As I enter the school grounds, I immediately ran like a horse or should I say, pegasus would do... Hurried off to the nearest comfort room for girls and examined me in the mirror...
"Nothing changed..."
My long beautiful hair is still here... My porcelain skin that shines through the light can still be seen... My beautiful chiseled face and eyes are still something that I can confirm... So why? Why did that girl look at me like she doesn't know me?! Why did that guard look at me with disgust?! It doesn't make any sense!!!
"WhywhyWhywhyWhywhyWhywhyWhywhyWhywhyWhywhyWhywhyWhywhyWhywhyWhywhyWhywhyWhywhyWhywhyWhywhyWhywhy..."
JUST WHY DID THEY ACTED LIKE THAT TOWARDS ME!? Nothing changed... I'm still beautiful... My goddess self can still be sensed... So why the hell?!
Unable to suppress my raging anger... I instinctively smashed the sink with my fists... Hot, scarlet crimson blood can be seen coming out of my hand as If they're escaping my boiling wrath...
"I won't stand for this... humiliation..."
Leaving my blood behind, I turned around... Only to see the other girls looking at me... Scared and terrified...
"I've had enough... I'll ignore It...".
Deciding that for myself... I walked away from them... Away from those gazes... Away from those uneducated brats... and gone ahead to my classroom...
The door for some reason... is unexpectedly big and heavy today... I just felt like It's not the same door I've been using to enter the room until now... It changed... Regardless, I still opened the seemingly heavy door and... entered the classroom...
I slowly walked to my seat like I always belong there... But no one even looked or noticed me while I'm walking... Some are doing their forgotten homework... Some are playing games in class... Some are flirting, minding their own business as If they're not a part of the world anymore...
But... at the 23 students here at this wide room... No one bothered to look at me... Before I knew It, I already reached my seat... But...
"Hey, Theresa... Do you want to go to a Karaoke tonight?! Our treat, of course..."
"Theresa! You're so cute today too... seriously, how can you be this cute, and beautiful and pretty, you know what I mean?"
"Theresa! Here are the notebooks I borrowed, you are smart..."
At the place where my seat is... Someone other than me is sitting on It... If a bug trying to replace the position of a goddess... This disgusting girl who has large earlobes...
But what's more strange is... She's getting almost half of the class attention... How?! Why!? This disgusting introvert is popular?! I can't comprehend!? Just how?!
"Uhhh... Theresa, Can I take my seat now?"
Regardless of this situation and my questions, I decided to talk to her calmly like a perfect girl would... She didn't say anything and just nodded their head approving what I just said to her... Good! She's still the same introverted girl...
When she's about to stand up... All of a sudden...
"Oi, that's not fair! She's the first to come so she deserves this seat... Go find your own, that Is If you'll find one..."
At his protest... The people surrounding her suddenly followed his lead... and like a squadron of bees protecting their queen... They didn't allow me to go to my seat...
From what I can see, there are only 22 seats here... and all of us are present... I don't know what happened to that one seat but... If she gives her seat to me, she will have to stand up... Those people don't want that so they're standing there protecting that dumb girl away from me... If I'm the villain here... The ugly, detestable villain everyone hates... Seriously...
"What the hell is wrong with you?!"
I've had enough... I've had enough... I've had enough...
"Why the hell you're protecting that disgusting freak!? Like she's some beautiful goddess or something!? All she has are her smarts, that's all!!!"
I'll say It now... I've had enough... I've had enough... I've had enough of those gazes... I've had enough of those words... I HAD ENOUGH!!!
"You should pound her, crush her, pulverize her like the disgusting bug she is!!! So why the hell you're treatment suddenly changed, huh!? Tell me!!!"
While catching my breath as I release those words from my mouth... The words I threw at them echoes through the whole room and knocked at the eardrums of everyone inside...
But... my attention is more focused on what the boy just answered to me... It's strange... His answer is so strange and impossible I could kick him...
WhywhyWhywhyWhywhyWhywhyWhywhyWhywhyWhywhyWhywhyWhywhyWhywhyWhywhyWhywhyWhywhyWhywhyWhywhyWhywhy... did he answer something like that?
Does he perhaps not capable of common sense...? Is he an alien who came down from the earth? Or some just someone who has a shitty taste? You must be kidding me...
"Well, if I have to answer your question... Maybe because... she's really beautiful, you know? If I have to put It into words... Her face and figure are just like a goddess..."
He said those words while having a giggle... And the others are red on their faces, others are smiling at me like It's only natural and It's common knowledge... I want to strangle them... I want to punch them... I want to scratch their chests until the heart appears and I'll pop It out...
"Oi, Kenny Sanchez... Just yesterday... You asked me for a date, didn't you?"
I lifted my fingers and pointed Them towards Kenny who's just behind Theresa... This guy who asked me for a date should know how amazing, how beautiful, how exalted, HOW MUCH OF A HOLY BEING I AM!!! So spill It to them, Kenny!!! Let them know... Preach the words!!! Preach them my greatness, my beauty, every holy detail regarding my exalted self!!! Hurry It Up!!!
"Dude... there's no way I'll do that... Ask you for a date... I mean, It's not like I'm trying to hurt you but to be frank, you have the face of a dog turd from the cool ranch... no offense, It's just the truth... Sorry, If I offended you... I respect all girls..."
"Are you fucking kidding me?"
Maybe I should just leave It here...
"You're going to ask a girl for a date then forgets her afterward? Are you fucking messing around with me?"
Maybe I should just shut up... I should stop now... while the wounds are shallow...
"Also, what the hell are you talking about?! This girl!? Beautiful!? Pfft, Is this some kind of joke that I'm too serious to understand?!"
No... I'LL TELL THEM!!!
"This girl is one the most, disgusting freak I've seen in my entire life!!! I mean, just look at her face... It's like an ice cream burned to crisp!!! Even the thought of approaching her makes me shiver to my bones!!! I bet If she enters the contest about who's ugliest, she'll get the top prize!!! Get It?! Top prize!!! Hahahahahaha!!!"
I told them all of It... My bottled up anger and emotions... While still laughing at them and also at myself... I stooped so low as to shout... filthy word came out from my mouth... I'm too tired to continue school, I'll just go home...
I turned my back to them... and about to go home... and drink some milk while we're at It...
"Ahhh, I see!!! You're just jealous!!!"
What did he just say? At his words, countless laughs came out from everyone's mouths... If his words are signal to everyone... Why are you laughing? Is there something funny with what he just said... Why for flying fuck's are you laughing? Those gazes... That filthy humiliating gazes... Stop directing that to me... Stop It... Laughter... Laughter... Laughter... Laughter...
"STOP THAT LAUGHING!!!"
END OF CHAPTER 4