Alissandra Cadence
"Can we change the movie? Love stories make me sick," Rebecca said sarcastically.
"You're just saying that now, missy, soon enough you'll find yourself going all crazy because the man that you adore suddenly forgot to say goodnight to you before bed," Jessica said then laughed.
As a matter of fact, I absolutely like the Jessica in this timeline. She's more mindful of things and she's very positive and knows how to give advice on certain stuff even though she's not that well experienced yet, but we're all like that right? We can mostly help others but couldn't really help ourselves.
"I'd rather enjoy an action movie than these predictable and cringey love stories, we all know that that girl's gonna risk losing everything just to have a "Happily Ever After" with that guy, right?" Rebecca said and sighed then hugged the throw pillow beside her.
"Spoiler," said Jason.
"I'm just gonna go outside, have some fresh air," I said then already stood up.
On my way towards the door, I noticed their hatstand. I took a closer look and found a cap similar to the man that accidentally killed Rebecca that night. It's literally the same, the style, the color, and I looked underneath and found the name -
Stacey?
The door suddenly opened and I saw a man enter their house. I've seen that face before...
"Oh, hi, are you one of my son's classmates?"
I was speechless, frozen, devastated, intrigued, and confused at the same time.
"Shit, fuck!"
That voice, the same voice...
I just stared at him, this is the man we've been looking for so long before, the man that I wanted to hit so bad when I was a kid, mourning about my sister. I'm so angry, I feel like every moment now I might let all these emotions out. But I realized that the things that happened here are different from what I know and experienced before.
Hold it, Alissandra, don't make such choices.
I took a deep breath "Yeah, they're currently watching a movie in the living room, by the way my name's Alissandra,"
"Okay, and where are you going, Alissandra?" he asked.
"Just going outside for a minute, gotta take some fresh air," I said then smiled against my will.
"Okay, don't go wander around there alone, this place is full of foolish people," he said as he took off his coat and hanged it on their coat stand.
It kinda seems like it, foolish people, you seem one of them.
I just gave him a half-smile and went out already. I was just planning on hanging around the porch again but I just couldn't. I walked away from that house as I burst into tears. I literally have no idea about where I'm heading to but I just wanna go away from that place as far as possible. I cried it all out in this cold and shivering weather, while all I'm wearing was my school uniform. I could already see my breath as I go down the road. I'm crying so bad that I couldn't even feel the cold outside, as the pain I'm letting out made me warm as hell, along with this intense anger. I never thought that the man I used to be with before whose dad is the one who is responsible for taking my sister's life. I mean, I ain't blaming Jason because maybe he was also clueless about it but it just made me feel way more different about him now. I've always wanted the answer to that question but I never knew that it'd be this hard, I just wish I should've never known that. But I'm glad I did because I finally knew. After all those blood, sweat, and tears of finding justice for my sister, I finally found the one who is responsible. It's true, we all seek only for truth, but sometimes the truth hurts so much that it's better to accept a lie or just abandon it all.
All that I can do now is to appreciate it as I'm already in a different timeline now, the better one, I suppose. It will surely take me some time to take all of these in, it's gonna be hard, but I have to. Because what's worth looking back if I'd just gonna ignore what lies ahead for me? I guess I'm just gonna start over, in this new life, in this new timeline. I feel like there's more to know in this timeline, much worse than this, I suppose, but I'm just gonna hope not. Saving my sister is just a huge thing that I changed in my life. Just like the wings of a butterfly, every line leads to a different one another, certain choices lead to new possible choices, but abandoning such choices that little do we know is the better one. I've learned that every single thing that you do in life is just like that, even the smallest thing that you'd do will definitely change you and the people around you's future. Just like a butterfly effect... My heart aches for answers, but even though the truth is as sharp as a sword, I'm willing to discover more in this world...
(High dive into frozen waves where the past comes back to life ♫)
(Fight fear for the selfish pain, it was worth it every time ♫)
(Hold still right before we crash 'cause we both know how this ends ♫)
(A clock ticks 'til it breaks your glass and I drown in you again ♫)
('Cause you are the piece of me I wish I didn't need ♫)
(Chasing relentlessly, still fight and I don't know why ♫)
(If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy? ♫)
(If our love's insanity, why are you my clarity? ♫)