Hey I'm Sarthak, i am writing this to anyone who can read this, well this is about my life, let me tell you my problems. I am alone, nobody understands me, they just laugh at me and ignore me, even my father ignores my problems when I tell him, he never understand me. They say that I am pretending to get their pity but what they dont know that I don't need any pity i just want someone who I can rely on ,but nobody else really cares about me. I hate studying but if I fail my parents are going to throw me out of the house and I don't really have a place to call my home and I will just starve to death.
I can't join army because of my hand injury and to be worse its on my right hand so i even have trouble writting. You know sometimes I wait for some one to come to me who understands me but no one come. Its been 17 years of waiting but no one comes when I am in trouble or accident. Worst of all people including my family mocks me about trouble. I don't have any faith in anyone else even not in myself. I just want to be left alone but no one wants me to be able to rest even my body causes me problems now that I think about it, it seems like I am somekind of curse, i don't have anything or anyone to share my pain. I don't have any goals in my life. I am really tired of this life, just please someone kill me when i am asleep or give a painless deth to me, please i beg you. All my problems will be solved if I die. No one will relly care about me after a few days after my death. I am only 17 but I don't have any faith in living please send me rest eternally. If i can have a wish then I want to sleep forever. If there was some one who i can call a family or some goal i might have a faith but sadly no. I was even taken to a psychiatrist when I was 11 for check up by my parents because when they believed in our neighbors that I am some kind of a psycho but I tried to explain them but they don't listen to me. That day was the day I lost my faith in my only family that i had. I know you can't understand that pain but u know when someone who you believe Don't even Listen to you it really hurts. Well i guess thats all this might be my last note if igo in more depression and commit suicide.