"I WANT YOU TO STAY! .But ----". He knelt down and covered his face From the beginning of his tears. "You choose to leave me". He said softly while crying. it hits me. all the pain I was feeling came back. my chest tightened as if something was holding me back.
All the pain I went through came back. Every night I cried thinking about what he was doing. I wondered if he had eaten or taken care of himself even though I was no longer by his side to take care of him. I fell into the previous subjects my scores and grades are low. projects that are not done properly and passed by the deadline. all that he didn't know. only my friends and family knows. then I will hear that he is ok as if I did not leave him. he did good all his school works without a failed subjects. he was able to do everything properly.
Maybe it's true what I read who's the one who left their love one's was more miserable. Maybe it's just that easy for them to move on. He's a man, so it's so easy for him to forget all the hurtful words I left with him.
"I choose to leave you because that was the right decision I know" .I breathe deep before I continue what I'm saying"so pls ... don't blame me for giving up in our relationship.you don't know the reason why I choose to leave you ". I saw how he was surprised I just let it go and turned my back on him. and I started to cry and walk.
I even heard him say something before I finally left. "I STILL LOVE YOU". He whispered but I still heard. And those are the words that made me cry even more. I want to tell him that I still love you I just did not say because I know I can't say that.
When I arrived at the door, I did not know why I felt different. I just let it go and finally opened the door.
"Brother why are you still awake?". I whispered while closing the door. When I closed it and when I looked at my brother I was surprised because it was not him. with its excessive pulse. I feel like I want to run up and lock myself in my room.
Why is he here? What is he doing here?