After two hours we arrived at my new estate.
Rae ~ I choose to call her like that because it's easy ~ held me higher in her arms, so I could see the property which was more like a castle.
At first sight, I thought it was too much, because well.. a castle just for one kid?
But it's good, as I already notice by looking here and there, there are just a few people working in the estate, so I'll be able to play freely or to sneak at the library in the middle of the night without anyone spying on me.
I found a new perspective after thinking more about the fact that I'll be living in the estate for a while, which I prefer.
I'm not anxious at all to meet the Empress, the Queens, the princes, or the princesses.
I admit that I'll actually miss Eirwen because I grew kinda accustomed to him, but I'll get over it.
What caught me was that I never had a father-and-daughter relationship in my life, once my damn father treated me the way he did, and out of nowhere, I felt closer to Eirwen the way I always wanted to feel with dad-
But he isn't my father and he already has a lot of children, so it isn't good for me to feel this way.
Rae and Sir Gregory entered the castle with me, they explained something to the butler, and the only thought which passed through his mind was-
[So this is the Emperor's illegitimate daughter? She's cute, but she doesn't look like him at all. Did her mother hit him or something?]
Okay, I think I'll have to grow accustomed to thoughts like these until someone tells them that I'm adopted.
He guided us to a really fancy and big cream chamber, right in front of the Emperor's chamber.
"This will be your new chamber, Princess Evie."
That's so awkward, I don't feel like I'll be able to grow accustomed to that.
I smiled at him and he melted and pet my head.
"The princess is so cute."
"She is, isn't she?"
Rae agreed with a smile and Sir Gregory also nodded with a soft smile on his lips.
"Mrs. McRae? Can I ask you a question about the princess, with all due respect?"
[Well, at least he didn't try to ask right away.]
Sir Gregory thought, already knowing what the Butler was going to ask, as well as both of me and Rae.
[I was waiting for this.]
She thought and I laughed, they won't understand me anyway.
"Of course you can."
"Is Princess Evie, really the Emperor's illegitimate daughter?"
No, I'm not.
"She isn't. He adopted her."
Sir Gregory was the one who answered.
[She's adopted? Why would the Emperor adopt a random kid on his journey, when he already has a lot of kids who didn't even meet him, waiting anxiously for him at home? Did he send this girl here to hide this from the Empress and the Queens? I wouldn't want to be this kid when she starts growing up around the princes and princesses-]
In moments like this, I just wish I couldn't hear their thoughts at all because it's embarrassing.
This isn't something very pleasant to hear, but it's not like I don't know all of this.
"Oh..."
And it's in these moments that I realize how many discussions would be caused and how many bonds would be broken if everyone said what they really think.