began to steer home.
"Thanks for accompanying me. I really appreciate it. You are a nice guy." I blushed as I heard her admiring me.
This is the first time I heard a girl praising me. In college, they just ignored me like trash. But I didn't do any harm to them. Soon after, I learned from peter that the boys in my class were spreading rumors about me. Like….I was a total loser, I proposed the ideal girl of our class, I didn't wash my hand coming from the washroom. That kind of thing. Though any of those weren't true at all.
"How long do you plan to live in this town?" I asked her, thinking about how much time I could spend with her.
"To tell you the truth, I didn't come here to live long. Perhaps a year, not sure. It depends." She said with a grin on her face.
How cute she looks in that smile. I want to see that smile forever and ever.
*You are forgetting something, Jodan.*
-uah! I felt a sharp sensation in the left side of the chest.
"Are you okay?" Looking at me worriedly she said.
"..I'm.. going first," I said as I hold my chest with my right hand. I began sprinting fast while groaning with pain. I reached my apartment in a minute as the park wasn't that far. I opened the door and went inside as quickly as I could, the next minute I found myself laying on the ground. The pain was outrageous, I groped as someone stabbed my heart with a rode. My breathing became heavy. -uhh! (Cough) Blood splattered from my mouth and it was quite a lot. I crawled on the floor while sobbing.
*Didn't I say that if you don't kill someone, you will be the one to suffer. It's like the ' kill or be killed' phase. What should I do? It's your fault at first as you took it as a joke.*
I continued grabbing my left chest. The gripping became stronger. My brain is telling me if I grabbed my chest harder, the pain would get away. But it was completely superstition.
* there's still time left. You just have to murder a person. You just need a human. You have a human next door. I'm sure you know who's I'm talking about. Don't you?*
-uhh Stop!
* Moreover, she's alone so there's no way you'll get caught in the middle. Didn't you murder someone before? You got some experience. right? Your mother is in a coma. Why is she in a coma? You know the reason for her being in a coma…more than anyone? Don't you? Jodan.. *
-JUST STOP MANIPULATING ME!
" If I kill someone I won't be human anymore. I'm not going to become what the system and you want. I wouldn't cast my humanity. I won't! I won't! I won't I won't won't..."
I mumbled in agony for a while….
After that, I don't remember when I lost my consciousness. The night went away as the sun rose. It's morning. I opened my sights. The pain was still there but now it's bearable. * You're still alive? I'm stunned. You're able to survive from that severe pain. You got a pretty high tolerance level. Most of the people I tested were would be dead up now.*
Gazing at my bare red hand, I noticed something uncanny. The hand of mine did not look like how it is supposed to be. There was some red-colored liquid sticking on it. It was bright just like…
"Blood!" I cried in shock.