Logan left almost thirty minutes ago to see what arrangements he could make for me to make a call to Jess that will be untraceable.
I know that he is curious about my reasons for calling her. Even though, I may not be her guardian, I still need to know that she is okay, or whatever okay, is to her.
Grams left her in my care and I failed, but I am understanding that her mother, who is not my mother had a lot to do with who Jess is today.
Still, I need to know if she is redeemable. Inspite of what she did to me and trying to have me killed, I can't hate her. I still worry and the fact that I am going to be a mother soon, then I know that a mother will never give up on her children, no matter what they do or where they go in life.
"It's open, I shout at the soft knocking on my door.
The door opens and Jer walks in with a bruised Gwen, whose eyes are still not fully opened. It hurts to look at her, but I cannot shun away from her.
Jessica did this!
Jessica set Jer up and cause him to almost be, beaten" to death.
"You should be in bed" I said wanting to stand but decided to stay put as Jer walks further inside, his hand on Gwen's back, ushering her to one of the chairs in the room.
"I'm sorry to barge in like this but Jerome, insisted that I take a walk." She anxiously explains and I shook my head.
Smiling, "it's okay." I dismiss her apology, not wanting her to feel awkward. "Have you eaten?" I asked looking between the both of them and they both looked at each other, then nod, but Jer hasn't smile once since he came in.
Looking at Jer, "what happened?" I asked and he" turns to Gwen before looking down.
"Jessica called me" he stared to explain the reason for this sullen expression and for the first time, I hear him call her Jessica. I nod for him to continue. "She wanted to see how I was doing and how you were doing. " He continues and I just shook my head, wondering if calling her would be the right thing to do.
"So she just called to see how the both of us were doing?" I frowned, which is strange.
Chuckling dryly, "I had to lie to her about you." He stared at me nervously and I am curious about what he lied about.
Taking a deep breath, "I told her that you and Logan had a disagreement and that you ran and we have been searching for you ever since." He continues cautiously, as if he expects me to explore.
Surprise, but I had to know her response, "what was her response?" I asked curiously, wondering if she was happy with that news.
Tilting his head, "she wasn't laughing but she sounded relieved. She said, that was bound to happen because you guys are not suited and that the both of you grew up different from each other. She also said, that you are too timid for him." He shook his head in annoyance as he spoke.
I am sure I stared back at them with my mouth open, shocked at how she saw me. Chuckling, she thinks that I am not woman enough for my husband.
"Jamie, she said something and I don't know if she knew what she was saying," Jer says and he seem confused. Without waiting for me to say anything, "she said, that you are just as pathetic as your mother and dad had a right to leave her," he pauses, "for mom." Jer says and I clutch my stomach, feeling an uncomfortable movement.
I sat frozen watching him and hearing what he said. He left my mom? They weren't together when she died? Did everyone lie to me?
I laid back on the bed, "Jer can you give me sometime alone?" I asked and he walked quickly over to me.
Touching my face and my hands on my stomach, "I am sorry, I shouldn't have said anything. Jamie please forgive me. I just didn't want to keep anything from you about what Jessica says." He explains and I am grateful.
That's the second time he called her by her full name.
"It's okay, I'll be fine" I said, wishing he would leave, but with the worry lines creasing his forehead, I know that is just wishful thinking.
"I shouldn't have said anything. Grey would kill me." He mutters softly and I held his hand.
Anxious, "don't mention this to Logan." I requested quickly and he frowned in disbelief. "Please" I pleaded and he nods slowly but I can see that he still isn't sure, that he's going to keep this between us.
Smiling, "I just need to take a short nap and so does Gwen" I said, looking over his shoulder where his girlfriend sat observing us.
Nodding he stands up, "I have a feeling that since she thinks you are missing, they're going to have men out there trying to find you. You need to stay low and at least they won't expect to see you and Logan together right now." He continues and maybe it's a good thing that she thinks that I am missing and I was worried about her.
"I asked Logon to fine a way for me to talk to her and he is trying." I confess and he stares down at me confused.
Hoping he won't get upset and understand what I am feeling, "I was worried about her and I was missing her." I admitted. "Grams left her in my care and I failed. I failed her and I failed you" I cried, burying my face in the pillow.
Hearing the sliding door push open, Jer and I look up. "What the f**k is going on here?