As I lay in my bed from exhaustion. You appeared on my mind like a firework so suddenly, I was missing you and I know I shouldn't. Those eyes, lips. I was so captivated by your smile. The way you laugh, the way you would always hug me when I'm around. People do say we're like a couple, I wish it was true. "Do I like you?" I said to myself and hugged my favorite pillow. I stared at the pillow and started to think that it was you I was hugging. I smiled at the feeling, we used to hug each other but now your always on your phone. The happiness I was feeling earlier was fading, tears were coming out my eyes. The thought of losing you was so unbearable, I don't like it. "Do I even like you? Is this normal?" I thought to myself. "I don't like you or miss you! Right?" I wiped my tears away and started falling asleep.
*time passed*
I woke up at the sound of my phone. My phone was ringing, Jang was calling me. I panicked. "Is my voice alright?" I whispered to myself, I picked the phone quickly. "Jang? Why are you calling me?" I said nervously. I was thinking of scenarios why he would call me. I didn't notice that I was thinking too much that he was calling my name multiple times. "Juliana!!!" He yelled. I was startled by his voice. "You still there? You ok?" He asked worriedly. "Yeah I'm fine, what is it?" I asked him. "Well, I like someone." He said excitedly. I froze when he said it. I feel my heart tear apart, my heart was aching and I was close to tears. As my tears begin to fall, I looked at the window and he was there smiling at me. His house was in front of our house so I can see him in his bedroom, I smiled back and secretly wiped my tears as I chuckled on the phone. "That's good! Who's the lucky girl?" I asked trying to prevent my tears from falling. "You know her!" He said while laughing. "Huh? What do you mean?" I asked him confused. "I'll tell who it is tomorrow." He said to me and closed his curtains. "Hey-" He hangs up before I can even finish. "Who is it?" I asked myself. I was frustrated. The tears start to fall, am I going to lose him? I break down from the idea of him in a relationship with someone. I won't be seeing his eyes on me anymore, the way he kisses my forehead when I'm sad or having a hard time. He was always there. "Should I confess and tell him that I like him? No, I don't like him!" I said to myself crying. "He wouldn't like me!" I flopped on the bed and cried. As I closed my eyes. He was there, he was there smiling at me. His eyes were sparkling again, his smile is so sweet. These butterflies on my tummies again. I smiled back at him and hugged him so tight. When he pulled away from the hug. He was fading away, what was happening? I was frightened. I looked for him and saw him laughing with someone, I can't see the girl. His eyes on her like he was so in love with her, I was jealous that I wasn't the reason why he was laughing and I woke up from the nightmare. Jang was in my bed, he hugged me. "Are you ok? You were having a nightmare" he said and I noticed my tears were still streaming down my cheeks. He pulled away from the hug. He caresses my face and told me that everything was going to be alright. As he was wiling away my tears, I didn't hold back and sobbed in front of him. He hugged me again and I feel like I was safe in his arms.
To be continued...