I like walking in nature or silence to sooth my heart. It's just.....it's so relaxing, relieving....
A year later
Today is the day we'll graduate. All the students gathered infront of the university and all of them threw their academic caps in the air. And I was to follow them.
After the ceremony, everyone were getting ready to head back home with their luggages. We four girls were packing ours too.
"Areum" Emma called my name. I just hummed in response while putting some notebooks in my bag. "Here" she said, "Is it yours?" she asked, I turned my head to her and she was holding a small yet normal-in-size frame. I forwarded my hand to her and she gave me the frame.
It was a picture of him.
Park Jimin.
Everything that happened between us flashed infront of my eyes. I without knowing started recalling everything.
The day we met.
The day he kissed me.
The night he proposed me.
Everything.
My heart urged me to return to South Korea.
...
We returned home after our packing was done.
As soon as we returned I told everyone to come to my room.
...
"I think you should return Areum...you still have time. Don't waste it!" Leah warned me.
"And this time, am totally with Leah, Areum" Sherell said.
Tears were threatening to fall although it's not such matter, but, only thinking of returning made my heart break into million peices, I don't even know....Why?
"Don't cry Areum, it's not a matter to cry, it's to take your decision now." Eric said
"Think about it tonight, but don't stress yourself too" Steven said as they all walked out of the room.
I rolled in a ball and cried silently. Even a single....voice of mine didn't came out.
...
It had been hours... It's now midnight. I wanted to relax but the tears kept on streaming down my eyes.
I went to the backyard with small steps and way to the river bank.
As I sat on a vacant bench, I heard someone call my name. I turned my head back and there was....Kaituo.
I patted the empty place beside me and he sat on it.
After he came closer....I could see....it was written on his face that he cried. But why? Why did he cry?
....
There was an awkward silence which was killing me, seriously, I had to break it.
"So, why did you cry?" Good Areum, nice question to ask first.
"Hmm? Me? When did I cry? I didn't cry." he said as he sniffed.
"Don't lie, your eyes are puffy and your face has marks, as if water trailed down it and as it dried it made marks." I said.
he sighed.
"Yes." he licked his lips.
a tear escaped his left eye.
"I thought, I would tell you this yesterday, as soon as we get home. But, " he sighed.
he gaze wandered in the night sky, full of stars.
"As we reached home.... this discussion, then hours went.", "And now I think I should tell you, as I don't know, if tomorrow I can see you or not." he said.
"What do you mean?" I asked in confusion.
He turned his face to me,
"I love you!"
And, he suddenly grabbed my face....
He kissed me!
My, my hands didn't move, my body didn't move nor responded.
The tears that I was holding back now released.
I was crying, but still my hands didn't move.
I somehow managed to reach my hand out.
I hold his hand that grabbed my face and squeezed it as hard as possible.
He broke the kiss as I pulled my face back.
"Bwo? (What?)"
My lips were trembling.
I stood from the bench but he held my left hand.
"Areum?"
"I..I....I can't."
"Hmm?"
"I can't. I can't Kaituo. I...I don't want to hurt your feelings but.... I.... I don't love you"
"Why?" he asked softly as he stood up.
I didn't reply.
"Why Areum?" he shouted.
I still didn't reply.
"I said why?" he asked, as softly as possible.
"Is..is it for...Jimin?" he asked.
My voice didn't come. My tears were only streaming down my face.
I quitely escaped from that place, where I was suffocating. I wanted to get back and explain to him.. but my voice wasn't coming out.
As I went to our house, I quitely went to my room and layed on my bed.
The things that he said few moments ago were the only thing that I could hear and he was the only person that roamed in my mind.
I pulled the blanket over my face and cried the whole night.
...
"Kim Areum? Are you alright?" I heard Hye's voice.
As I opened my eyes, all of them were standing there, except Kaituo.
I sat on my bed.
"Where is Kaituo?" was all I could think and say.
"Hmm?" Steven frowned hus face.
"Where is Kaituo?" I asked again.
"He, he is sleeping" Kye said as he pointed out of my room.
"Come, let's have breakfast together" Sherell said.
"Hmm, I'll go get freshed" I said.
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A/N: hey! so I finally updated! well I wanna tell you that today's my birthday, and am really happy cuz today's my brother's wedding too:)) so from the next year, this day, two celebration!
Well, i will tell yoy today's date - 15th January.
And am really sorry if I dissapointed you with this chapter... but yoy know i promise a very nice moment will be updated in few days:))
Ok so i should get going.
Have a nice day/night!
Author nimout~