H A R R Y
London, England
August 18, 2020
I found myself standing in front of a building's entrance.
The building smelled like medicine and disinfectant and as I looked around, I found a few people in white coats and white uniforms, stethoscopes hanging around their necks and the room on my right had a signage that says Emergency Room. I realized that I was in a hospital. I approached the information desk where I see a few hospital employees in uniform were on stand-by while the others were busy taking calls. I walked closer to their table and realized that I was in St. Pierre's Hospital in London, England as I see the logo in their uniform.
My eyes were then captured when I saw William and Liv entering the elevator who were talking to each other. "Oliver? William? What are they doing here?" I say softly.
My feet drags me towards the elevator, "Lads!! Lads wait!!" I yelled out as I chase them but the elevator had already closed right in front of my face.
I sigh depressingly and decided to take the stairs instead hoping I might be able to catch them. I moved up to the second floor as I was struggling for air while I waited by the elevators to open. As soon as it did, it was not the same elevator that Liv and William were on. I decided to look for them if they dropped by this storey by checking the entire rooms on this floor one by one. I failed, I wasn't able to find Liv and William so I headed up to the third floor instead. I didn't wait by the elevator anymore, I think they have already stepped out of it. I checked the entire floor again but they were not here too.
"Where did those guys go? I haven't seen them after the surfing accident I had." I mumbled to myself.
I ran up the stairs again and wondered who they might have visited in this hospital. I reached the fourth floor to which I realized was the VIP suite of this hotel and it was a little bit less crowded in here unlike the other floor. I passed a few nurse's stations and wandered around the entire place searching for my best friends, but I still was not able to find Liv or William.
I was panting as I stopped by in a corner to catch some air, confused if it was really the lads that I saw entering the elevator earlier. I paused for a while and recalled that moment, and I know I was not mistaken. I know it was Liv and William bringing a basket filled with bananas and green apples which were my favorite fruits and a few red balloons which says 'Get well soon!'
I hear a door opening and shutting in this empty floor. As I turn to my side, I found William standing in the hallway looking all melancholy. He breathes out heavily with his head up to the ceiling as he walks to the other side and leaned his back on the wall before he lowers his head and started crying.
"William." I called out softly but was cut off when Liv steps out of the same room and rushes to William.
Liv stands in front of William, "You have to man up, William."
William shakes his head as he continues to cry silently. His hands were shaking while his face were starting to turn red as he turns to Oliver, "It's my fault Liv." His voice cracks. "It's my fault why he ended up like that. This is all my fault." William cries.
I walked towards Liv and William and watched how Liv consoles him. "Lads, what's the matter?" I asked but Liv is just hugging William around his arms while rubbing William's back.
"Oliver, what's going on?" I asked Liv.
"It was not your fault Will. No one blamed you." Liv comforts William who is still crying. "Maddie didn't even blame you." Liv chokes a sob as he tries to stop his tears from falling even though it's already flooding his eyelids.
"But I know it's all because of me, Liv!" William's voice echoes throughout the entire floor.
"Liv! William! What's going on in here?" I asked frantically, holding their shoulders as I move them to and fro, but not getting any response. "What's all this?!" I asked again but they were ignoring me.
I turn my head towards the room where they just exited and wondered who they visited and who is admitted in this hospital. I wonder what actually happened and why William is blaming himself for something that happened which I didn't know. I wonder who is in there and why my friends are looking all mournful and guilt-faced. I started walking towards the door to check it myself.
I gasped deeply for air as soon as I opened my eyes and stared at the white ceiling which was above me. I was back in the beach house and I didn't even know that I had fallen asleep while I was writing a song for America. I stare at my ceiling for a while, realizing that it was all a dream.
A dream.
But it felt so real when I touched Liv and William.
"Shit. What a freaky dream." I say softly to myself.
I breathe out heavily as I slowly pulled myself up from my bed and stared at my balcony getting worried of Liv and William before I left them in London. Maybe I should give them a call and check on them. I dragged the back of my hand over my forehead to wipe off my sweat and as I looked at myself, I was drenched in my own sweat even though my air-condition was on high. I looked out of my balcony and stared at the waves, remembering about my dream of Liv and William who was blaming himself. I wonder what that dream meant and why were they both crying as if someone died.
I reached for my phone and decided to give Liv and William a call. It was ringing and it kept ringing but no one was answering my calls. I guess they were still mad at me for leaving London and choosing a life on this island instead. Before I left London, Liv, William and I had a fight after I survived that freakish surfing accident. They didn't want me to go somewhere by myself but since they have office jobs, they weren't able to come here with me.
I even left Maddie in London without saying anything to her and still haven't contacted her since then because I don't know where my relationship with her is heading to anymore. I only kept her for sex because she was helping me void out my problems and our relationship was only on sexual ties aside from her emotions that she has for me. I don't have feelings for her. I don't feel that feeling of bliss and elation whenever I see or think about America towards Maddie. With America, it's different but it's so hard for me to open up about myself to her. I know I went too far when I didn't speak to her in Pacific Beach but I just didn't know how to handle the situation since I am always used to escaping and voiding my responsibilities and problems.
I grabbed my surfboard and decided to escape my thoughts again.