To:.....
I used to get excited every time I woke up.
Why?
Because the thought of waking up and running to be by your side put me at peace.
My life was a tornado of disaster before I met you.
My level of stress and anxiety was through the roof.
Needless to say, stress and anxiety do not mix well at all and they've gotten the best of me.
Every day I would stress over my classes and grades which gave me the fear of not passing...
My anxiety.
My life ended up becoming a vessel for Oizys.
At one point I was contemplating suicide.
I was going to base my death on how many people would miss me, how many people wouldn't miss me, and people who just wouldn't care at all.
But then...
I met you.
You were the only reason why I didn't kill myself on that Saturday afternoon.
I've had a crush on you for a very long time, so when we became friends I didn't know whether or not to confess my feelings right then and there or to just give it some time.
So...
I waited.
As time passed by my feelings for you grew stronger.
So when I finally confessed to you I knew that I came on too strong and I hated myself ever since.
Now...
You're just as confused as I am.
And dare I say, yet again, that I am wasting my time.
I can't spend the rest of my life trying to change how you feel about me.
All of this was a simple yes or no question, to begin with:
Do you like me?
⭕️Yes
Or...
⭕️No
Please check one off so that I can move on with my life and stop wasting it away at your feet.
*Ding*
*Ding*
Oh...
It's a text...
From you.
See...
Even now...
While I'm reading your message.
I know that deep down inside you don't like me.
So why?
Why am I smiling like a complete idiot when I am supposed to be getting over you?
My mind is boggled with love.
Trying to figure out what to say next.
This is what I mean...
I need to realize that you're wasting my time.
As I close my eyes...
I begin to replay everything that's happened so far in my head...
I love you.
But at this point, I'm beginning to wonder...
Why Try?
Sincerely,
....