Aarrgh, I yelled into my pillow curling my body into a foetal position as I clutched my stomach. Now I knew why I had been so irritable since the weekend. Periods and accompanied by waves of cramps every once in a while.
Honestly this was the worst of being a female, at least it was for me, I thought with a groan knowing I'd been awake since around three. And here I thought I was going to a wonderful rest of the week after Heather and her posse steered clear of me yesterday. Who was I kidding? They probably had something to do about the out-of-the-blue periods but I wasn't superstitious. They tended to be irregular. It was a very complicated situation. And a painful one for that matter.
"Honey, are you going to be okay?" Kate called out and I ignored the endearment as I rolled over and faced her.
"I'll probably just order pizza and cry all day," I groaned and I could hear her chuckle.
"That will be probably sadder than it sounds."
"Exactly.'
"Just in case I left some money on the counter and your friend called but I told him you weren't feeling well," she said and I groaned sitting up with an okay as she left the room with a goodbye and I was in a dilemma. Whether to order take out first or to take a bath first.
Deciding I was too lazy to prepare a bath, I ordered pizza before jumping in the shower. It wasn't much but it would calm the heat convulsing under my skin, I thought letting the water cascade down my body wishing it would take my problems away.
It just felt like my life now. Everything I had here felt like a lie. It wasn't supposed to be easy and yet it felt way too easy. From making friends, Eve chatting with me constantly, the new school.. it was all weird and honestly it felt like I was still waiting and dreading for the future to come.
Maybe it's because as it turned out, I liked being here. I liked living a normal life. I liked having a young brother I could take care of, I liked having a family that was always around or friends I could count on to help me live out my life. But this wasn't the life for me. This paradise wouldn't last forever and these new relationships will one day be gone, I thought with a sigh wrapping a towel around my hair and body before getting out of the shower and stopping briefly by the mirror letting the silver locks fall onto my shoulder and I sighed making my way to my closet.
Let's just say I was an adventurous teen, at least as adventurous as I could get, and Alice was more than happy to help explore that side when I told her I wanted a make over yesterday, though I didn't tell her it was always there, given I wasn't supposed to stand out. Well, I don't have to worry about that anymore. Though there is still the question if I should go back to black. Or if I will ever. Probably not. I needed a different signature style, I thought just as I made my way downstairs and into the kitchen. I was craving waffles and bacon. It was the one thing I didn't mind. I was a massive eater when I was on my periods, I thought before a knock on the door disrupted my rythm and I removed the apron heading for the door. That was fast.
"Huh...you know you have to be the worst delivery guy ever. Where's the food?" I whined and the guy in front of me smiled before feigning fear.
"Please don't report me to my manager. I promise to work harder," he said pleadingly and I hid my smile crossing my arms shaking my head in disappointment.
"That's not enough. I'm still hungry," I said and he smirked but before I could question his reaction, I found myself pinned on the wall.
"You don't have to worry about that. I can satisfy your hunger in more ways than one," he whispered in my ear, caressing my cheek.
"W.. what?" I asked looking at him wide-eyed as he took a lock of my hair between his fingers and chuckled before pecking my cheek and disappearing inside leaving me a flustered mess.
"Ugh!?" I let out frustrated yell as I ran a hand through my hair before turning back to the house.
"You're cooking? Thought you were having take out?" He asked as I entered the kitchen.
"Hey, I have cravings you know. I need to satisfy them the best way I know how," I said going on to set the ingredients as I was before he be showed up and before I saw his grin. "Don't even think about it."
I chastised and he laughed.
"What are you doing here anyway?"
"I came to see you," he said coming up next to me and I froze for a brief moment as I turned to him.
"Nice one," I scoffed and he raised his eyebrows at me as I jabbed my finger on his chest. "Now tell me why you're really here?"
"You don't really believe I could come see you?" He asked grabbing my fingers a flash of hurt passing through his eyes for a brief moment.
"Nope," I said with a shrug before looking at him curiously. "I know for sure Kate didn't call you."
I accused and I didn't miss the expression that passed through his face and I narrowed my eyes.
Oh boy, I thought as his smile faltered as I crossed my arms.
"She didn't. I was calling for you and she sorta picked up and said you weren't feeling well," he rushed and I let out a sigh a little glad that he didn't ask why. But I thought it safe he'd figured it out himself and would ask.
"Sadly I buy it," I muttered under my breath turning away as he grinned.
"Really?"
"Don't push it Stone," I said and he laughed coming to my side and grabbing the bacon from my hands. "Huh?"
"I'll cook."
"You will? Wait no."
"Babe, do you know most girls would be flattered by me offering to cook for them?"
"And what gave you the idea that I'm like most girls?" I sassed and he grinned grabbing an apron and putting away his jacket.
"Hmm, I knew there was a reason I was offering to cook for you," he said and I could feel my jaw drop before he closed it for me. "Careful, princess, you might catch some flies."
He said and I glared at him as he starting his way around the kitchen gathering the rest of the stuff and I watched him.
"Are you sure you know how to cook?"
"One thing for sure my cooking is as good as my looks," he said throwing a wink my way and I rolled my eyes grabbing some grapes from the fruit bowl in front of me. Cramps, cravings and an egomaniac. Today was not really my day.
"Then we have a mighty problem in our hands."
"Babe, you have to be the only person who pretends you don't find me hot."
"Geez, with an ego that big I doubt there are hardly any brains in there."
"I can assure you babe, everything about me is big from my brains to my big friend down there," he said and I flicked a grape his way to which he ducked.
"You're the only person who would make things about sex."
"Only because we'd be so good at it," he said winking at me and I flushed glad that the doorbell rang disrupting the very uncomfortable situation.
Oh fuck this egoistic...ugh, I thought angry before paying off the delivery guy and picking my goods and headed back to the kitchen.
"What did you get?"
"Thai, and I kind of ordered everything?" I said sheepishly but he didn't make fun of me like I thought he would. "I wasn't really expecting anyone else."
"That's good actually."
"It is?"
"Thai, Indian a little bit of Chinese here and there," he said and I smiled starting to take out the food. We shared favorites. Who knew.
"Just don't burn my bacon," I said when I felt his gaze on me. "I don't like people who mess with my food."
"We wouldn't want that, now would we?"
"Are you ever going to stop flirting with me?"
"Probably not," he said and I watched him curiously as the sound and smell of sizzling bacon filled the air.
Maybe I had misjudged our situation too quickly. Maybe he was another Ethan who did nothing but harmless flirting, I thought passing my gaze over him one more time. We can have dreams, can't we? Even I wasn't that foolish. But as long as I can, I'll probably keep lying to myself.