JASON
I had promised to look over Mirabella while Micheal was out feeding and I was taking that responsibility more serious than normal. I down the glass of whiskey In my hand and shake my head to clear my thoughts, Mirabella isn't Cataline, even though a huge part of me wanted to find out the reason for the similarities, maybe even hoped that through some miracle they were one and the same person, the more logical part of me knew not to even think of her. This is Mike's girl, I know how much she means to him, how he suffered those three long months I didn't let him see her after his transformation, no matter how much I wanted to believe that the lady upstairs was Cataline, I couldn't, she was dead and that was it.
I hear a faint gasp and thud from the direction of her room and my thoughts scatter as I race upstairs, the door was shut, I stand at the door contemplating whether to go in or not, ' what if it was me being paranoid, what if nothing was wrong? ' I stay there for a few minutes waiting for her to scream or make some kind of sound but nothing, then I hear feet's shuffling, I hear her back hit the wall and that was all I needed, I pushed open the door with more force than was needed and I saw it, a thick black fog in the shape of a person, emitting that evil and stinky aura they were very well known for, 'Demon' I say under my breath, my face starting to heat up with my anger, I charge forward at it but a second late because it evaded me and disappeared out the window, I shut the open window and turn back to face Mirabella but a jolt of pain and guilt shoot through me as I see her blank and out of body expression, she has her hands gripping at her sides tightly, as if trying to stop her body from shaking, I move towards her quitely and wrap my hands around her, holding her to my body, she finally loosens her grip on her self and wrap her hands around me, I lower myself to the ground keeping her in place between my legs, I suddenly start to panic, 'what if something had happened to her while I was delaying outside her door, I was supposed to protect her and again I have failed to do so', I move her closer to myself and begin to rub my hands on her back,
Hundred years ago she was killed under my watch and today I have failed yet again, I despised myself, the self hatred I had managed to conceal all these years was resurfacing, it was my fault she died, I killed her, my eyes begin to glaze over with moisture, Mirabella moves against my chest and mumbles " I love you" she says it so lightly even with my vampire hearing I doubt I heard right, or she has me mistaken for Micheal,I sigh out at this realization,what was I even thinking,I look at her face and she has a small smile plastered on her face.
"I love you jayjay" she repeats
I freeze on the spot as my hands subconsciously thighten around her,only one person ever used that nickname on me,it was her own term of endearment and she was always proud of herself for being able to con a name for me,she never let anyone else use it,after she passed the name also died.
My mind was in a hundred different places,I could feel all my previous resolutions crumbling," Cataline" I whisper against her hair, kissing her on the top of her head.
I sit there with her for another hour unable to move,and unwilling to separate from this woman I loved with the whole of my existence,she was her and yet she wasn't.
I stand up gently carrying her in bridal style to her bed,she unwraps her hands from me and clutch her pillow with both hands,after I arrange a blanket on her,I leave the room closing the door behind me.
I lean on the other side of the door with my eyes closed and swear under my breath,' it didn't matter what or who she was now,I didn't care what her name was,but I wouldn't let her get hurt again,never'.