I can't believe him he literally came prepared to face me. "See i know you don't want me to teach you anything so let us both spend some time and you tell your father you didn't like my teaching ". is this guy for real anyone would kill to make a few bucks especially with his desperation here carrying horse shit around. But what I told him was even unforgiving I told him "I have a better reason I should tell my father you smell of horse shit and you have nuts for brain ".
What his expression told me was shock mixture of loathing he furiously stalked out. There goes my plan for making him fall in love with me. I still didn't know why I told him that or something much worse than that years later. I only knew one thing we both provoked each other from start some people can even say that it was a mutual dislike of each other's company neither of us really liked the other person universe has planned for us.
So it went on like that for a few more days . My father never checked upon me anymore guess he was over meddling his children's life. He was sometime cruel and sometimes ignorant absent and the list goes on he was an angel as far as Raja said. I couldn't believe anyone could like my father he says he didn't find it as surprising as loving me. Let us come back to the story I love Raja and we made every one suffer for that even ourselves.
I liked the new bicycle my father brought me. I was surprised he might have desired a son but he makes do with by getting satisfied with my tomboyish nature I was an entertainment to him Fanny was disgusting reminder of mother. He didn't love us any better but he was not bad either he just existed for us. I know you must be curious about mother she looked like Fanny but she was far sweeter braver and smarter like me. She confessed of marrying only because she was pregnant at that time and father was a poor cousin so he married her and became the rich guy he wanted to be. But the child died on birth but father still treated her as a brood mare and loose woman. My mother has told me she has long forgiven him and is happy about the children he gave her.
Me and Fanny are her world she always told us. She was on death bed and worried for us and made Ramu kaaka swear he would look after us. My father came only after her death there was no pain just relief of getting rid of baggage and enjoying all goods. He was like that selfish there was not much difference between us now I'm thinking about it. Apple doesn't fall far but Raja didn't believe this he says I'm a prankster never cruel nor my father as far as he is concerned who am I to challenge he has gone on a world tour finished writing a book and a father to beautiful children but not mine and that doesn't make them any less cute.
So what tuition plan had flopped there were several other ways it wasn't my plan to begin with. I could have easily reminded him about my charity towards him with the way I beg but I don't think he will be interested. I have to gain marks or my father could bring another scarier tutor for me or worse things could happen like my failing.
I didn't like to fail in exams or life so I studied hard because I stayed away from the stable I thought he had peace too. I was so tired of my lack of performance in the math and also that Raja loves math made me love that horrible subject as well. I crammed so hard for that exam my teachers were surprised by my results.
Yesterday was a closed chapter for us because I didn't know whether he remembered me looking after him. It was so sad for me to remind him he looked better I guess he has taken the rest of the medicine as well. Not even a thank you I got in response. I was thankful to him for forgetting that I was there with him when he was not well.
It was because he was very weak and vulnerable that night. I was sure that's how he wanted me to see him. Plus then there will be a question of why I took care of him I could hardly say that it's a regular thing for me because he might have heard about the bad things I have done to servants here each of them deserve what I did by the way.
I went to class with a reformed sensation i decided I will be a good girl but I think it's hard especially in today's world to be nice girl. Here such girls won't live long. it's a very bad world let me warn you bad things in life happens one you turn good.
When I was a brat everything was going great but once I decided to change all the rocks fell over me my life will be fucked up soon. I told you before don't be too good or too bad you will survive else perish.
I decided to visit Fanny and annoy her for a change she was reading something probably a paper that was first. I greeted her like a good sister but I think she knew enough about me to not yo fall for it. " What Ashu"? she asked . "Well I was wondering how you can tell the other person is in love with you", I told her hesitantly.
"Oh that ! " she blushed. Here it goes I thought she will hardly tell me anything instead give me cryptic remarks. But to my surprise she confessed, " it's hard to know with a guy but I think if that person is genuinely interested in you they will make time to talk to you, praise you things like that ". She stopped for a second then asked, "Why do you want to know this"? " Nothing Fanny there is a boy at school ", I lied . " Oh but you are very young Ashu", she smiled at me. I was getting uncomfortable there I quickly grabbed the paper she was reading it was a letter from the special teacher. I began reading it out loud she snatched it from me and ran from there. it's good that she was gone or else I would have told her everything.