"You are not saying that!" He roared that made me flinched.
I pretended to be strong. Mas pinatatag ko ang loob ko na huwag bumigay. I...I don't have the choice doing this. Mas lalo lamang magiging komplikado ang lahat kapag pinagpatuloy ko pa ang walang patutunguhang relasyon na to.
He is extremely mad, I can tell. Being guilty is the least thing that I should have been feeling right now. What's the use of keeping this relationship if it would just ruin us? The whole world is definitely against us. Kahit anong paglalaban ang gawin niya, walang patutunguhan to. Hindi ako ang tamang babae sa buhay niya.
"Sage Pierre," Matigas kong sambit, he suddenly stopped as soon as I mentioned his full name for the first time, "I am breaking up with you."
He laughed. A sarcastic laugh. Tears are now evident in his eyes. Parang gusto kong bawiin ang mga sinabi ko. I just hurt him! Ako nga yung bumuo sakanya ulit pero ako din pala ang taong sisira sakanya. Napaiwas ako nang tingin. Agad niya akong hinawakan sa aking mga braso, not leaving his eyes off me.
"It's not true," he desperately said, "Baby... Rainbow, please, alam kong may nangyari, fuck, just tell me! Did my mom-
"Your family is out of here, Sage. Wala silang kinalaman dito. This is my decision."
He didn't believe me. Napahilamos siya sa kanyang mukha. I bit my lip, I know that I couldn't force him to believe me. Pero heto lang ang tanging paraan para mailigtas ang pamilya ko. They have already suffered enough. Pati yung mga kapatid ko nadamay na!
I looked at him straight into his eyes and said.
"I fell out of love, I don't love you anymore."
It hurt. It fucking hurt.
And that's the last time I saw him being in love with me. Because as soon as I saw him again, hindi na ako ang taong mahal niya ngayon.
He was already in love with someone else.
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