Eunioa's
Im watching them, watching humans having so much fun near the shore while im quietly hiding behind a rock. I watch the kids running around, playing with the sand, most of the humans were standing, walking, talking, laughing, and playing with a round thing that goes high above the air to which im suddenly confuse, my head tilted but still i kept on smiling, having thoughts what would it be like to join them, to be like them, to dance around so free, to relax under the sun without anything to worry. Even if im stuck behind this rock all the time, im thankful because i always get to see him, to see his smile , his beautiful green eyes that shines as his friends would make him laugh even harder. I will never be tired to watch them, almost everyday i go to this exact same area just to see them, observe them, observe the human life, especially to observe him. I dont know why he's the one im attracted at the most, he looks so familiar, feels like ive known him for a long time, feels like ive met him in the past. But meeting him would be impossible, im a mermaid and he's a human, that would take a miracle to happen and besides i dont want him to see me like this
suddenly a fishing net that humans use to catch fishes to my knowledge appeared within my sight, I was surprised, i dont know what im supposed to do, i was never trained to fight against humans. I then protected myself, i curled myself and stare at these men with anxiousness filling all my emotions. I was that desperate, I was that useless I couldn't even escape from some nets that they use to trap me, I couldn't fight for myself what more if one of us has been caught too.
"A MERMAID! WE CAUGHT A MERMAID!"
I was surrounded with lots of nets, the humans trapped me inside their small boat, the sudden resounding announcement made the people look and stare at these fishermen at their boat near the coast. As they held me captured I keep thinking about my sisters, about my home, how im desperate to go home, I keep looking for an escape, a hole from a net perhaps but there were too many.
When we got to the coast, they threw me on the sand merciless, at this time I realized some humans will be forever cruel to some unfamiliar creatures they see, i remember my sister's words "Humans destroy what they cant Understand" After they threw me I didn't expect my tale transformed into a human skin, my scales on the bottom part of my body and my hands were transforming progressively into a skin like humans i suddenly have two long legs like human beings, im frightened at the same time bewildered. I was even more surprised when my hair turned into black, usually when im in the sea my hair is glittering in silver. Still my body was curled up like a ball, my tears were almost escaping, without my tale i felt naked, there were too many eyes to see, too many to even count. There were whispers, most of them were shocked, some of them were surprised to see a mermaid, a real mermaid.
The attention was on me, then i saw those familiar green eyes, he quickly came in front of me with baffled eyes, his expression was unpredictable, indecipherable, he was so confused at the same time he has those amorous eyes that anyone could fall for, his friends also came near us and unexpectedly said a name while staring at me
"Harra?" He bend down in front of me, checking me as if to see that i am real, his confusion increased, at last our eyes met each other, i met his wonderful eyes as he met mine
"You have silver eyes, you're not Harra" He stated then gradually sat on the sand while his eyes still lock on mine, I made a small smile watching how his eyes showed a great disappointment as the ochre sun slowly began to go down very much suitable to the tangerine color of the clouds
But then that beautiful scenario stopped when men immediately grabbed the net where im currently trapped, they put me into a thing that has four wheels, some lady approached me and injected something on my skin
That was the last thing I knew
My eyes woke up seeing the unfamiliar surrounding, i can feel the exhaustion running through my body, i feel sleepy, us merfolks never sleep, we never cry, we are apathetic creatures, i guess im the only one on our kind that have these feelings like humans, to be enamored by the human world, my mother and father never knew i have these kinds of feelings. We only talk inside our minds, we're also telepathic but only to our kind. We never speak our feelings or even talk about it on our minds, for sirens it is against our principles to even feel something like humans could, they despise human beings because of the saying that Humans Destroy What They Cant Understand
"Hey!" my eyes slowly look to see who's calling, i still feel tired, this is the first time that ive felt so tired, like the air had drained me almost as if i cant breathe if i wasn't in the water right now, i then noticed that i was inside a large glass tub. I can tell the water that they poured comes from the sea so im feeling a bit comfortable, I can smell the foreign air, the place was filled with many machines, some tubes, and some scary people wearing long white coats, they were watching me
"Hey! Look here!" I look from my right direction, there were too many flashes, too many people but im too tired to even acknowledge them
I closed my eyes and tried to be in slumber, for the first time in my whole life i finally felt what its like to fall asleep, to have equanimity, I dont know why I was felting like this considering that I got captured, maybe they put something when they injected me
"Hey, hey.."
"Please wake up.."
"You need to wake up"
"Hey"
My eyes immediately open, i was alerted, i almost forgot that i was held captive by humans. I need to go home, my family is waiting for me
"Hey calm down, please calm down first"
our eyes met again and i felt that warm comforting expression, i began to make myself calm. There's no people, no flashes, no noise, only silence. But this time him and his friends are here, the place was now dark emphasizing a small spot light above me, I can hear the machines tingling around, but there were no scary people wearing long white coats. I wonder why they are here? how did they got here? what are they going to do? I thought about all the possible things that could happen but besides that I stayed merely quiet, I see my body, my scales were back again, and I realized the transformation will only happen if im not in the water
"We'll help you escape but you cant go back to the ocean yet"
I wait for him to talk again at the same time made me alarmed. Why? my sisters are waiting for me, the sea is waiting for me persuading me to become part of the ocean again. I cant stay here for too long, they will torture me, forcing me to speak their language, injecting me with some experimentations
"There are a lot of fishermen trying to look for more of your kind"
No, they cant capture one of us, almost all of our kind are skillful and have the potential to fight against humans, im the only one that is too weak, im probably the most easiest mermaid to capture and they did successfully captured me
"We'll help you get out of here but we need you to do something first"
I stare at his green eyes to wait for his response
"We need you to walk"
Since i have no choice, i knew that i wasn't safe here, i knew i had to accept their help or something could go worse
They kindly put me on the cold concrete floor then the transformation began, i didn't even know that we had this ability. They slowly help me rise up while covering my whole body with a long cloth, and now its time for me to walk
I breathe heavily as i made my small steps, i almost fell down but they guided my arms to lift me, so we continued walking, as we got outside im truly amazed by the environment. As they guided me to walk, i cant help but to mesmerize the trees that were surrounding us, i can hear the birds chirping, I see everything clearer on their world now and i dont know why but i feel excited to see where would they take me, I can finally get out of my comfort zone, half thankful that i was trapped by fishermen and brought me here
Im certainly thankful that they helped me
We continued to walk, my feet can feel the ground, the rocks we step, how i can feel the pain, how the air suddenly hugs us and for the first time i feel the coldness of the air. So this is what it feels like to be human, this is amazing.
We arrive in front of a four wheeled thing that humans use to transport themselves easier to go to different places, i'm still on the state of being perplexed that i do not even know how to get inside, my eyes went big when they opened it so easily and guided me to get inside and sit. I examined what was inside this thing, there were many buttons so i began to press each of them but they ordered me not to, so I followed what they said and kept silent. He started the thing, pulled something beside his seat and the thing started to move. Excitement rushes through my veins, but i realized that i couldn't speak, i dont know what to speak, what to tell, i dont know the right words
"Yo Sev, I've done some research about mermaids. They have such high IQ levels, they can easily adapt to new places, it is also possible that they can understand our language although it is not stated here how they communicate to each other" I heard one of his friend's voice behind me, they were three of them sitting while there are two of us in front. While this thing moves so fast and smooth I can see the places, the buildings, seeing the humans doing their usual jobs as i enjoy the cold breeze against my face
"Maybe she could understand us, perhaps she just doesn't know how to speak" another voice of a girl says behind me. I slowly put my hand outside this thing with that i felt the joy that i could only experience once all my life. There were also things like ours that passes by, sometimes they pass opposite from our direction, sometimes we move in synced. I can also see so many stars appearing through the night sky, this feels like a dream come true for me
"Where will we keep her?"
"To my house"
"Are you sure? but what if she needs the ocean?"
"We'll see"
The thing continued going, we pass by many buildings and many people walking around, some were laughing and busy talking with their acquaintances. So i think of the comparison between their world from ours, their world is much more fun, their world has a lot to offer, they are so lucky to have this world before them.
Suddenly I see a person walking on the road with this glasses in front of his eyes i wonder what is it for? But his existence made my heart palpitate, i can feel that longing, even if i saw him quick i can almost notice his eyes were empty, like he had no purpose from this world at all, I feel something that I haven't felt all my life, I feel some water dripping against my cheeks, my eyes were watering, am i crying? but sirens cannot cry, then i realized i was in a human form, I can feel everything, i can feel sadness, excitement, and other things. Do humans even need a reason to cry?
I faced him with a confused look as the water keeps escaping from my eyes
"Are you crying" It wasn't even a question
"Can mermaids even cry?" One of his friends asked
"Mermaids cannot cry dude they live on the sea, are you that stupid?"
"What? im just expressing my thoughts, but why cant they cry though?"
"Fucker how can they cry if they're surrounded with water"
"Ohhhh"
I tilted my head, im very curious why humans can cry and im very willing to listen why they cry. Our trip was amazing, his friends just continued to talk each other along the way, they were discussing about the creatures of the sea while my eyes was busy exploring the places we've been, i noticed he kept looking at me and into the road. I wonder what is he called? I want to ask him, but how? what's the term for that?
"Yow you cant just ask what her name was then fuck her are you even kidding me??"
"Well for your information we fucked"
"And that was yesterday?"
"Yeah right after we got out from the party"
"You're such a playboy!"
"As usual, that's who he is and he'll regret it someday haha"
"Dude! im still offended that you called me a piece of shit!"
"Oh i thought you're used to people calling you like that"
Name? is the term "name" to ask what they are called? This frustrates me, i never thought thinking like humans would be so frustrating im just gonna call him green eyes
"Guys, we're here" green eyes said and then i was surprised again because this building in front of us look so worldly, look so beautiful. I didn't know how to open this thing so i waited inside, one of green eye's friends opened the door while having this comforting smile
"Do you need help?" His smile was very appealing, i never knew humans at this close look so beautiful and helpful, well some of them. He help me stand up and patiently guided me inside the building, what is this even called? after we got inside, i see almost all of the things here are neat to my knowledge my kind would always say that humans are always messy but this just proves that they're not. One of green eye's friends offered me to sit, so I sat down quietly while observing the whole place, his attractive friend sat near me, two of them sat in front of me. There was a quiet acknowledgement between us, only our breaths filled the quiet room.
"Uhm do you wanna know our names?" the attractive guy asked me so i quickly nod right after
"My name is Miles" The attractive guy said still having this sweet smile
"My name is Mauve" The girl said with her hair tied at the back of her head, she looks pretty bubbly to me
"Ehem my name is Cash, Milady" The guy with something stuck on his ear uttered, there were black small things that are attached to his left ear, is this what they call fashion? He came near me to which i didn't know what to do he held my hand as his lips touched my skin
"Oh stop being such a playboy Cash, you look stupid" Mauve implied, Miles did a small chuckle as he nod his head as an agreement to what Mauve said. What does playboy mean?
I almost spoke some words to ask them when suddenly green eyes appeared out of nowhere, i didn't even noticed he was already inside.
"Okay guys, Mauve and her can stay at the first room, you two could stay at the second room"
"Bruh you know i have some trauma on that room"
"Well i dont give a damn you sleep with Miles on that room"
"Dude did you even clean the rooms?"
"Yeah, dont be such a pussy"
"I am not! im just making sure!"
As they continued to talk to each other I cant help but to gaze outside the glassed doors, I force myself to stand up quietly, all of them were still arguing about something, i made sure not to get their attention. As im in front of the glassed door my head tilted again, i dont know how to open it. Suddenly I see a hand opens the door and I saw it was green eyes, his friends were already behind him staring at me. I go outside, the cold breeze welcomed me, i can see the beautiful city, their lights flickering and shining like the stars, i can hardly see the ocean, but i knew my sisters were calling me, looking for me. Probably they're exploring around the ocean trying to find some food. I suddenly missed the depth of the ocean, but realizing that this was my dream to be with them withheld my yearning for the darkness and salty water, I want to explore their world
Green eyes stood beside me, he's also watching the beautiful view
"Eunoia" I silently pronounced, i can see that he's looking at me waiting for my next word to say, as if he was captivated by my voice that he didn't glanced back at the city anymore
"M-my name i-is Eunoia"
Seven's
I open my eyes, smelling the scent of fried chicken and eggs, the curtains swaying back and forth with the opened glassed door on my balcony seeing the azure sky, i hear all my friend's voices talking and laughing, I wonder what they're doing. I look up on the ceiling with sleepy eyes, the noise they're making is too much the neighbor's may hear and give us an admonitory, well since they're always like that and they always get in trouble most of the time especially Cash, he has an adonis face with a nonchalant attitude regardless of anything that's gonna happen he will still going to be cool about it. My eyebrows curled a bit when i noticed someone was lying beside me, i turn over and saw her delicate body, her face was facing towards me, she was still sleeping so peacefully, she looked beautiful at this view, I never knew when mermaids turn into humans they are actually beautiful to look at, any man could do anything just to have this sight but there's just one tiny problem
She's naked
"MAUUVVEEEE"
"MAAUVVVEE"
"MAUVVEEEE"
I screamed three times and then Mauve came inside the room panicking but after she realized what was going on she made a small smirk, Eunoia also woke up and look at us with her innocent eyes wondering what was going on. She looks cute though, she really is like her, every bit, her voice, her hair. One thing that's different between them is Eunoia's silver eyes and Harra's black night sky eyes
"I dont want to even talk about it" I said leaving the room
I dont even know why she was naked, nothing happened to us last night obviously and especially im not a pervert like Cash. Right after she said her name, I was just staring at her as she was looking at the city lights wearing this cute innocent smile. That was more pretty to stare into, it takes me back to our moments, our precious moments we had together. So I thought we had everything, we loved each other, nothing was wrong, but why did she killed herself? I always thought that maybe I wasn't enough but looking back at what Harra did everything for me just to make me smile, just to make me happy. My happiness was hers, and i didn't even know that she was suffering all this time.
But now after three years, this incident happened. Where these fishermen caught a mermaid on the beach, they had her and I was very much surprised. I thought she was Harra, but she wasn't. We knew people are gonna be messy about it, the reports started last night when we watched the tv, people were in shocked and surprised especially the people from our city, they were completely desperate to see a mermaid that they would pay anything just to see her. I know some scientists or some people will be experimenting her, analyzing and examining her body, I dont know what came after me why I suddenly wanted to rescue her, I just followed what my instinct said and did what we could to release and protect her
Eunoia's
I was woken up by the scream of green eyes, why was he even screaming Mauve's name? For the second time I had a good night sleep like humans, i decided to sleep with green eyes bed, no reason i just want to see how he sleeps, and considering that mermaids cannot even sleep i certainly wasn't comfortable to sleep with clothes on, hm maybe green eyes wouldn't mind, maybe most of the humans do this too, maybe even normal for them. I manage to speak my name to green eyes last night yet i dont even know his name yet, im excited to speak more words with them, to talk with them, i think they are pretty cool. Mauve guided me to a small room, I examined it, touched everything, I wanted to ask-
"This is called Bathroom, this is where we clean ourselves and wear different clothes everyday"
She told me a lot of things to do inside the 'bathroom' she taught me how to wash myself with 'soap', wash my hair, and dry myself. She made me wear a different cloth this time, and she also made me wear the thing she calls 'shorts' I was a bit overwhelmed by all these foreign things i hardly knew it exists
"There! you look perfect!" she said with sparkling eyes, examining me from head to toe, she made me wear this 'red dress' with shorts on just so 'boys wont have to look'. I wonder why would they even look? what else is there to look at?
After we got out from the room, both Cash and Miles were busy talking to each other as they were enjoying eating their food. I haven't eaten since yesterday, its so evident for Mauve that im getting really hungry because i cant stop looking at the food on the table
"Seems like Eunoia's hungry" Miles stated wearing this small smirk
"Do even mermaids like to eat our food?" the attention was on me again, they were waiting for my response for about 10 seconds. I nod my head and quickly sat on the chair in front of Cash and Miles, I gradually pick out some chicken and eat like how they eat. They eat almost the same way as ours, but ours is much more brutal, we pick our foods like a harsh hungry animal, and we dont cook of course, we eat in some unpleasant ways that humans would think its too gory. Considering i was very hungry i quickly ate three chicken without gracefulness and elegancy, pick out the two breads and more food at the table
They were a bit stunned from my behavior, I smiled with innocence as they continued to eat
Experiencing this is beyond, I always thought what would it be like to eat with humans and now im here eating with them! wearing human clothes! eating human food! and even slept with them! I cant hide my happiness so I keep on smiling like an idiot
"Where's Sevi?" Mauve asked. I wonder a bit for a moment, i haven't seen him this morning after he shouted and walked out
So Sevi is his name
I never saw him smile since yesterday after they rescued me, maybe i should make him laugh by doing stupid things hehehe
I was completely dazed again seeing this incredible view in front of me, I could hardly contain my emotions, I was excited, nervous, happy, I didn't know what to feel exactly. Mauve advised me before we got here, she made me wear this thing that they call sunglasses and a wig, she said i have to pretend like them just so people wouldn't find it suspicious. I jumped from my excitement, I pulled Mauve to go near these strange machines that humans ride, I can see their happiness and surprised faces while they ride these amazing things
"I know, I know, just be calm" Mauve smiled at me acknowledging my thrilled expression
Cash and Miles were also smiling while looking at me, as for Sevi who's staring blankly at me but i didn't mind him, i dont want to ruin my excitement just because of the cold aura that surrounds him
"Well, seems like she's like her, also enjoys small things" Mauve said as he looks at Sevi, his hands were hiding at the sides of his pants, he looks pretty cool with his messy hair, his cute green eyes, and his alluring fragrance
Mauve said this is called the Amusement Park, people go here to enjoy themselves, to have fun, also to have bonding with their friends and families. Yes, I noticed a lot of families walking pass us with pure happiness, the kids running around eating some strange things they call 'candy', some people at our age were mostly here, riding, eating, talking happily with their friends. We took some rides, at first i was incredibly nervous but Mauve comforted me and told me it was safe and we would be fine, and honestly I have never experienced all my life the joy i was felting while riding those things, we also joined some fun games and other amusement purposes. I saw a lot of beautiful attractions and some even more scary rides that have too much people waiting in line but they were patient enough to wait
We got inside a 'restaurant' that they call, where people order foods they want and people who are part of the restaurant will give them their food that they ordered. We're sitting outside the restaurant, we picked the table for five people then Mauve ordered us some food
While waiting for our food, i cant help but to notice a girl and boy at our age were happily talking while eating some candy as they walk together, there was also a girl and a boy who's sitting right across our table showing amorous love, what term do they use to describe them? Mermaids do not experience that though, experiencing true love, maybe i was not the only one who was desperate to feel that, maybe some of my sisters felt that too but they were cautioned not to feel that anymore because it is against our principles. Mermaids cannot fall in love, since we are apathetic creatures it has a clear understanding that we don't need to feel loved, we don't have the need to feel such deep emotions
Mauve probably noticed that I was staring across our table, she motioned to see what i was looking and turn around to face me
"They are called 'Couples' two people who have romantic relationship to each other"
"Couples.." I quietly muttered
"Aha! see that girl over there?" Cash pointed at the girl sitting alone on her table not far from us
"What will you do this time?" Miles responded with a smug look
"I bet ya i can make her give her number to me" Cash boldly dictate
"Dude i'll give you ten dollars if you can" Miles suggested, Cash was even more motivated to go at her table, I can see Mauve rolling her eyes at Cash but she was kind of interested to see what will happen
"Im gonna buy something" Sevi said as he stood up, I suddenly had the urge to go with him so i quickly stood up also and followed him
"I will come with you"I said, i can see his eyebrow raised while looking at me
"Sure"
"Eunoia, stay with him no matter what okay? and especially you Sev, watch her carefully and make sure she wont get lost. " Mauve instructed us so i nodded without any hesitant
As we walk in front of many people, I cant hide my smiling face, i met some people's eyes, for a moment I felt like i was truly one of them, like they accepted me. But of course, that will change once they will see who I really am, their smiling eyes will change once they see the real me
"Why did that girl suddenly held his hand?" I asked looking at Sevi, his lips made a small curve as he look down on the ground while walking together
"Because she's important for him" He answered, so I stopped walking, I noticed that he's actually much taller than me and i can still smell his fragrance from here. He stopped walking when he noticed I wasn't following him, by the time he turned around I held his hand that instant, he looked surprised at first, I smiled
"You are important for me" I said with sparkling eyes, true he's important for me, if it wasn't for him those fishermen would've tortured me, if it wasn't for him I would never go to that same area just to see him near the coast all the time, to wait for him and his friends to come up, to smile because he's enjoying himself, he was smiling and laughing so recklessly, he felt so free, so pure.
"Oh let's eat those!" I screamed and pointed at the person who was selling this bizarre food that kids were eating, I see some old people were also eating it and their expression made it look more delicious
"Ice cream?" So it is called an ice cream!
We walked in front of the person who was selling those, he gaze at us with comforting eyes
"What flavor do you want?" Sevi asked as he decided to pick a small purse behind his pants
Hmm there were a lot of pretty colors that I couldn't even choose, it gave us a lot of time just for me to choose a flavor and Sevi decided that we'll select the cerise flavor. So the person prepared our order and after a moment of silence he gave us our ice cream, i dash out my tongue like what others do when they eat it, after comprehending the flavor i was immediately attached to it, the flavor was like cherry, both the flavor and its color made it look more splendid
"This is so delicious!" I commented, i started walking so freely while enjoying every bit of my ice cream, Sevi made sure to guard me so his eyes was just focusing on me while he eat his ice cream too, he was gradually smiling as i turn around to check him and suddenly the unthinkable happened
"Oh shit pfft" I heard him cursed and almost laughed, he knelt down in front of me checking if i was fine. I stumbled upon a big rock that was laying on the ground, and what's worse my ice cream fell off!
I mumbled some words I could say, i was very frustrated by the fact that, that was the first ice cream i could eat on all my life I wanted it to be special but it fell, to my discourage I see Sevi forcing himself not to laugh while i was still sitting on the ground looking at the poor ice cream spreading on the ground
"Hahahaha! that's what you get for being so reckless" my lips pouted as my eyes sulk in annoyance, he helped me slowly got up, he brushed my dress to clear all the dirt that was on me, I can still see him smiling non-stop so I thought
"At least it made you laugh" I said with a grin, that statement made him stopped and thought deeply about something, his smiling face vanish gradually, instead of smiling he was back with his cold expression, he looked kind of disappointed, kind of sad, gloomy. Like that statement killed his happiness, so I panicked I dont know what to do. We continued walking, we end up coming back to the restaurant in silence, no one attempted to break that silence, it was as if it was forbidden to talk to him, I couldn't get the chance to ask why because i might say something that will make it even worse
Before we could even get inside, he stopped walking so I also did too, I look at him with pleading eyes I want to apologize for saying those words considering that i don't want him to be like this, im not used to him being like this, I always see him smiling and reckless, why is this happening?
"You know.." I waited for his next words
"You remind me of someone really important for me, im sorry if i was cold earlier"
I was speechless, I dont know what to respond. Do i say sorry? would i pretend that it didn't happened? is it appropriate to say that its okay, I just want to make you happy? I was about to respond when he suddenly went inside the restaurant without waiting for my reply
I feel a bit sad, but its okay. I decided to let it slide and just didn't mind about it, I followed him to get inside and there I see these three familiar faces laughing so carefree, I noticed some people were looking at them but they didn't mind the attention they were getting
"Oh Eunoia's here! tell her what happened when they were gone!" Mauve suggested looking at Cash, Miles was also enjoying the moment that they're having. Cash cleared his throat, but before he could utter some words he chose to laugh first, me on the other hand cant focus on them because I was concerned at Sevi
"Okay, okay, im serious now, im gonna tell what happened.. So this girl..." Cash continued talking but my mind cant process all the things that he was saying, I was generally looking at Sevi, he didn't sit with us instead he sat at the table by himself drinking something. I couldn't help but feel guilty, I regret that statement that I said, but I was just telling the truth, I barely see him laugh since they helped me escaped from those fishermen
"Dont worry about Seven, he'll be alright, he just need some alone time" Miles probably noticed me worrying while gazing at Sevi so he said those reassuring words
Our trip to the Amusement park was amazing, to summarize it all it was awesome. This day has to be the most exciting part for me being a siren, I felt that great cordiality being with humans, being a mermaid is also amazing, the sea could almost offer us everything, the view, the ocean, the beautiful plants living under the sea, the sea creatures but compared to the world of humans, Their world can provide them anything to make their life easier. While staring outside the window inside the 'car' the three didn't stop talking, they keep talking about foreign things that i dont know, they were still laughing so recklessly.
I look beside me, he's silent, just looking at the road, its as if he cant even acknowledge our existence inside the car
After we arrived at Sevi's place, his friends immediately go to their rooms to rest. I followed Sevi walk inside his room, he stop moving when he realize i got inside then stare at my silver eyes
"Why are you here?"
"To sleep"
"You cant sleep here"
"Im not comfortable with Mauve sleeping on the bed, I just realized it last night that im more comfortable if I sleep beside you"
Discerning his cold expression as he bit his lower lip and nodded according my decision to sleep beside him, he held a deep breath and decided to go inside his bathroom
Sevi's
The cold water was comforting as it rushes against my face, as I look at myself in the mirror I was reminded by what happened earlier at the amusement park
"At least it made you laugh"
Those exact same words she said, those words were always habitual for Harra, she always did anything just to make me laugh, to make me smile. Why did she do this to me? she said she'll never let me go, she will always be there for me, to love me, to care for me, why did you kill yourself Harra? you're making me suffer even more, your absence makes my existence out of purpose, it makes me feel empty knowing that you're not by my side anymore, although i was gradually moving on, and now there's someone who's making me remember you again
"Im gonna love you till my lungs give out, just say you wont let go" She's singing the lyrics of the music that is currently playing inside the room as she puff out the smoke from her cigarette she's delicately holding, her eyes were shining like the night sky, it was more beautiful than the night sky to stare into as her cerise dress made her look even more elegant and beautiful. She sang those words almost a whisper, as she stares at me my heart cant stop beating loudly. I really did fall hard for this girl. I wonder what did she do to make me fall this hard, oh right, she's always doing things for my happiness, she's too selfless, but she cant even take care of herself.
'I wont let you go, just please promise me that you wont give up' I said to myself
I really didn't understand her sometimes, she was always cheerful to be with, always talkative, but there were moments where she looked empty, staying quiet while her friends talk to each other, she tend to stay in her room sometimes for a week, but she always had reasons why, and I trusted her. I didn't know what was wrong, I just loved her, keep doing things for her, I didn't want to forget her, but memories of her were almost gradually killing me day by day.
I want to move on, but i'll never love someone like Harra
I got out from the bathroom only to see her feline body lying down my bed, she's still wearing her cerise dress while she sleeps peacefully. Even when she sleeps, she looks exactly like Harra, I deliberately lied down next to her, facing in front of her face
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go