AMY
I realize that we are heading home. I know that I am immature for not going back into the Captain's room. But suddenly everything hits me at once. We are going home and then nothing is going to stop us from being together.
Then there is no medical bay I can run away from and no excuse that we can not date. He has consumed me so quickly. He has become like a drug to me. I just can not seem to get enough of him. I try to think how it would be when I am back home.
What if this entire relationship was born out of pure stress from being in the Navy? What if we get back home and he looks at me and realizes it was just wrong? Maybe he looks at me and thinks he just wanted comfort for the moment and I was there.
What if I fell in love with him because he seemed brave? What if I made him up to be this guy which I do not really know? There are so many questions running around in my thoughts. I do not know which way to turn to.
