"Suicide doesn't end the pain, it just passes it on to someone else."
Chapter 5
I'm doing right now my paperworks that I'd past later. At habang gumagawa, naririnig ko ang bulong bulongan ng mga classmate kung lalaki sa likod ko. I can't clearly hear what are they talking.
"Can I invite you with a dinner?"
Nagangat ako ng tingin at nakita kung may nakatayo sa aking harapan. Luminga linga ako para maka sigurado kung ako ba ang tinatanong niya.
"Ako ba tinatanong mo." I ask him confusely.
"ofcourse! Sino paba?" He sarcastically said.
"I have things to do."
"So, it's that a No?" He's eyebrow raised.
"Yes." Then he walk away I'd admit he was good looking. But, not my type.
I have so many suitors. But, no one can win my heart nor get my yes. Cause I felt my heart belong to someone else. And bear in my mind that back then, Bernard one of my suitors date me. Cause he was my bestfriend cousin lucy ask me to entertain him. He was also hondsome but a playboy and jerk he tried to kiss me. But suddenly, there was a man approach us wearing a hood and sunglasses. And give punch bernard. it happen so fast before I called him, he was already gone.
I don't know who is he? Why did he punch bernard like jelous boyfriend? Is he one of my admirer nor stalker?
At nung araw nayun dina humingi ng sorry sa akin si lucy dahil sa nagawa ng pinsan niya. So, I forgive him. Cause she was lucy cousin.
"Okey class. Pass your paperwork." pagpasok na pagpasok palang ng aming proffesor yun na agad ang bungad niya.
My eyes landed on lucelle chair Ngayun kolang napansin na wala siya sa upuan niya. Ano kaya ang nangyari sakanya bat wala siya ngayun?
Wala kaming ginagawa ngayun. Dahil Malapit narin ang second semester At dahil graduating na nga ako ngayun maraming kailangan gawin mga at required na kailangan ipasa.
I'm 4rth year college here in San Agustin taking course related in bussiness. Actually, Dahil darating din ang araw na ako ang mamahala sa aming company. Besides, dahil ako lang naman ang nag iisang tagapagmana kahit labag sa akin kailangan ko parin tanggapin. I'd really want to be a doctor that's what I dream but then I don't have choice.
I've have no interest to handle our company. Napabuntong hininga nalang ako.
"Class dismised." our proffesor exclaimed before she go out.
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Nasa labas na ako ng University then, suddenly a car stop right in front of me. In the backseat there I saw lucelle her face written with a happy gestures. Sinenyasan niya akong pumasok. So, in the end wala naman akong nagawa, umupo ako Katabi niya.
"I don't get you, you're nowhere to be found then bigla bigla ka nalang susulpot kung kelan mo gusto?" Bigla kung sambit sakanya.
"Tsk.. she's like that masanay kana."
I was hypnotized at kinabahan ako... Hindi naman siguro si Nathan yung nagsalita Noh? I don't know kung bakit kapag nandyan kinakabahan ako at the same time di ako mapakali.
Paglingon ko sa driver seat, I gasp cause Nathan was there.. diko manlang siya napansin kanina dahil dere-deretso akong pumasok na di manlang lumingon sa unahan.
"Hey! You here, di manlang Kita napansin." Sambit at pilit kung pinapakalma ang sarili ko.
"Obviously." He sarcastically said. habang sumusulyap sakin. At binalik niya ang tingin niya sa daan.
"Sungit." Pabulong kung sabi.
"What did you say?"
"Oh, Nothing." I said while My eyebrow raised.
"You guys stop." Pag aawat ni lucelle na ngayun nakataas din ang kilay. Pabalik balik ang tingin niya sa amin ni Nathan.
"Erica, don't mind him may namimiss lang yan kaya ganyan."
"May namimiss? Who?" I got curious. what did she mean by that.?
"Uhm- Kalimutan mo nalang ang sinabi ko." She said. And I nodded.
"Anyway, San ang punta natin?"
"Actually, I want to invite you in our house cause we'll having a family dinner." She said, while she's smiling widely and her eyes twinkle like a star. I don't know bat ang gaan ng look ko sakanya. E, bago palang naman kami nag meet. I have a feeling that parang matagal ko na siyang Kilala. And Lucille seems like comfortable with me. Na para bang were close before.
I shook my head and took a deep breath. "Why? Eh, family dinner ninyo yun."
"Of course! cause I want to introduce you. Besides, your my best friend now." Sabi niya habang sumusulyap Kay Nathan. binalik niya ang tingin niya sa akin Then she wink at me.
"I see." Tipid kung tugon.
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Dumaan muna kami sa condo ko para makapagbihis.. nakakahiya naman kung di ako mag ayos..atsaka I don't even know bat kinakabahan ako. di sumama sa Amin si Nathan sa condo ko hinintay niya nalang kami ni lucelle sa kotse.. si Lucelle ang sumama sa akin at siya pumili ng isusuot ko...
I wore right now, gray dress above knee pair with silver stilettoes. Hinayaan kung nakalugay ang mahaba kung buhok.
"Let's go. Lucelle." Kinuha ko ang sling bag ko bago napagpasyahan na lumabas.
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Nathan clear he's throat and said."were here." Nauna na siyang bumaba sa Amin at para pagbuksan.. inilahad niya sa akin ang kanyang kamay upang alalayan bumaba.. I felt like there's an electricity when I touch he's hands.. hindi niya parin binibitawan ang aking kamay at hinigpitan niya pa ito.. agad ko naman itong bumawi.. I saw in my pheripiral vision that lucelle smirk at Nathan.
Nauna na sa Amin pumasok sa amin si Lucelle at naiwan kaming dalawa ni Nathan.
Diko alam ang Gagawin ko ngayun kaming dalawa nalang...
"So, how are you.?" Suddenly Nathan ask, habang tinitingnan ako ng deretso sa mata. I bit my lower lip, at umiwas ako ng tingin.
"I'm fine."
"Do you have boyfriend?."
Binalik ko ang tingin ko sakanya. And he's jaw clenched. My eyebrow raised. "Nothing." "Why?"
Pagka sabi ko sakanya yun Di nakaligtas sa akin ang sumilay ang ngiti sa kanyang mga labi. "Good." He reply.
"Kuya!" Isang magandang babaeng kamukha ni Nathan ang lumabas galing sa loob ng mansion nila lucelle. I think mas bata sa akin ng dalawang taon, nakasuot ito ng floral dress and her hair braid. Maputi ito at matangkad. mahaba ang pilik mata at makapal ang kilay. Bumagsak ang tingin niya sa akin at Biglang nanlaki ang kanyang mga mata at tumili ito. bigla niya ako sinugod ng yakap.
"Omygoshh! Ate Marsel? I can't believe your finally here!" I was shocked, how did she know my name? and it's like we've known each other.
Bigla siyang hinila ni Nathan at binulungan. Tumango naman ito at sumulyap sa akin.
At heto ako nakatayo pilit kung isisink sa utak ko lahat ng mga nangyari this past few days. Simula nung lumipat ako dito sa cebu. Simula nung nakilala ko si lucelle. Simula nung unang pagkikita namin ni Nathan na nasundan pa. Tila ba nag iba ang lahat, Simula nung nakilala ko sila.