The pain that's inside of me is getting stronger, the voice inside my head is getting louder, and the demon or demons in me are getting stronger and louder by the day. I can see and feel my past memories, all bad never good. I never wanted to hurt anyone or myself ( or that is what I kept telling the voices in my head ) I guess we can't all be winners. But if I didn't let my inner demon roam free that night I never would have really met him.
Camilla
" Let me out Camilla. I know you missed me, just for one day let me roam out on the streets taking people's lives with my bare hands, let me take those useless life's, let them die cold on the street with our signature red hot lips kiss print on their forehead. Let. Me. Out. "
The demons in me got stronger and louder by the day I had medication to help but I didn't like the way it made me feel, it made me feel like I was in a dark room, my demons were let out of my head and they could tower over me eating me alive all of me hated it, that feeling... but some small part of me enjoyed it the feeling on sharp blades at me skin, the feeling of having broken bones and torn out limbs that small part liked it, that small part loved it.
" Cammy, get your ass up we're going to be late for work and we already had two warnings this week so get up...NOW. " If your wondering who the hell is yelling it would be my roommate and only friend since first-grade Wenndy, Wenndy Morgan she is the best and the brightness but she's a pain in my ass sometimes, but she will always cut a bitch if she has to " I'm up Wenn just stop yelling so god damn early in the morning, we have neighbors." In all seriousness, I wasn't up but I got my butt up made my bed, and went to take a shower it was nice and hot until Wenn came in my room and flushed the toilet the now hot water turned cold as fuck " What the hell...why did you do that" I said and she looked at me like I was crazy and saidā¦
" Ohhh I don't know, maybe the fact that you said you were up and look...you're not. You have 30 minutes or I'm leaving your ass." she then walked out of the bathroom making it seem like I did something wrong. After a ten minute shower I got my towel and dried my skin off and looked at myself in the mirror I had a diamond-shaped face, full lips but a little small, honey-toned skin, long black eyelashes, with ocean blue eyes, and what some people called a perfect body I had curves and big boobs with a big ass, and a small snatched wasted. I liked my curves, trust me I do but I loved my long black hair that touched my ass the most, and I didn't know why. I then dried my hair off with my towel brushed it and put it in a high pony then I went to my closet and put on a black lace set bra and underwear and skinny blue jeans and a white low V neck shirt with a pair of my all white air force ones, I then walked over to my vanity and open my top right drawer and put on silver medium hoop earrings and a silver pandora bracelet I got for my 21st birthday from my grandmother. Then I put on a little blush with mascara and lip gloss, then I put a little bit of my Chanel number five perfume on my neck, grabbed my black bag, got my phone and charger took one more look in the mirror, and left my room.
" Took you long enough I was about to leave your ass, Cammy." Wenn said as she was sitting on the couch watching the news and I said...
" Now you wouldn't leave your best friend would you" and smiled and she looked at me and replied with a...
" Oh yes I would" and then she started laughing but I wasn't paying attention because on the news there was blood lots of blood the news reporter said there was a mass murder and killed over 30 people but there was nothing stolen at all but there was one person who was left alive and what he had to say intrigued me...
" T-T-The man was v-v-very scary l-l-l-liked the devil maybe e-e-even w-worse." the man said and the reporter asked him why do you think he left you alive and what did he look like and then right when he tried to say something he fainted as he tried too hard to remember then was scared shitless, and it looked like one of his hands were wrapped in badges then my demons came back to talk to me and saidā¦
" Ohhh Camilla don't you miss that, the fear in their eyes when they know they are good as dead when they know they shouldn't have ticked you off. When they know they shouldn't have ticked us all off."
It was sad but true I did miss it a little and it showed, a sly devilish smirk came across my face and Wenn saw it. She stopped laughing and quickly turned off the news and I looked at her and my eyes felt like they almost changed colors and they probably did because she jumped. But then she was able to regain herself and she slapped me...hard. You would think I would be mad but I wasn't. I told her if she ever thought I was going to lose control, slap the shit out of me hard. Then she saidā¦
" Sorry for slapping you but you weren't yourself, have you been taking your meds," she said and I replied with a white lie but she couldn't tell...
" Yeah, thanks for the slap. I think we should leave before we become even later." I said and she nodded her head yes.
After a 20 minute drive in a cab we finally reached our workplace it was a small calming and cozy cafe, after paying the cab guy we went inside our job sneaking in so we wouldn't be caught but it failed completely because Wenn just had to bump into our manager who smelled like Cheeto puffs and old smelly onion socksā¦
" What do you two girls think you are up too, you are late...again this week." And Wenn just had to say somethingā¦
"We are only 10 minutes late...it's not that bad, is it? " Then I turned to give her a look of "ARE YOU CRAZY" but I didn't say anything until Mr. John said something to meā¦
" First of all it does matter if you're the cashier Ms. Blue Jeans"- he said that when he looked at meā¦
"And secondly it does matter when you're one of four servers Ms. Morgan." He said that as he was looking at Wenn, and I had to save our asses...once againā¦
" I'm so so sorry Mr. John it was all my fault to make it up.....I will stay late and clean up the cafe when it's time to close, ok? " I said that while begging on the gods that he wouldn't fire us and thankfully he didn'tā¦
"Fine, but you're not getting paid overtime" and I nodded and Wendy and I ran to our changing locker rooms in the back of the cafe and she just had to say something when I was putting up my bag and putting on my apornā¦
"You are such an ass kisser you know that? '' Wenn said while she got her apron and folded it in half and put on while I said my peaceā¦
"Well, I wouldn't be one if you just kept your mouth shut sometimes... bye." I said and left her with her mouth on the ground. As I was greeting two of the servers when I saw Mike and he was by my area talking to a girl whose boobs were on the verge of popping out of the shirt. Mike was a complete jackass and playboyā¦
"Ahhh sweetie you're finally at work I've been waiting for you all morning you know." he said and he put his crusty arms and hands around my shoulders and the girl was upset and left as I was sayingā¦
"Ok you seriously need to get your nasty ass hands off of me for one and for two it's only 9:30 a.m. stupid and for three go do your damn job, Mike." I said but he just had to say something backā¦
" So what it's 9:30 I am bored and I am serving the customers...I'm serving them my arousal." as he said that last word he walked away. God, he is so nasty.
After three hours of working it was my lunch break but not Wenn's so, I would always sit in the back of the cafe eating yogurt and studying for college, I was in school along with Wenn I was studying Business and Socially. It was a way for me to not focus on the voices inside my head. And then all of sudden the cafe went quiet but I just thought someone dropped something on the ground so I didn't lookup.
But after a while, I felt cold then hot then cold again and I got uncomfortable so I stretched my back in the seat I was sitting in because I didn't feel like getting up out of my seat, but then the hairs on the back of my neck stood up and I could feel someone watching me and felt a presence coming towards me so I slowly pulled my head up and heard a deep, dark, seductive, captivating voice said something and my inner demons were arousedā¦
" Hello my name is Seth Lopez and what might yours be?" and for some unknown reason my inner demons came out to play so I looked him dead in the eye and said with a smirk...
" Hello to you too I'm Camilla Amore, nice to meet you." he then sat in front of me and unbuttoned his blazer button and smiled and saidā¦
" Love, your last name means love." and I chuckled and saidā¦
" Noble of the love, Camilla meaning noble, De means of, the means La, and Amore meaning love. Camilla De La Amore, Noble of love." I said with a smirk he then looked me in the eyes and saidā¦
"Anointed the son of Lope." and he was about to get up when I saidā¦
"....Seth meaning anointed, el meaning the, Lopez meaning son of Lope. Seth el Lopez." and instead of him leaving the table to go I stood up, closed my textbook and my notebook got my pen and half-finished yogurt and left and saidā¦
" Goodbye Mr. Lopez, it was nice meeting you." and before I could go to the staff only section he asked meā¦
"Where are you going?" but he said it in a way that was so dark and cold like he almost enjoyed our company but then upset that I was leaving him and I saidā¦
" I'm going to work my lunch break is over." and then I disappeared in between the two double doors.