After entering the house, Li Li told what happened.
Uncle Li Li listened and sighed and said: "You come, I welcome you. When you give birth to a baby, where can you find a midwife? I, an old man, can't help you. If there is something wrong with you, , how should I explain to your dead mother?" "Uncle, I delivered the baby myself, and I drank it!" Then there was silence. For the sake of her son, for the sake of continuing the incense of Li Li's father's family, for a woman's sense of mission, or for something related to face and dignity. Li Li's mother really didn't care about her own life. Looking at Li Li's mother who was about to give birth, what could Uncle Li Li say? He seemed to have seen the girl who cut her wrists and committed suicide for the freedom of love again. Woman, what is all this for? He can give up his life for the sake of a man, he can give up his life in order to extend the incense for a man. He doesn't understand that he can only help this persistent woman.
Time passed quickly, and a month passed quickly. There were no mobile phones at that time, and there was no news from both sides. Li Li's mother is about to give birth. That night, she saw redness, followed by irregular contractions, and she knew the baby was about to be born. Judging from her belly, she always felt that she was pregnant, and it must be a son.
"Uncle, boil a large pot of boiling water for me, put it in the wash basin, and add some salt. A pair of scissors, and burn it on the fire. Later, no matter how I shout, you don't come in!" "Hey!" Li Li My uncle did as he was told, but he really couldn't do anything except heat the kang and boil water.
That night, Li Li's mother was alone. She endured the increasingly frequent stomachaches and held her breath. She bit a towel as if biting Lao Li's arm. Why should she be left alone when the two of them had something to do? Carrying. She twisted her body left and right, as if she could relieve the pain coming from deep inside her body. But she knew it was all in vain. In the trance, only her son's big eyes were looking at her. She endured it, endured it, and she couldn't help but scream. In the pain, she seemed to see a mother who had never given birth to a son. She said to Li Li's mother: "Girl, this is your fate. Bear with it and work hard." She saw her mother-in-law's gloomy face again, "You Look at Lao Wang's house on Qian Street. The wife she married there was a bit lacking (that is, she was heartless) and she gave birth to two boys!" In pain, Li Lim's mother saw the people in the same village who were abused by men and their mother-in-law because they could not give birth to children. , Li Xiu hanged himself.
The pain comes from the depths of hell. It is not pain in your own fingers, pain in your legs, pain in your toes, or pain in your stomach. It is a pain that is not a disease, a pain that cannot be taken by medicine, a pain that cannot be replaced by others, and a pain that cannot be avoided. It hurts.
In helplessness, she felt that the child was stuck. What should she do? "Am I going to die? No, I can't die. If I want to give birth, I must give birth to a son for them to see!" She pressed her chest and stomach hard and held in her breath.
Outside the door, Uncle Li Li, who had never married a wife, was frightened to death. He just didn't understand why people wanted to marry wives, why they wanted to have babies, and why they wanted to have boys. Is it really that fun? He was really afraid that his niece would die in this small house.
The long time finally passed. A child's cry soothes everything. Li Li's mother glanced between the child's legs, and her heart sank suddenly. Along with the child's cry, it was Li Li's mother's cry, "Why are you just a girl again? Oh my God, why don't you open your eyes? What evil have I done!" Li Li's uncle knew everything. Failed, he hurriedly shouted from the window: "Yadan'er, can I come in? What can I do for you?"
Only then did Li Lim's mother come to her senses. She hurriedly wiped the blood, cut the umbilical cord with scissors, and tied it with a thread. Everything feels so familiar. At that time, all the midwives in rural areas did this. If the birth was difficult and someone died, no one would be blamed. The blood still kept coming out, so Li Li's mother directly put paper and old clothes on it. She is ready to die now. She thought that this baby could change her destiny, that Li Li's father could treat her well, that her mother-in-law could take a good look at her, and that she would no longer be an outcast. Li Li's mother thought she would die of hemorrhage, but God didn't intend to take her away yet. She survived a dangerous 24 hours.
"Why don't we just give up on this girl and throw her into the woods?" Li Li's mother said.
"Everything is born, it's all life! It's a small life after all." Li Li's uncle said. "Hey, I feel bad too. After all, this is the life that fell from my body. If I throw it away, it would be a crime!" Li Li's mother lowered her head helplessly.
Li Li's mother had her confinement period in Uncle Li Li's small house. He ate cornmeal batter every day. Uncle Li Li saved some eggs and gave them to Li Li's mother within a month. When her confinement was over, one day, Li Li's mother knelt in front of Uncle Li Li and said, "Uncle, I want to ask you a favor." "I know what you are going to say, but my conditions, hey, are sinful!" He said.
Li Lim's mother said: "You have heard about what happened in Lijiazhuang, right? That Wang Qinghe's wife gave birth to three girls, and she was so angry that she hanged herself to death? If I go back with my children, the family planning cadres will Punish me, mother-in-law, and Lao Li to death. With his temper, will I have a good life?"
"This, this~~" Li Li's uncle was still hesitating. After all, this is not a kitten or a puppy.
"Look, is this okay? I'll leave the baby here for now. I'll come and take a look every now and then. When the wind blows over, I'll take her away. If you don't agree, I really have to throw her into the woods to feed the black blind bears. "
"I'm worried that I won't be able to support her. I'm an old man. I've never been married, and I've never had a child. What if there is a misfortune and the child is too small to survive?" Uncle Li Li was worried. say.
"It's okay. I even want to throw her into the forest to feed blind bears. What else can I be reluctant to part with? If someone has a headache, fever and cough, you don't have to worry about it. She is lucky enough to survive. But come here, her life will be short-lived." Li Li's mother said nonchalantly.
"Look what you said, who made me your uncle? Who made me your uncle?" Uncle Li Li nodded helplessly. Uncle Li Li is a temperamental person, not to mention this is a little life related by blood.
Li Lim's mother went home alone along the mountain road. Her mood reached its peak. Unexpectedly, he didn't feel any nostalgia or reluctance for this newborn girl. She also knew that she was done giving birth to a baby, and she would never think about having a son in this life.
When she got home, she realized that the village cadres had come several times. The family members said that Li Lim's mother had gone to attend a funeral at a relative's house. Everyone knew it, but there was no evidence and manpower was limited. The matter was settled. Li Lim's mother also heard that women who refused to undergo sterilization were caught and forced to the operating table to undergo birth control surgery. The people who caught the people and the people who caught the pigs to kill during the holidays were a group of people, all of whom were strong men. They are full of energy and vent their energy in the fields during the day, and then vent their excess energy on these women at night. After that, these women were not allowed to get pregnant, as pregnancy was a sin and evidence of guilt.
Therefore, Li Li's mother was very knowledgeable and followed the women's director and other village cadres to perform the sterilization surgery the next day. Everything is settled. Li Li's family is very tight-lipped and firmly refuses to admit that she was secretly pregnant or gave birth to a child secretly.
From beginning to end, no one asked Li Li's mother whether she encountered any problems when she gave birth to her child, or whether she had any problems. It was as if a sow had just given birth. Li Li's mother has always suffered from serious gynecological diseases. Adnexal inflammation, pelvic effusion, itching, vaginal discharge, and something like the child's placenta will fall out during menstruation. Anti-inflammatory drugs were unaffordable, so she boiled some garlic water and drank it.
But no one will ask these questions. Ladies will not mention or communicate with each other, otherwise they will think that you have cheated on your shoes. At that time, rural people had no culture and no information exchange. They believed that only women who cheated and raised men would have gynecological diseases, gynecological inflammation or sexually transmitted diseases. Men in that era never cared about hygiene. They only took a bath in the summer all year round. Winter is so long, and I usually don't take a shower for half a year, let alone disinfect my things. Women are their tools. They can be used when needed and put aside when not needed. There is no need to maintain, care or ask for help. There is no need for maintenance. In the eyes of men of that era, the difference between women and sows and bitches is that women can do housework, otherwise there is no difference. If a man doesn't beat his wife, is honest and honest, and is willing to work hard, he is a good man.
Half a year has passed. Li Li's mother went to Uncle Li Li's forest. (Because it was a girl, Li Li's father was too lazy to look.) He named the baby girl Li Li. As the old saying goes: "Heaven raises people from all directions, and people support people until their faces turn yellow." Li Li, an unpopular girl, turned out to be fair and fat. She could sit up, stand up, and crawl. I drink cornmeal batter with eggs and some vegetable leaves every day, and I lick the bowl clean after drinking it. Otherwise, you won't be able to grab it. Li Li didn't even have a cold or fever in half a year. Uncle Li Li loved her as much as he treated his own eyes. The kang is always hot, and I am afraid that the children will be cold. The kang was always covered with wooden boards to avoid burning Li Li.
Li Li's mother hugged the child and wanted to take the child home. After all, it was the flesh that fell from her body. She said: "Uncle, it seems that the inspections are not so strict recently." But Li Li's uncle said: "Wait a little longer, no, the old Liu family of Dajiao Village will also be fined 500, but he is his son. It's worth it!" Li Li's mother fell silent. She had not given birth to a son for so many years, and she always felt that she had done something wrong to Lao Li's family, and she could not hold her head high. It's like a woman who had sex with broken shoes and then was caught and raped in bed.