Next day I leave he's house. Kissing he's forehead. And than grab my things joke to my car. And started to walk to my home. After spending time with him. I am finally feel happy. Like he is my heartbeat. Without him I am nothing.
When I reach home I enter to my bedroom and than get in shower.. after that again jump on my bed and sleep again. And that is the best sleep ever I had.
When I wake up it is quite a noon. I look at the time it's two o'clock in afternoon. I grab my Phone. I see there is 20 miss call form him. And that make him smile. He did sand me some of text messages.
' how dare you to leave me alone.'
' when I told you to not go anywhere not to leave me alone how can you do this to me Medelline. Now this piece of paper told me where is my girl go.. '
I laugh reading this. He is mad. And asking like kid. When I read last one I am smrike.
' make yourself to ready princess because I am going to give you punishment to leaving me alone and not to picking up to my called.. '
And I giggle. I can't wait for this..
I get out of my bed and than freshen up. After I do my chore. I walk to kitchen and see that there is any food for me.
And I see lunch here is mom made some pancakes. And I grab it and started to eat it and made myself for coffee. I check my other messages and anything that I have to know about..
I do want to go to Tony's place and clean he's wound. I text him to I am on my way to coming he's home. And he didn't reply. Maybe he is sleeping or somthing.
My mom already message me that they she and dad have to go to the camp for two or three days so I have to behave myself. And take care of myself. She did tell this to Jake's mom and jake so that i don't feel alone. I do talk with jake he told me that he is doing double date with Becca and Chase.
I didn't ask him anything and than make him lucky and than i getting ready for go to the Tony's place. I hope he did eat he's medicine if he didn't i will going to punch him to he's face. I really hate when people don't listen to me and he is one of the boy who's are always do what he wanted to do. And never listen to me. Acting like five year old kid.
I reach he's house and the guard look at me but didn't said anything. Like he said. I am always welcome to he's home. And no one will stop me for that.
When I enter I hear there noises. And I walk there where this coming from. And I look at there door is half of open and I look at the Lily and Tony both are making out. And and.. ohh my god.
I didn't west my time and leave the house and tell the guard to not to say anything to he's boss. And than drive my car to my place. How can I forget this that he is still with Lily. When he will be back to school he will going to be back with her. And they are almost doing it. Means he don't needed me anymore.
That what happened about our yesterday talk. It is just for make-up or somthing. I pull my cell phone and told him that somthing is come up I am not coming to he's Home.
When I know he is bussy to fucking her. Why would he give me reply that instead. I enter my house and than starte to open my backpack. And doing my homework.. when I want to distract myself when I know there is no one can distract me and no one can understand my position. I do my homework. And that make me Divert my mind to that situation.
I did my homework good three or four hours. I didn't evne check on my phone or anything. I am to bussy to doing it. And that make me really feel relax and clam.
After I thought that this is for enough for today I take all books in my bag pack and than walk to the kitchen. And started to making some good for me. I know that no one is going to be home I do have this whole house for me. When i can do whatever I want to do. But I cant..
I do feel hurt. And broken. But that was my reality. And I can't forget that. And I am accepting it. Now that tell me that I have to concentrate in my study's and not in this bullshit.
I can't keep hurting myself. And I can't do it for myself. I did west lots of time to think about it. To feel somthing to him. But still at the end what I got. Nothing. And he got what he wanted. He got he's girl. And they both are sleeping together and Makin love. And I am here fucking completing my bloody what homework. To avoid to thinking about him. How can he do that to me. Is he get revenge for that I did to him he did the same. To show me and feel me.. that's he's game plan..
Didn't he know that. I am coming there.. still he did on perposly.. to show me that.. and pack back to me.. than he totally success about it..
I didn't sleep with him I thought it's for he's best health. But what he is doing. I never thought that he can't keep he's crook under he's pent and wait for the woman whom saying lies about it. Fuck him. Fuck the hell all things what he said to me. First time in my whole life I feel that he played me. I play by him. I didn't realise that he ever do that to me. That is totally hurt me. But I am not going to show him that. Not at all.. I will show him that I don't care. I don't give damn about it. If he want to fuck her. Take her relationship in next level than he can. I don't care. I feel guilty that whole month. And this is enough punishment to both of us. Now we both are clear in our mind. Now I don't care about what he do or what he don't. It's he's life. Now on I am far stay away for him. It's better to both of us. For me.
After eating dinner. I again get in blankets and off the light and close my eyes and sleep.
Next day when I wake up loud voice of my alarm. Sketching to myself when I finally get out to the bed. I thinking about how alone i am going this new day's. And I have face it no matter what.
I didn't any call message from him. Too busy with he's girl. I see. I started brush my teeth after that I get shower standing front of my closet I am looking at what can I wear today. Looking the whole closet up to down. I finally decide to wear my tight jeans. It is to tighten and it is look my ass in shape perfectly. I know I never wear it for school. But today I want to too wear it. For that I get top which are full of sleevless it's around with node. So I can tie it tightly and than I really don't wear to bra but still I don't want to show anyone that what I have. So I did wear it. The top is reach to my belly. And my half of belly show it perfectly. I do wear those type of cloths. But not for school. I wear this when we are in vacation. I am with my family or friends.
Becca and zoe always tell me to wear that types of clothes but i never try it. I mean i do like it. But it is for attention. And I don't like it. But today I feel change myself my dressing style. For myself. To make me feel that everything is oky.. I am happy.. and I always will be.
I didn't make up. I first time apply lipe gloss for my lips look red and chubby. I smile at myself. After that I tie my hear. I don't want to open my hair. When I ponytail my hair. It's look perfect on me. I look different but good different. And confident.
I grab my things. My books all that i study yesterday. And than my phone and than get out the house. I didn't cook anything. I am in not in mood for cook somthing. I get first Starbucks to get for myself breakfast. And I drink coffee in my whole drive. And eat choco chips cookies.
My mood is good today. I feel little new me. And i am excited about to see my friend's face. I know they will like it that new change.
When I reach the school that same time he is and Lily both are get out from the car. And I stop for second. And look at them. And than I see how they both are smiling and talking. I look he's wound it's not that show it. Which is good. Means he is good.
After I look away and show them that I didn't look at them. Or I don't have even Idea that I know they also are here. I grab my phone and started to text girls where are the. Well it is new to me. I never texted. Whenever I reach my locker they always there. But today I want them to be with me. Or somthing. They are my strength. And I want them to besides me.
I reach my locker. And open it and put my things in locker and than get out in my homeroom books. I still have some coffee in my hand it is still hot. So I am enjoying it.
" Seems like someone in good mood today. " I close my locker and look at that person and than smile at him. And hug me.
" Of course i am happy. Today I feel like fresh fresh.." i tell him.
" I can see that you are look different to. But good different. And I totally like it. " He said to me and we both broke the hug. And my favourite People come and look at me up to down and than hug me.
" It's like that I didn't see you like years or too.. damn I miss you so much. And look great today. You have to wear this more.. " Becca said and broke the hug. After that zoe attack me with her hug. And I hug her back. And giggle.
" Did you hear she is giggling.. what the hell happen to her guy's. " It's jake who said. We me to shock I never do that all stuff.
" It's just happened. Now don't tease me for that.." i tell him. And he hug me tightly and than kiss my forehead.
" So how's your date guys. I hope all go well.." i tell them. And chese and they both are walk to us to holding there hands and look like happy couple ever..
" It's great. And I I think we have to triple date too if you and Jacob want to join us. " Zoe said. And I look at Jacob and he also did same. Well I know I am keep making an excuse now I think like I have to talk to him. And clear things out.
" We need to talk are you free after school so we can hangout in my house and watch movie or somthing.." i ask him out.. did any girl ask boys out. I don't know. But I did it front of everyone.