(F-POV)
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Me and Clive give each other possibly the most awkward goodbye that we have ever uttered. And I'm left by myself.
I get home and there's even more drama than when I was at school. My parents are aware of everything and are waiting for me the second I arrive. I go through a whole ordeal with my parents. An entire discussion is had. I inform them that Clive is coming over tomorrow among other things. I can expect another sibling as well which is... Something.
Finally, I escape to my open doored room. And swiftly hop onto my bed without any other care. After a spectacle of a day, it is just what I need.
I let out a long sigh. I have some time for some peace of mind.
...And immediately every iota of calm disappears.
Why did I act that way with Clive? God! Why did I say anything that I said?! He's going to think that I don't like him!
I can't help but put on a disaffected frown. I really want 'us' to be a thing. Although, I suppose I won't need to worry about not being with him anymore. All things considered...
I have other concerns though. The way we act towards each other isn't how a couple would act. I know that, but it's how we've always acted towards each other. I really think he's the one I want to be with. Shouldn't we act differently if we're going to be a couple? And... A-A family??! My brain goes awry the more I think of those words. I warm up and my arms become restless. The thought feels too good to be thinking about it! It's a surprisingly attractive proposition to myself.
But I'm not ready!
Why the hell did I ask to do it so soon?!? There is so much to swallow here! I have to get pregnant?? Save the world? Ahhhhh!! I'm not prepared for this! I flail my legs up in the air spastically.
Although, I, I guess I do want to do it right away...
I start sweating a lot. My hands shake. And I start playing with my tongue against my teeth. I'm having a lot of conflicting feelings toward this.
Shouldn't I be ardently opposed to all of this? That's how I should feel, right?
...Is it weird that I'm actually looking forward to it? And it's not just because I'm finally going to get it on with my crush. Although, that is a big part of it. I let out some staggered breathes. When I think of what he's going to do to me, I get... really hot... Especially... Down there. Mmmmmm.
I'm going to lose my virginity. Not just that, but I'm going to have... Raw sex on my first time.
"Nnnnn." I'm all twitchy and scatterbrained. My thoughts are racing uncontrollably, to the point where I don't feel like I'm in the real world anymore, but instead, a limbo of my mind's creation. I can't stop fidgeting with my hair and scratching at my clothes. My breath rate is picking up and my heart is going crazy. My lower stomach area gets restless and churns unstoppably, but not in a nervous way, like, in an eager way. Am I really that excited?
I'm... Horny? Hah, this escalated quick.
I'll have his baby inside me. And I know for certain that I will not 'get rid' of it. Which means... that I'll be forever linked with Clive...
OH Fuck~ Nyah!~ah~
My neck jolts forward and my my legs tense up. A tepid sensation gets sent through my nerves. That thought just gave me tingles. AHaaaaAAAHHahahh~
I didn't think this would be such a turn on for me. And it's during a time of crisis! ...Hold on maybe that's contributing. Am I turned on by danger? Including the risk of getting pregnant? The former maybe a little bit, but I think I'm genuinely getting off by the thought of being impregnated. Whenever I think of him unleashing into my unprotected womb my hips quake!
I slide my hand down my skirt and underneath my panties. I rub the outside of my entrance to tease myself a little bit. My pussy is beyond ready for touch of any kind.
"Nnnnaaaah!" I moan, almost forgetting to cover up my mouth. "Chhhhmmmm." I'm not alone in my house. I forgot. I swiftly close the open door to my room and window before hopping back into my bed.
I survey myself. I'm surprisingly wet. God, I AM turned on. There's no doubting it. I bite the inner part of my lip. Mmmnnnn. I think of tomorrow...
Nah! Why can't I fuck Clive right now!
I wrap my legs around a body pillow that I have, all the while sinking my fingers into myself.
"Awwwwahhhh!" I shout into the pillow. My brown hair falls all around me as my face sinks into the soft pillow. It's cushion-e and comfortable. I rub my cheeks into it mesmerizingly.
I role play with the body pillow. I use one hand to wrap around the pillow and the other to service myself.
"I'm riding you Clive. You like that? You like that!"
My legs are wrapped around it while I sit on top of the pillow. I gently move my hips forward. The fabric from the body pillow slides across my ass.
I do this valiantly and violently for a while until I feel myself get close.
"Now do what I command and cum for me. Cum for me Clive! Cum inside me!!"
I aggressively hump the pillow. The exposed area of my clit rubs vibrantly against the soft fabric of my mount.
"Give me your cum and I'll give you a baby!" I scream into the side of the pillow.
I've reached my climax. I extend my buttocks outward and plant my chin on the pillow.
"Hah! Hah!..."
I'm having an orgasm! My moist fingers are enveloped by even more wetness as my eyes curl to their upper limit.
"Awwwww, fuhhhhhck!" I moan out.
Frozen for a moment in time, I slowly regain my cognitive ability. I fall down beside the body pillow, panting from my ferocity. Oh my god. "Clive... Clive... I hope you're as good as my imagination."
Suddenly I realize what I've done.
...I hope no one heard any of that.
That was some cringe inducing hentai dialogue right there. It only works when you're in the mood. So now that I'm not horny I'm looking back on that with disdain.
Well, I'm a bit exhausted, and tired. I'm going to sleep early. And for multiple reasons.
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Zzz
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