SARAH'S POV
Weeks had past and our presentation is a success. I've got tight schedule during break and lots of job to do.
And of course during those days. My life became peaceful.
No annoying pranks...
No heavy activities...
No pairing projects...
No sight.....
...of him.
I should be glad right? After all this is what I've been waiting for.
This is what I wanted.
To have an ordinary life, job, future.
But why does it feel heavy on my chest?
It feels as if I missed his presence..
Do I?
No of course not.
It's better this way. Yeah
...it is.
~*~
"Ok class...since you all have finished the presentation..you will go on a field trip for your final exams. It's a written thesis and without it you will not pass this subject"...said our professor.
Guess. I'll have to leave work for a while.
The room is a little bit noisy because of the chatters all around about this fieldtrip.
"You will be going this friday so be sure to prepare and come"...she added. "That will be all..Class dismised"...then the bell rang.
"Hey, Sarah, let's go to the mall"...Lesley said. I can sense how excited she is.
This girl..really!
Since I have no choice on declining her, I gave up and ended uo going with her on the mall.
But before that, I took a small glance at his chair and it's already empty.
Well...I guess he's pretty serious about it.
I guess we won't have to see each other.
.....again.
"Hey, come on"....I heard Lesley so I shrugged the sight and catch up on her.
While roaming at the mall. Lesley's the only one feeling all excited about this. I've gone to fieldtrips last year and it's totally fine.
But this year. It feels like this is the first time that I'll go.
And I feel nervous.
Why?
Is it because....of him?
Is it because of the changes in my life.
...caused by him?
"You're spacing out again? Aren't you excited?"...she seems to notice that.
"I don't know it feels like it's my first time again"...I said while going through the section of the toiletries.
"You can talk to me, you seemed out of it lately. Is something bothering you?"...she asked.
And that's when I looked at her.
She's confused.
"I...I...I"....but then theough her side. I caught a sight...of him.
But.
With a girl.
"I'm just tired. Let's go"...I said and took the path outside.
What's there to expect? It's not like he's gonna change overnight.
Just because..he fed me dinner.
Just because...he accompanied me on midnights.
Just because he kissed me.
Will change the fact.....that he is.
playboy.
Do I even hold the ground to feel like this?
It's not like I'm his girl?
It's just that time..
And nothing more.
"Sarah"...I forgot she's with me." Talk to me, please"...she seems worried so I stopped on my tracks and stand there quietly.
"I'm sorry, Lesley, Something's been occupying my mind so I'm a bit of out lately"...I said. Still excuses.
Lame excuses.
"Yeah, I know but what is that something, I'm your friend right. Qhy wouldn't you share it with me?"...she said.
"Let's not talk about this right now, you need to get home"...I said and walked near her.
But she walked away?
"Les--"....she ran off.
Just why?!
I kept hurting those people around me.
I feel useless.
Scared that she might went on trouble. I called her.
But she won't pick up.
Really?!
Then I have no choice but to catch up with her.
Searching the streets, I didn't see any sight of her.
Just where did she--
Right!
~*~
"There you are...*pant*"....I said while panting heavily.
Still no response so I sat beside her.
"I'm sorry, about earlier. I didn't mean it"...I apologized. "What you didn't mean to not talk to me when you're having a hard time?"...."Am I really your friend?"..she said.
"Why would you think like that. Of course you're my friend."...."Fine, I'll be honest, I was thinking of work and my studies again. I am thinking about how to fill my duty for both of it. I'm strssed"...I said. But I didn't exactly said it all.
I kept ine thing from her.
I kept the fact that I was thinking about that Jerk.
"You should've told me Sarah"...is she crying. "I don't wanna burden you, and stop crying. It's not like I died"...by that I got hit by her.
"D-don't even say that. I might cry buckets if you really died"...she said and I laughed. "Really then my body would get sunk at your buckets of tears"...I joked and she laughed as well.
It feels great. I do have a friend and now we got into a fight. More like a misunderstanding.
But one place will always settle us down.
This place has been our peacemaker since we started becoming friends.
Rosebay Garden.
WAYNE'S POV
"Hey man, will you go on the fieldtrip?"...Lucas asked.
"You don't have to attend it if you don't want to. It's not like you haven't done it"...I heard Crane so I instantly look at him.
"No, I'm going"...I said nonchalantly.
I'm pissed.
Weeks had already past and that's still stuck on my head. It's not like I haven't seen Crane with a girl.
Yeah a girl.
But why do I feel like this into that woman?
I don't even care if they do end up together but why am I like this?
Flashback....
"Fine I accept it..and I don't want to see you again"
End of Flashback....
*Door opens*
"Hey dude, where are you going?"...I heard Daniel asking but I already got out.
I want to be alone today.
Whenever I see her, I kept thinking about her.
And it's irritating me.
Of all people, why does it have to be her?
It doesn't have to be her.
Does it?
To be continued......