Have you ever cared for the word love? Or Care?

A question that keeps my mind occupied.

A question that bothers me whuch I don't know why..

And...

A question that I want answer for...

Some say, Love completes the big portion of your life, because without love you will never be complete.

Or in other words...

'Love completes us'

I don't hate Love, but I've never thought of it.

Infact I beleive in it cause that's how my parents found each other.

And now we're a one big happy family not until an accident broke it..

Nine years ago,

"Are you done sweetheart?"...I heard mom asking me.

"Yes I am"..I cheerfully answered before grabbing my suitcase down the stairs.

"Hey mom, where are we going again?"...I asked her.

"We're going to your grandma"...mom said and I nod at her.

After we put all our luggages in the trunk of our car, I excitedly let myself in.

"Are you that excited sweetheart?"...mom said to me while dad is driving the car.

"Yes mommy, I finally get to see Grandma"...I said.

Mommy just smiled at me and dad opened the radio of the car and some music started to play..

It's so beautiful in here. I rarely got to see nature because in the city I was always surrounded by huge and tall buildings, so it's kinda nice to be away  sometimes.

While I am enjoying the view of the beautiful nature we're passing by, I noticed that we are now alone in the road, no cars behind or any vehicle so it's quiet and only the sound of our car can be heard at that time.

"Mom, Are we there yet?"....I asked here because I'm getting bored and hungry too.

"Yes baby, we are halfway there"...mom said to me.

"Are you hungry sweetie"...and now dad asked me the real question. "Yes dad"...I said and they both laughed a bit.

"I have chips in jere baby, want some?"...I noticed mommy took out the chips from her bag so my mood was slightly lighten up. "Yeah I'd love to"...then mommy smiled at me before handing me the chips.

I already finished eating but I was about to drink when I remebered that my water bottle was in my mom's bag too.

"Mom, I want to drink"....I said so she get my water bottle out of her bag but suddenly it fell down to the little and narrow space of the passenger and driver's seat so mom is having a little hard time to get it...

I want to help her but my seatbelt is kinda tight so I can't help her, and instead dad help her..

Just in time where our car should turn left when a big truck was also coming from our direction.

I was scared that time, and I can't even talk or tell dad.

I can't also move.

Until.....

"Got it"....dad said and handed it to me so I quickly grab it from his hand.

And that, I hear mom's voice screaming...

"Turn the car!"...she keep screaming that but I only can watch what's happening, there is no tear dripping from my eye, I froze right there and all began to slow motion.

As my mom we're screaming and my dad trying every possible way to avoid the truck, but it turns useless becuase the truck already hit us.

That's when my senses came back as the car rolls over to the ground, all windows have been broken and my mom and dad ard unconscois.

I keep trying to remove my seat belt but I can't so I grab one of the broken windows glass and start to cut the seatbelt on me and gladly it went off me.

"Mom, Dad"...my eyes suddenly watered when I saw my mom and dad lying to ground unconscios, so I immediately got off the car although my head was covered also with blood.

I couldn't think of myself right now, because I am worried about my mom and dad.

"Mom, please wake up, please"...I cried as I crawled up to their dead bodies covered with non-stop flowing blood from their bodies. "Dad! Mom! Please!"....I cried and cried.

Until I hear the police siren and also the ambulance but still I couldn't stop from crying.

The nurses started to check mybparents body and I bet they assume they're already dead which is true.

They also began to nurse me and I cried again when I saw my mother and fathers body being covered with a white cloth.

Till then I regreted it, I shouldn't have asked mom that time. I should've wait till dad turn the car before the truck could hit us. It was all my fault.

I wish I could've said sorry to them...

I wish I could say I love you to them...

Or

Even Goodbye.....

That...time I have funeral to both of my parents and a chance to send them off...

But after that...nurses and police agreed to send me to the orphanage, I didn't refuse at all...I was depressed back then, and all I can think was my parents who died...

It was comfortable at the orphanage though, but I've never socialized to the other kids there.

I would've talk but to the nuns there only,

And also that day I lost all the love I've been holding on. My parents died..and I'm all alone now..

And till then I've bever tried myself to associate with others again, because I'm afraid I can make the same mistakes again.

And since then without my parents I feel like I'm not complete anymore..

-Sarah