Nejire and I continued to have our conversation explaining my current relationships.
I confessed that I love both Rumi and Momo and that I had sex with them as well. I also mentioned that I have a sister and that I even want to adopt Eri as a daughter.
Although confused at first, she adamantly went against it. She only wanted to have me for herself and she didn't want me to love any other woman. And to be honest, I totally understand her. I don't want any of my girls to be shared with other men. I honestly don't know what I would do if they did.
But, I calmly explain to her that I can't break up with anyone. Although it's incredibly selfish of me, I'd rather not have any relationships with anyone at all than only have them with one person and hurt everyone else. It would make everyone else feel like they're getting cucked, and I don't want anyone to feel that way.
Call me selfish. Call me self-centred. But those are my purest and honest thoughts. And Nejire knows this too. Due to her curious nature, she asked me what I would do in this situation a long time ago, and I answered in the same way.
Nejire, after feeling my honesty and hearing my answer, fell silent. She didn't say anything, and I didn't try to get an answer out of her. This is a fragile moment for her, and I don't want to push her in any direction. I want her to fully accept me, my relationships, and the other girls as well, without any interference.
So we just sat there, Nejire still sitting on my lap.
Nejire- "…"
Arata- "…"
Nejire- "… You can't do this to me…"
Arata- "…"
Nejire- "… I loved you for years at this point… and now you just tell me that you already had sex with other women…"
Arata- "…"
Nejire- "… What am I supposed to do at this point…? Do I just give up? Do I just accept…?"
Arata- "…"
Nejire- "Hey… tell me… please…"
Arata- "…"
Nejire- "Tell me Arata Daishin!"
She raised her voice and grabbed my shoulders. Tears are streaming out of her eyes. She seems… lost. She doesn't know what to do. So I open my mouth.
Arata- "… I can't say."
I really can't. as much as I would love for her to accept me and everyone else, in her current state, whatever I say will be the choice she will make. And if that choice ended up being the one she doesn't want… I wouldn't know how to face her.
She needs to answer with her own feelings. Of course, that doesn't mean I can only take a seat to the side and wait.
[Sixth Sense] gives me very limited empathy. I can transmit and feel emotions, but only general ones like happiness, sadness, anger, and the like. Furthermore, I can only feel then when they're close to me. Originally, empathy should also be able to affect the emotions of another person, but I can't do that. However… if it's just amplifying what they already have, it should work.
I've never tried it before, so I'm not completely sure. But… I don't know what else to do. So I amplify her emotions. Slowly, not suddenly. Just so she can better feel and understand what she's feeling, so she can make a better decision.
Nejire continues to cry and yell at me, calling me a disgusting man, a cheat, a son of a bitch. I don't blame her, I'm the one that made her feel this way. But slowly… she calmed down. I can feel that her emotions haven't settled a single bit, but… she's trying very hard to decide on her own. She buried her head into my shoulder and fell silent.
Nejire- "…"
Arata- "…"
Nejire- "… You're scum, you know that…?"
Arata- "… I know."
Nejire- "You're absolute garbage. Waste."
Arata- "I know."
Nejire- "You're vermin. The dreg of society."
Arata- "I know."
Nejire- "You're dirty, filthy, putrid, nasty…"
Arata- "I know…"
Nejire- "… yet why… why does my heart hurt so much…"
After crying onto my shoulder for half an hour, Nejire stops crying, gets up off my lap, and looks at me.
Nejire- "I can't stop loving you. But I won't accept you. Not yet at least. I want to meet with the other two and talk with them. Only after that… we'll see."
Finishing up, she smiles like she always would, and walks to the door. I close my eyes and smile as well before suddenly I open my eyes again in realisation.
Arata- "Wait!"
Nejire stops and turns around to look at me with a confused face. Why did I stop her?
Arata- "We're still naked."
Nejire looks down to see her naked body, blushes in embarrassment, before heading back to her clothes strewn on the floor. I also get my clothes back on as we clean up and head back to school.
We get back to school, everyone, even the teachers, was wondering where the hell we went. I couldn't exactly say we were fuckin, so I just said that I slept at home instead of my dorms and that I didn't know what Nejire did last night. It seems my LUK played a part in the fact that no one saw us together.
Eri jumps into my arms the moment I walk back into the 1A dorm. Apparently, because I didn't come back last night, she was pretty terrified, thinking I just wandered off somewhere and left her behind.
Arata- "Calm down. I won't go anywhere. At least, not without letting you know about it first."
I say with a smile. Eri calms down a bit. It makes me sound like I will end up leaving her behind one day, but… I can travel the multiverse. There's always a chance we have to separate.
Eri- "You… don't hate me?"
Arata- "What? No, I love you Eri!"
Ah, I can already hear the police sirens. The FBI is coming.
Eri, who heard me say this, smiles back.
Speaking of which, she is looking much better recently. Her previously scrawny body is now filling out quite nicely for a 6-year-old… Damn, the people of this world grow too fast. I mean, look at the other girls in my class. They have such bombshell bodies, and they're only 15. 15! Jesus Christ.
Eri is also wearing very nice clothes too. Right now she's wearing a pure white one-piece sundress. A bit weird, wearing this indoors, but she just must've been curious.
She can't exactly handle being alone and always needs someone that she, or rather I, can trust, otherwise, she will start trembling again, thinking someone from Shie Hassaikai will come and take her back.
But still, it's a major improvement, she wasn't even able to stand 5 meters away from me before.
Now, as long as she's with Momo or Toru, she can part with me, at least for a day or so, without breaking down. She's also warming up to everyone else in the class.
All in all, it's a good day.
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A/N: I'm a little scared of how Nejire learned all those diss words.
MC: Yeah, although I didn't show it, my heart was taking a lot of damage.
Nejire: I still haven't busted out my heavy damage dealing words. Like **** and *****.
Eri: Arata-nii, what does **** mean?
MC: Eri! How did you get in here!
AN: Ahh! I thought it would be fine! Quickly! Get her out!
Nejire: I-I'm sorry! Eri-chan, you cant say words like that, ok?
Eri: But-
MC: No! *Carries her and runs out of the scene*
AN: *Phew*
Nejire: *Phew*