I close my eyes with a cover of my hand within my sight. I am preparing myself for the next moment that i'm about to do. I slowly press enter within the keyboard where my pointing finger were located.
I was praying for my name to be on the list of students who pass the University Admission Test for my desired course and university.
University of Southern Holmesians, the place were pressure is just a vitamins to every students. A well known institution for being the pioneer of great professionals. Most of there graduates are well-known in their respective graduate program. They mold their students in different ways. Unlike the other U
universities they have a different educational system. A perfect place for a student who wants to become a successful person.
The standards that they have is my primary reason why I want to go in their university. I have put my serious efforts in dealing with the challenge of its survival test in the admission. Nervously, I slowly open my eyes as well as to give a slip with my fingers within my sight to see if my wish were granted. Filled with anxiousness I pressed the button to open the link.
University of Southern Holmesians
Electronic Presentation of University Admission Test Result
Applicant:
Demius, Kier Jairos M.
First Choice: BS Geology (SAS Department)
Result
UAT: 80
CAT: 75
Interview: 80
Class Cards: 78
Total: 78.25
Remarks: Failed
Note: Inorder for the student to pass and be on the desired course he/she must have a total scale of 80 and above. Remarks are to follow.
As I saw the result from my admission test my world went down. I hate to see this, I am really shock with the result that I have. I can't hold myself, I am falling. My dreams are crashed, shredded like a tiny pieces of paper and thrown into the trash. How did this happened to me? My mind is erupting with so much questions.
My mind is full of questions and these things are hunting me. I feel like I'm drowning from these question that have been left with no answers. Does my knowledge are not enough? Does my IQ is not that much? These are some of the question running in my head at the moment.
"Hey Kie!" I woke up from the drowning moment of mine as the next person besides me, called my name. It was Mark Delavine my childhood bestfriend. We are at the cafe coz we've planned to be here just to find out the result of our test from the same university.
I can't pull my head off from the front of the screen of my Laptop because of the results of my test. My dream to be part of my top choice for university is crashed in just a blink of an eye. Sorry for exaggerating but its true.
My jaws were dropped, I still can't believe this. I have made my best.
"Hey! Wake up! Now tell me whats within your result" He clap his hand in front of me to catch my attention. I know that his been doing such for an amount of time, cause I can still feel his presence even though i'm so into my laptop. But my attention was nailed into the screen with full of question and blank spaces for answers.
I response to him as I fully checked the result. I tiredly give him the look that seems like I have carried the burden of Hercules. I know that my face is so awful and so disgusting with my expression.
"I failed" I murmured and slowly I looked down to show off my griefs.
"Shiaaa! Lemme See" He take my laptop then see what's within it. He take the mouse and scrolled it down to show more whats within.
He cursed like he don't believe what's with it. He double clicked the reload button to cross check the whole information. I did my best just to save that slot for my desired course and here it is.I even take it seriously. I spent most of my time to read more books about the items that would pop up within the testbook. I make the best answers that I could with my interview but the look of that interviewer was never been shocked with my answers. What does they want? I think I have the best answers with it all. Isn't enough?
"That's enough, I really hate that result. I will delete it and let it be." I said to Mark and took my Laptop. I am about to tap some keys in my keyboard and delete the file but Mark stopped me.
"Wait, you still passed!! But not in First Choice to your Second Choice!" He's giving me some words of incouragement, cheerful as if there is a rainbow after the rain. I hate it all.
Nah I hate it, I don't like my second choice. I don't want to become a teacher in the future.
"Nah I won't go for it, I don't wanna go to a room then teach in the future." I countered his celebrating expression while looking at me.
"But why? It is every awesome to become a teacher, Bro" He said convincingly.
"I won't" a frankly replied to him.
"But your rating in Second Choice was pretty high. And I heard that your future department was known for its club called CTE Club." He said while acting like he is so sure for what he is talking about. I even saw some gesture of confirmation from his face.
I scroll my mouse and looked at the next part of my result and saw this...
Second Choice: BSEd Major in Science (CTE Department)
Result
UAT: 95
CAT: 94
Interview: 95
Class Cards: 98
Total: 95.75
Remarks: Passed
Note: In order fo the student to pass and be on the desired course he/she must have a total scale of 80 and above. Remarks are to follow.
"It was a joke, how did that happened, I don't even take it seriously, then look at it!" I burst out of my nerves.
How pathetic it was, I didn't take it seriously during the test coz I don't have enough interest about the program, but then here it is, the result is insulting me. Yes it was a high rating but I can't get my mind for failing at my desired course.
"Breath! Destiny is calling you to be part of something more exciting. And besides its seems like Geology was not meant for you. Look! another door has open for you to enter. And for you to think that science is very connected to geology!" Mark explained to me with a smile on his face.
"Now I hate it!" I disagree to his motion.
"I didn't take any exam for other university because its already late and my parents are expecting me to be in that University" I explain with full of disappointment in my tone. I know my parents won't be dissapointed because I don't go for my course and they are very supportive with the things that I want. But this whole situation is a shame to me.
"Yes you do, you have successfully make it in the USH, but unfortunately not to your desired course. But damn! That department was also known in the university. They have an amazing standard too." He said amazingly. He even act like highly impress by the status of the department of my second choice.
I can't deny it. College of Teacher Education has an impressing status in USH. Especially to the Club that they have. It was the responsible for the continuous support step of the department on the way to the top. They gained a lot of bigger points from the Board of Trustees.
Look at the Standing
USH Departamental Standing
Academic Year 2019
Rank 1
SAS (School of Arts and Sciences)
203 Points
Rank 2
CTE (College of Teacher for Education)
198 Points
Rank 3
FLC (Future Leaders of the Country)
145 Points
Looking from the last year's result it was a close call for the 5th time Rank 1, the SAS to be dethroned. I can say that CTE is calling for a war to the rank 1.
As been mentioned, USH is famous and their educational system is way more different from other instituions. But the most exciting in the university was the clash of each department. Points are being observed by the students. Each department could earn a lots of points from different factors such as; Student's Performance,
Board Passers,
Effectiveness of the Departamental Clubs
and many more.
Numbers do really matters. And SAS have maintained that status for almost 5 years now. Pressure is just a piece of medication for every student. After all the name of the University has it's own price after the study.
Maybe it was the battle inside the campus but this chaos have made a better face for the University. Board Passers are extremely commendable.
But I can't accept it. I have to go for that SAS department but I can't. I really hate that result.
"Hey! enough with deep thoughts!" Mark said after my thoughts
"Filled that application form for your enrollment! Trust me you'll love it." My best friend said convincingly. Annoying but I don't have any choice anymore. Other universities have closed there enrollment and USH is the only one to accept there students passers from UAT. I may not like the program of my choice but I have to.
"Do I still have a choice? and enough with the annoyance. I need to fill this and just done my 4 years of hell." I replied to person next to me. Yes, for me it was hell to enroll for the course that I never imagined I would have. To say it, BSEd was not a bad choice at all, but I really don't want it. I take out a deep sigh and start filling the needed informations.
My day is bad. Really Really bad.
"And one thing! Be on their Club, I know you will enjoy it." Then he vanished.
I didn't even notice that he's done with his things. But I know, I am really dumped by this failure.
But there's something about the Club that he mentioned. He bothered me to be on that Club. He keeps on saying that there is something special with that but I don't know. I think I have to search the web to fill my curiosity.
I search the web about the CTE Club, scrolled my mouse and read some articles about it and I found something more interisting. I was amaze and there is some of me that telling me to go for it.
Mystery
This word is telling me to go for it. Its tickling the inside of me. My whole plan was filled with some exciting thought I could do when I get in to such club. I think I'm ready for it. No I will go or it.
"I have to be in that Club" I said to myself and let a grin to show in my lips.
But the whole story of today is worst. I can't denied it to myself. Disappointed but I have to move.
Hays welcome to my life. A few week from now I will go to that University and sadly not for my beloved course, but i'm about to target something.
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