" Hmm?~ How did you know that I was testing you?" I grin at him.
" Just a feeling, and you were outside eavesdropping. Your footsteps stopped near the wall, so you were close enough to hear what happened. Yet you never entered even though it seemed I was in a difficult position."
" You were handling it just fine without me." I smile at my clever host.
" But since you're the one behind the downhill performance of Raan's company, you knew he would come to you eventually either to confront you or use me to to gain your favor." He stares right into my eyes.
" My host is smart." I chuckle, not forgetting to praise him.
" I am, so don't forget it. I can see and analyze more that what a normal person can." He turns to sit facing me, after swiping off the cookie crumbs from his fingers. I take a clean napkin from the table to wipe his lips and spots he missed on his hand. " You also don't need to carry the mission by your self, like you've done this month. And it's okay if you want to test me."
" It is?"
Why? Usually hosts would get angry, I'm really curious on how your brain works, host.
" Since I'll be testing you too." He grins. " After all this is going to be a long term partnership, I need to know if I can depend on you and you need to know if you can depend on me."
" That's true, my little host. I need to know if I can depend on you." I mummer as I raise my hand to his chubby and soft cheek.
" By the way, you're extremely hard to read, especially your behavior."
" Hmm?"
" But I'm starting to figure you out."
" Oh? Please, do tell."
" You like to do your job professionally. That's why at times your kind to me and guide me. Also why you take care of the Blake's company. But that mask is thin, you don't limit or contain your self. You enjoy what you like whenever you can. You especially like to drink a lot, at late night. You also don't mind deviating from the plot, so you're at least decently powerful."
" Go on." I chuckle as I'm patting his hair.
" But your behavior towards me is confusing." He scrunches his eyebrows together.
" How so?" I say softly, as my hand now traveled to his neck, caressing it.
He tilts his neck to the side, giving my hand more space to touch. He takes a breath in as my thumb touches his adam apple. " Like this, what your doing right now. You act like a teacher, even as a nanny sometimes-" That makes me interrupt by chuckling. "- but then you touch me, tease me like this, but with light touches as if holding yourself back."
He looks at me from underneath his thick lashes, " You never... go further..."
" Oh, my adorable, clever host." I say softly, as I push his back down to lay on the couch. I lean over, between his legs, my frame enveloping his small figure.
My lips replace where my hands were, on his neck. He gasps as he feels me bite his neck. I kiss and bite the side of his neck, down to his collar bone, then back up to his ear.
" Hmm..." He quietly moans, as his hands grip my shirt. Even the sounds he makes seem delicious. Damn it...
I whisper in his ear, " Take this as a warning, host." I lean back up, placing my hands on his raised knees, spreading them even further to grind.
" What warning?" He asks bewildered, breathing unevenly.
" Host-no, Kim Min Joon." I say seriously, bringing him out of his daze. " Never fall in love with me."
I lean back down, tilting his head with one hand holding his jaw.
Right below his ear, I suck hard enough to leave a deep purple hickey. " Hm! Wait- you-" I tilt my head up to reach his earlobe and start sucking on that as well. "-explain what you- hm - just said."
I stop playing around and whisper into his ear. " No matter how much we tempt each other, our relationship will only ever be system and host. Never fall in love with me..." So that we can stay together for a long, long time... before we have to eventually sperate.
I walk out, leaving him breathless, sprawled on the couch as if a beautiful painting was created right there.
I leave the mansion, and head for the garage. I speed out the drive thru after grabbing a random car's key.
I roll down the window to let the cold breeze in. I lean my elbow on the window, and drive one handed with my right hand, on the highway. My left hand brushes back my hair as I let out a sigh.
It was a mistake to try a seduce him from the start. After more than 1,070 hosts, I finally came across a decent one. In a mountain of dirt, a gem stone appeared. I'd be an idiot to ruin a system/host partnership by adding romance to the mix. Damn it, how do I fix this mess? And why'd I have to get so touchy and then walk out like that?!
I shouldn't... touch him. I shouldn't anymore.
I stay out late until 2 am just driving around. When I finally get home, I enter as quietly as I can. But the living room lights were on.
Host was sitting on the couch, hugging his knees with a blanket around him. He looks up at me silently as he sees me walk in. I stand there awkwardly, not uttering a word.
He softly sighs, " We need to talk."
" There's nothing to talk about."
I turn away from him, intending to walk up the stairs. However, host jumps up, and rushes towards me. He grabs my arm and pushes me until my back touches the wall.
Yes, I have the strength to fling him off me, but... I don't want to hurt him.
He steps up to me, close enough for our chests to have close contact. He tightly holds on to my wrist, " We need to talk about what you said before you ran off."
I sigh, I look down to meet his light colored eyes. " I already said what needs to be said. Let go."
" No, you don't just get to do that and then abruptly back up when you want." Frustrated, he lets go of his hold on me to grab my shirts collar and pull me down. Automatically, as if by instinct, my arm wraps around him, pulling him flush against me as I twirl us around, putting his back against the wall where I was.
His eyes widen at our quick position change. He glares at me, " See! You can't do something like this, and then say 'don't fall in love with me'!" He pounds his angry fist on my chest a couple times.
Damn it... That was automatic, I didn't even think about it!
"... Sorry." I let go of his waist and take a step back. Or rather I try to, but host pulls me back by my collar. I can't touch him, so I put my hands on the wall. With how close we are, it feels like I'm caging him in to kiss him. I lick my lips as I stare at his light pink, full lips.
" Just explain what's going through your head."
Kissing you.
" I already told you. We can only ever be system and host, nothing else."
" Why?"
I sigh. " That's just how it is, I can't break that rule." Something that doesn't apply to me, but I'll roll with it.
" It's not like what we've been doing this past month is purely platonic, how does that rule work?" He raises an eyebrow.
" And what have we been doing?" I smirk.
" It's not time for your teasing!"
" Ah, right, sorry. Um, during this mission our actions have the excuse of the previous Blake and Alex being lovers. So all the light teasing was excused."
" So that's why you never kissed me or did anything overly sexual?"
" Yeah, that's right." Well, the actual reason was that I didn't want to take it too far before testing if host was useful. " And if we take it too far, if we 'feel' too much, physically or emotionally, the main system will try to intervene." It can't interfere with the affairs of an S rank, but I can't say that to host.
"... Then... if I... if I don't say anything, can we at least continue as we have been so far?"
" No."
" Why?"
" I... won't be able to hold back." It's hard enough trying not to kiss you right now.
" Please." He whispers so quietly I barely hear him.
Damn it... but still, " No." I shake my head. I pull down his hands from my shirt. " I'm sorry for misguiding you, but this stops here."
I reach my hand to his nape and pull him towards me in an embrace. I pat his back to comfort him, for a minute. I lean down to kiss him on the forehead, then I step back. The first and last time I'll kiss host.
" I'm sorry." I say softly, before I let him go and turn my back on him.