RUFI:
Sleep definitely was not on my side tonight as I tossed and turn even after midnight, pretending not to know why would be crazy. The evenings event still confused me.
It started with Ivan showing up at my door at 6:55 in that perfectly tailored shirt of his, it took me about two minutes to adjust to him in my living space.
"Enjoying the view?" He'd smirked when I met his eyes.
We then went to a Mexican restaurant to eat that gross looking yummy soup, we were suppose to head time afterwards when we almost kissed and I had a panic attack.
And he called me his ---Angel?
That's too much for a girl to digest in one night.
It was 12:45am and I lay down thinking how long it would take before Ivan sees I'm dark and dirty.
Alarm blared from my phone and I turned to shut it, who sets alarm for 12:45 in----- Holy cow! 6:00am?
Am I dreaming?
When did I fall asleep?
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RUFI:
"Good morning beautiful" Ivan greeted with that Boyish grin of his.
"Good morning" I'm lost here "Aren't you working today?"
"I took the day off, we were going to see that movie remember?"
At 8:30 am? Thank God Ana-Blaire wasn't home. I really need to talk to Ivan "Right"
"Are you ok?" He asked worried "And, can I come in?"
"Sure! Sorry" I stepped back "I'm fine, we need to talk, I need to tell you about something before you----" I fought my tears "I'm not who you think I am, I know angels but I'm not one" A tear dropped
"You don't have to tell me anything Ruf, I'm sorry if I pressured you last night. It won't happen again"
I had to fight my tears seriously "I like you Ivan, but I know when I tell you this you won't want to come near me again" I wiped my tears "you'll understand and see that I'm dark and dirty"
He was close behind me but he wasn't touching me "Go on Brown eyes, let it out, I won't leave no matter how messed up it is"
I hope so.
I walked over to the window so that we would have enough space between us.
Then I recounted my past, every little detail, how my family neglected me, how I met Maria and the most important, about Ana-Blaire.
There was silence as I cried quietly. I told him everything I told only Maria. I had not told victor in this much detail, and now,everywhere was quiet.
I poured my soul out and I'd scared him, I couldn't turn back for fear he had left.
I warned him, I am dark and dirty.
He made me pour out my soul like I've never done .
"Where is she?" Thank Goodness! He didn't leave .
I turned around relief in my eyes! You didn't go?"
He stood from the couch and walked towards me with purposeful strides "I told you I'm going nowhere" he held my hands "you're not to blame for any of these, in fact I wish I could be half as brave as you. A pregnant 14 year old with no one to turn to? Hell Rufi! You are an angel!"
I'm not! You don't get it.
"You don't believe me, do you?" He sighed "Baby look at me."
I obeyed, he looked me in the eyes like he was speaking to my soul, his hands slid to my back as he pulled me closer, holding me gaze he leaned forward , unlike last night there was no fear, just the sizzling sensation, I leaned forward without meaning to.
His mouth covered mine and my sense flew out the window. A moan escape me as his tongue slid into my mouth, he tastes like strawberry and mint. My legs turned into jelly and I had to hold him for support.
"Rufi" he moaned in between the kiss.
My hands began to explore his body. Timidly. It went from his chest to his arm, everything was exceptional. He pulled me closer and deepened the kiss.
I've never felt this way before, I feel like its Christmas, my birthday and new year at the same time. I let go of the little restrain I held and gave all I had to the kiss. Feels like I'm in heaven. I could die now and I'll be fulfilled.
Right there I knew that I had fallen in love with Ivan Martinez.
Knock! Knock!! Our perfect moment was ruined. Ivan ended the kiss but didn't move away. He ran his thumb over my swollen lips and I sucked in a breath from the contact.
He shook his head! "Do that again and we might never answer that door" his voice sounded rasp. He kissed me for a few seconds and I got lost in our little paradise again.
"Rufina come on!" Mrs Wellington called.
"Go see your guest Brown eyes" He winkled as he dropped into the sofa behind him
My legs were still tingling from his touch and that made it difficult to walk. That must be obvious because Ivan chuckled behind me.
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IVAN:
Rufi kicked me out at 2:00pm. Telling me she needed to do the laundry and sleep and most importantly pick Ana-Blaire.
The thought of Ana-Blaire squeezed my heart. Nothing could ever justify what was done to Rufi. At 14 she must have planned her life out only for it to be snatched away in seconds.
Her father really was a jerk if not he wouldn't send his daughter away because she's pregnant. Even if it hadn't been a rape- say she'd willingly had sex and gotten pregnant - a father should never leave a child that way.
If anything this whole mess made me-------Love her?
Slow down Ivan, not there yet. It made me more attracted to her. I know I shouldn't but what can I do.
That one kiss - Whao! I never thought a kiss could get me whipped. It had ruined me. Yet again.
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RUFI:
I had to leave Hen's earlier than usual today so I could prepare dinner. I wanted Maria to feel cherished when she got home this evening. Also I was in this silly mood, one where a very silly grin was plastered on my face, I've been in this Hyper mood since Ivan kissed me yesterday and I actually kissed for the first time.
"hmm" I tasted the stew.
"Momma"
"hmm?" I sliced the vegetables for the soup.
"Is aunt Maria coming home today?"
Even little Ana-Blaire could sense the excitement in the air "Yes Ana-Blaire"
"Un victor?"
"Yeah"
"Un Victor going to by me Icream"
"donno, why don't you call him to confirm"
I handed her my phone.
She looked cautions, I know she's thinking she dropped my phone a few days back and I'm letting her touch my new phone.
"No"
I crotch to be at her eye level "listen to me Ana-Blaire OK?" She nodded
"We all make mistakes, I could have dropped the phone" I've dropped my phone countless times "you dropped it will not make me love you less OK?" she smiled.
The girl was too matured for her age "I love you".
"I love you Momma"
Maria and victor arrived at about 8:00pm and saved me a repeat of the last time they travelled together. She was really blown away but it didn't take her more than two minutes to acknowledge the fixed grin on my face
"Hmm" she cocked her eyebrows
"What?" I bought on my chastened look
"Sorry oo! Nothing"
"Whatever" I brushed it off.
She laughed.
My grin got smaller by the hour when Ivan did not call. Not that he owed me a call but it scares me that he'd slept over what I told him and he realized how stupid he was. I hope not even thought I wouldn't be too surprised if it was.
"You're okay?" Victor's concern clear
"Yeah" I faked a smile "I'll just go to bed"
"You're sure? You could tell us anything you know?"
And have you preached to me about how special I am, how stupid Ivan would be if he gave up on me. "I know thanks, Goodnight"
I went over to Maria who hugged and kiss me then whispered "He see's beneath your facade"
what?
He see's beneath my facade?
Facade?
What in Gods name does Maria mean by my facade?
I showered and brush and laid in bed waiting on sleep and her words replayed
"he see's beneath your facade".