Chapter 38 - Abella's movement

The night had passed fleetingly and loneliness was back with me on the sofa in my apartment. I went over and over again what happened and thought about the hasty decision to start a new romance with Merle and doubts about my feelings for Alana also came to my mind, I would not know if her closeness would affect my decisions or the beginning of a new life without her. Protecting hers was still my priority, although as the days went by, distancing ourselves had been impossible to avoid, my heart was still selfish enough to love her back under the conditions of a bedside lover even with Merle's presence in my life and in my home. . I couldn't have them both, maybe not in the same way, but at some point, the idea ate at my thoughts.