"Let's get married" I say to Micheal
"Okay" he replies quickly, his excitement reaching the roof.
"Let's get married tonight" I say again, serious with a kind of sorrow in my voice, i pray Michael's excitement keeps him from noticing, but he notices anyway.
"Baby, what's the matter?"
"Nothing" I lie
"I just want to marry you" I add. It is the truth, a very heavy and dark truth. I want to marry him before everything begins to change.
"We are going to get married. Is that why you look sad?"
"I'm scared" I say,sobbing quietly now. I hate to break down in front of people.
Micheal holds me to himself and comforts me, not saying anything else, he understands.
"I'm here for you baby, I won't let anything happen to you"
"No, you don't get it" I whisper, my voice breaking
"I'm scared of myself and what I am capable of. I don't want to harm anyone "
