I didn't have a fucked up childhood like my besties Sierra and Matt. Well that was until last year. You are probably wondering how I ended up with my bestfriends I have now. Well there is a reason why Sierra, Matt, and me bonded.
*Flashback 1 year ago*
"Mom im going to a party with some of my friends," I told my mom.
"Ok honey be careful if your not back by curfew which is at 11:00 pm. You will be grounded understood?" my mom said.
"Understood mom," I was closing the front door behind me.
I walked over to my friends car who was waiting and honking at me.
"Hey girl! Ready to get wrecked?" she asked.
"Yah definetly! But please stay with me during the party. This is my first party and I am kind of scared," I admitted.
"Ok girl. No promises though!" she answered.
I was scared and nervous. This is the first party I have ever been to. I just kind of have a bad gut feeling something bad is going to happen tonight. Im having second thoughts I don't actually want to go anymore. No turning back now. Were here.
"Ok girl im going to go ask those hotties to get us some drinks," she grinned.
"U-uh ok," I stuttered.
"One of the guy's is checking you out! You should go get your drink from him," she told me.
I walked over to the guy who was gesturing me over to him. I have a really bad feeling about this.
"Hey gorgeous. Take a drink," he slurred. Forcing me to drink what was in the red party cup.
It was so strong. My throat was burning and the taste was disgusting.
"Hey let's go upstairs and go into one of the rooms," he slurred. Grabbing my waist and pulling me into him.
"N-no I w-want to g-go home," I begged.
But he didn't listen. He took me to the bedroom. He pushed me up against the wall.
"Babygirl your so beautiful. A body like yours can't go to waste. I will please you tonight. You will return back the favor," he started kissing me up my collarbone.
"LET ME GO!" I said yelling at him.
"Not a chance. Let me finish what I have started," he slurred grinning at me.
"End of flashback*
That was the most tramautizing thing that has ever happened to me. I still feel like a dirty slut who was used. I can't help but blame myself for losing my v-card to him, and possibly more. I could've stopped him. I never opened up about what happened that night. I later had a problem to open up to my parents. But to my bestfriends they will think 'eww the slut got pregnant'. That girl betrayed me for leaving me with him. That girl is the only one who knows about my dirty little secret.
That girl is Michelle Otwakosky.