With him facing her now he sighed and held her hand but she flinched back and snatched her hand away. She was clearly annoyed at him and he knew that he had just been a jerk. He had been so self-centred that he felt like he was the only one who was grieving for the dead Jason.
He decided to explain himself, "I'm really sorry, honey, for what I just said. I know that you and Jason had the closest relationship and I barely knew him that much but this has opened up a lot of wounds in my heart.
"His death reminds me of how weak I am and will always be. I had to look on helplessly as Rob was murdered; I looked on as most of the people who had agreed to help us got murdered. I killed my best friend with my own hands.
"I've seen so many murders in my years as a detective and it almost feels like a curse. It feels like whenever I get close to a person they suddenly disappear from my life. I feel guilty for Jason's death."
