Arya tidied up the papers that Ronald had thrown, so that they scattered all over the floor in the inpatient room, arranging them in succession, even though Arya was Ronald's personal assistant, this young man never knew Ronald's personal life. Ronald's life is very closed even though he is known as a friendly person. Arya often wondered why every time he was angry Ronald turned into a scary person, and when in normal situations Ronald became an angel.
Rey tightly embraced his brother's body, channeling his inner strength to look after his only brother Ronald. A few minutes later Ronald broke his embrace, with a red face holding back his anger or too sad it was really Ronald himself did not understand what he really felt.
"Sis, Istighfar sis." Rey whispered before releasing his brother's body from his embrace.
Ronald was silent, did not respond to what his brother whispered.
"Astagfirullahhaladzim .." Rey guided his brother to recite the sentence over and over. Not long after, Ronald lowered his head and his tears could no longer hold him back. Ronald was crying. Rey hugged his brother's body again, while continuing to rest.
"Gosh..firullah..haladzim." Ronald stammered saying the sentence istighfar but he tried to keep saying it. Rey rubbed his brother's back. He was very grateful that Ronald would follow what he said, in his heart he prayed that Ronald could change into a better person and walk according to religious law.
Arya looked at the two figures of handsome men who were hugging, a very touching sight, a younger brother who strengthened his brother. And an older sister who doesn't hesitate and is ashamed to express what she feels to her sister. Arya smiled, in her heart she was proud of the figure of her boss. Without knowing that Ronald is gay.
"Arya, you just come home and it's late, let my brother Ronald take care of it."
"Yes, Mr. Rey, tomorrow morning I'll be here again with a new file."
"For the time being I will handle the work, Brother Ronald, so for a while you work with me, until Ronald recovers."
"Good, Sir."
"And please my father not to know what just happened, I don't want you to be worried and get sick again."
"Good, Sir."
"Okay, please if you want to go home."
"Fine, sir. Then I'll excuse me." Arya nodded at Ronald and left Ronald's inpatient room.
"Sis, brother actually why, tell me, I'll listen." Ronald is still silent.
"Sis, we are siblings, you are my only brother, I can't see you like this, tell me sis, I won't scold you even if you are in the wrong position, you have to trust me."
Ronald rubbed his face, then looked up, staring at his younger brother's clear eyes.
"I don't know what happened to me, I want to be angry but I'm also confused, sometimes I don't understand what I'm doing, all this time Danil has always calmed me down, but now I've lost him." Ronald's face looked down sadly. Rey frowned.
"Do you want to hear my advice?"
"What?"
Rey took a deep breath, he had to be careful in conveying his advice, not to misunderstand Ronald, and in the end Ronald would hate him, really Rey didn't want that to happen.
"You have to consult a psychiatrist."
Hearing Rey say the word 'psychiatrist' there was a shock going through his heart. Ronald tried to guess, did Rey know about his sexual disorder? Does Rey know about her relationship with Danil. Before the question was answered Rey had continued his words.
"I mean this, sis, I thought maybe you have multiple personalities, considering that you have experienced an incident that made you deeply traumatized." Actually Rey wanted to provoke Ronald to talk openly about his sexual disorders, so that he would easily help Ronald so that he did not fall into more negative things.
"How do you think I am multiple personality?"
"You can suddenly get angry uncontrollably, but after that you will return to normal like nothing happened after you vent your anger, if this is allowed I'm afraid that you will become a psychopath, I don't want that to happen, and brother suddenly angry at Danil? afraid to lose? lha funny, Arya said earlier, Danil didn't say anything, didn't get angry either, didn't say goodbye, then how can you say he wants to leave you? You're still friends like before, only difference is he already married, then where did Danil's fault? "
Ronald was silent, he was thinking what should he do, should he be honest with his younger brother? or will she just shut up and follow her advice?
"Brother kog is daydreaming, did you hear me talking?"
"I..I .. yes, listen."
"Why are you nervous?"
"Rey .."
Rey moved his chair to get closer to Ronald's bed.
"In fact.."
Rey is waiting for the sentence to be said by his brother patiently, Rey knows very well about Ronald's mental condition from his father, So Rey will be more patient with his brother.
"Actually, I'm gay."
Rey leaned his back on the back of the chair, it's true Jelita said hearing the honesty directly from his person, really very painful, but this is better, at least he will more easily guide his brother back to the way of Allah. Then Rey looked at Ronald, then smiled.
"There is still time to repent sis, and I'm sure you can return to being a normal man."
"Aren't you mad at me? You don't feel disgusted by me?"
"Why should I be angry? Why should I be disgusted? You are my brother and you have not done anything wrong, I am there for you, let's make our parents proud sis, you have to return to normal sis."
"Thanks Rey you are such a good little brother."
"Yes Greetings, what I said earlier does not prove that I am a big boy?" Rey suddenly became annoyed and left Ronal to the sofa in the corner of the room, and lay his tall body there. Ronal giggled at the annoyed behavior of his younger brother.
"You don't have to smile like that, I'm going to sleep. There you sleep too." Rey is getting more and more angry, while Ronald laughs and throws a pillow at Rey, who has closed his eyes.
"Damn brother!" Rey said as he put down the pillow that had hit him on the back of his head.
Ronald looked at his brother who had fallen asleep, grateful in his heart to have a younger brother who loved him so much, so understood his situation. He had to change. Must. Ronald literally implanted those words in his brain like a mantra, hoping that his resolve never subsided, for the sake of the people who loved him.