December 31, 2019 11:59 pm
COLEEN POV
"5...
4...
3...
2...
1...
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!" we all shouted. Another year! Thank you, Lord!
After we welcomed the year 2020, we went inside the house and started eating the foods that we prepared for New Year's Eve.
I am happy because I let go of what hurts me, disappoints me and gave me heartache in 2019 and now, I am so excited for the new opportunities and pure happiness this year, 2020.
My name is Coleen Jessica Enriquez. 19 years old. First year college student.
"Mommy, I'll just go to my room.." I said to my Mom and she just nod.
I called Amber Caparas, my best friend to greet her and her family.
"Aaaaa!!!! Happy new year, bestfriend!!" she shouted. I automatically put my phone away from my ear. God! I'll be deaf as f-ck because of her loud voice.
"Happy new year too, Amber! I miss you! When will you come home?" I asked.
Her family chose to celebrate new year at Japan, while me and my family chose to celebrate here in Batangas, Philippines. Our family's rest house. My Dad bought this beacuse he exactly knows that I do really loves sea. The waves... It makes my heart calm and it gives peace in my mind.
"Hmm, I think January 4 we're already in the Philippines."
"Okay. Just don't forget our souvenir from Japan, okay? Haha." I said, joking.
"Hmp! Of course! I'll call you as soon as I get home and then I'll sleep there with you. Bye! I love you!" she said and made a kiss sound.
After we talked, I just found myself staring at the ceiling. I don't have anything to do already so I just turned on my phone and started to look for games.
I chose to play 8 ball pool that everyone can play this game. I saw that Raizen Evangelista is online so I challenged him and I was shocked when he accepted my challenge. Minute later, we started playing and because Raizen and I are friends in Facebook, we can talk to each other while playing and he said "play well" and I answered him, "sleep well" but I was just kidding when I said that.
We just played and talked to each other until he says, "I already have a girlfriend so why you just came now?" I laughed but it makes my heart beats so darn fast. Because, hello, Raizen is my first internet crush since last week of June, 2019 and he will say to me that why I just came now?
"Then, break up with her." I answered, joking. But I know, I wanted that to happen. I want us to end together as a couple but I know it is imposibble.
He asked me if I want to meet him personally, I would love to, of course. But he is taken by his girlfriend so I respected that fact. As much as I want to see him, I still find the courage to decline his invitation. I can wait for the perfect and right time for us to meet each other and I know that, that day will come. We will going to meet each other. Maybe, not now.
We played and talked to each other for days until our class resumed.
----- January 6, 2020
Back to school!
Amber, my best friend, slept in our house so we went to school together.
"Are you still talking to Raizen?" she asked while we're walking.
"Yes. Why?"
"But he has a girlfriend.." she said with a low voice.
I sighed. "What do you want me to do? I like him and you know that." I answered.
"I know, Coleen.. But there's a limitation for everything, okay? You know exactly who you are to him. You are just a play mate for him. Nothing else. I just don't want you to get hurt." she said as she carress my cheek.
I nod and smiled at her. I appreciate her.
Our first class started and ended with my mind, thinking of something so I did not understand anything.
"Let's eat? I invited Amber.
Amber ordered food for us while I, will look for the vacant table and good thing I found one! Long table.
"Hi. Can we share the table?" I heard someone asked.
I looked up at the person who asked and my eyes widened when I saw his face. Okay, calm down, Coleen.. He's handsome! OH MY GOD!
"Ahm, I'm with my friends, is it okay with you?" I asked, shy..
"Yep." he answered, popping the 'p'. He sat beside me and shocks! He smells so good.
He was eating peacefully when I look at his face. The nose.. the lips and the eye lashes..
"Staring is rude." he said and my eyes widened again..
"H-Ha?"
He softly laughed. Ghad! Even his laugh is so handsome.. Who is this guy?
"You can call me Marc." he answered to my unsaid question.
"Coleen." I said. Oh my! I felt so shy..! He noticed that I was looking at his face!!
"Hello Co-oh, is that your boyfriend?" I heard Nathalie's voice. I saw them standing in front of us. Nathalie, my cousin, with Amber, Arra and Athena.
"What? No! This is the first time we saw each other, Nath. He just shared with our table. That's all." I'm blushing.. I know.. I was so shy!! Ugh!
"Defensive.." he whispered so I automatically looked at him, raising my right brow.
"What?"
He just shooked his head.
"He's handsome, C. I'm Athena."
"I'm Arra."
"And I'm Amber. Coleen's best friend."
"OH! I forgot! I'm her cousin." Nath said again.
"You can call me Marc." wait, that's exactly what he said to me earlier? Is that his way of introducing his self? Nevermind!
"Okay, let's eat na." I said..
I was just eating while my friends keep on asking Marc.
"Oh. There he is. Marc!" I heard on our side so I looked at them and I saw three men walking towards us.
"Shit. They are so handsome, Arra." Athena whispered that makes me and Marc laughed. She's right. These men are equally handsome. Girls are actually looking at them. BUT! Raizen's more handsome than any of these four men. I'm sorry, boys..
"You have so many girls, Marc." the man who's wearing shades said.
"Yes, so true, man. Hi girls." the other guy said.
"Hey!" I softly shouted to my girls who's still looking at those three men.
They seated properly as they fix their hair and introduced themselves.
"Where's Brian, Ken?" Marc asked while giving his friends a chair.
"Talking to his girlfriend, of course. Haha." Ken answered. Well, I already knows his name since Marc mentioned his friend's name.
I looked at Marc and he looked at me as well, "Why?" he asked.
"Care to introduce them to us?" I sarcastically said. Hello? My girls introduced themselves to these guys and they didn't. It's unfair, ya know.
He chuckled and gently pinched my nose. "HEY!" I slapped his hands.
"You're so sweet, Marc. We just transfered here yesterday and started our class today and yet, you already has a girl.." the guy with shades said.
"I am not his girl!" I said, pissed.
"He is Ken," he pointed at the guy beside Nathalie, "He is Liam," he pointed at the guy beside Amber "And he is Ryan." beside Arra.
"Oh, There is he, Brian!" Ryan said and I just continued eating since I don't know this Brian that Ryan's talkin' about.
I just suddenly felt that someone sat beside me and damn, he smell so f-cking good. The scent of this man who sat beside me can make a girl fall in love with him already. My biggest turn on!
"Where have you been?" Liam asked. I thought they knew where he was, then why is he asking him now? Seiously. This Liam guy.
"I talked to Michelle." the guys beside me answered. His voice... I remember someone..
"Ouch." my reaction when Amber kicked me under the table. I glared at her but she just looked at the guy beside me, signing me look at him too so I did.
My eyes automatically widened when I saw him. His face! This is the face that I always pray to see! The guy who sat beside me is none other than, Raizen Evangelista! Holy sh-t!
"What are you doing here?" I asked him, still shocked to see him this close!
"Excuse me?" Raizen asked, confused because of what I asked him.
"Why, Coleen? Do you know him?" Marc asked.
I calmed myself and acted like I don't know this guy beside me even though my heart and my mind exactly knew this guy. Why not...I think I fell in love with this guy I met online. How could it be possible, right?
"H-Ha? Ahm, N-No.." I answered. "Excuse me." I immediately stood up and walked away.
My heart beats so fast. Damn!
I was walking to go to the comfort room when I heard Amber calling my name. I stopped walking.
"Oh my god, Coleen!" she said, shocked to because of Raizen's prensence.
"The fuck! What is he doing here?" I asked her even though I know that she doesn't know why.
"Aside from that, he's Marc's friend! Oh my god, Coleen!" she said again.
What a small world, right? Damn it!
I told her that I want to go to the comfort room so she left me alone.
"No, Coleen. Don't let him affect you this much. You know who you are to him. You are just his play mate. That's it!" I told myself.
I took a deep breath and still tried to calm myself before stepping out of the comfort room.
"You know me," I froze when I heard that voice behind me. "right?" he added.
I know it was Raizen but I didn't turn around to face him.
"Face me, Jessica. Or should I call you, Coleen?" he sarcastically said.
I faced him but I didn't speak. I just looked at his face.
"You don't need to pretend and use another name just to protect yourself from the people that you don't know at all, do you know that?" he said with a serious face.
I took a deep breath and spoke.
"Let me introduce myself, I am Coleen-"
He cut me off.
"Yes, I know. You are Coleen, and not Jessica." he said, coldly.
What?! He really thought that I pretended and I gave him a fake name?
"I wasted my time with you. I wasted the time that I should be with my girlfriend because I enjoyed talking to you. I opened myself to you because I trsuted you and I think, that was the biggest mistake I've ever made. I wasted my time.."
I gulped. His words...hurts me.
I tried my best to calm my heart even though his words are like a knife stabbing my heart. I took a deep breath and still tried to introduce myself.
"My name is Coleen Je-"
"I don't care about your fucking name, Coleen." he angrily said.
I'm starting to get pissed. "Oh, please! I did not played with you! I did not pretended! Will you please listen to me first?" I asked, so pissed! "You trusted me, I trusted you too. I'm sorry for wasting your time that should be spent with your girlfriend. But, Raizen, I did not played with you, just so you know.." I said, coldly.
He did not speak so I just left him there.
Damn you, Raizen! Thanks for making our first time to see each other a disaster.