To: The Only Person Who Has My Heart 💜
Sometimes I wonder whether or not you like me.
I admire you everyday and all you can say is "chill" with two laughing emojis.
You tell me that you don't like me, but yet when I asked you should I stop admiring you, you told me no.
I was confused before, but now I'm even more confused than a small goldfish that thinks a fishbowl is its home in the ocean.
I lay awake every night wondering if any of this is even worth it?
If me liking and admiring you will result in you finally realizing your feelings for me or just straight up rejecting me in all?
At this point I'm beginning to believe that you're wasting my time and that I'm even wasting my time.
You were the first person that I actually grew to love since middle school and now that's all about to fade away.
If you aren't actually going to stop joking around about my feeling and think about how much I truly care about you, then I'm done.
Ha!
Wow.
Even though I'm saying all of this now, I know that I could never stop loving you.
See this is all funny in a way because it's obvious that I'm meant to be alone for the rest of my life, but yet my feelings for you grow stronger everyday.
Love.
It's a funny thing because now all I can say is
Wait...Don't Leave Me.
Sincerely,
The Idiot Who Can Never Put Herself First...