This morning when I woke up my mother came in. "Honey you can turn on your television if you want."
"That's a first." I said to her as I rubbing my eyes.
"Yes, because I want you to be aware of what the president says about almost everything." She says in a serious tone.
"Okay, thank you. I didn't hear any screaming or crying last night. Have any good dreams?" I asked finally looking at her with a smile.
My mother smiled for the first time in years. "Actually yes." She said coming in and sitting down next to me as I'm still laying in the bed.
"I had a dream about you. So it was the best dream I had in a long time." She said giving my a kiss on my forehead.
I smiled at her "Well I'm glad you slept peacefully."
"Yes....but how did you sleep?" she asked me, looking into my eyes.
"Well, let's just say it was the opposite. I couldn't sleep. I was talking to Sidney last night telling her to come over so we all can talk. I'm too afraid to go to school and face her." I said in a worried voice.
"It's ok. Everything will make sense to her soon, I promise. And you also forgot about the homework your teacher assigned you." She said looking into my eyes.
I had totally forgotten about my assignment. There was still now way I could do it, no with everything that I know now. "Mommy I can't do the assignment. I'll have to get an F for it. But I promise to work had to bring that up." I said now feeling more worried than I already had been.
"Okay honey. I know you'll try your best." She said then she walked out the room closing the door.
I had realized that my mother had never asked me how I slept or even come into my room to talk. I had no idea sharing the true with me had also lead to her havnig amazing bonding moments with her. It's like she had turned into a different person after tell me the truth. After letter all worries go. I was happy to know my mother had now felt more than sadness and worry and I knew even with many things to worry about, happiness had finally reached my mother's heart.
I did my usual morning routine and headed downstairs for breakfast. My mother was nowhere to be seen.
"I guess she went to work early." I said to myself.
I didn't feel so hungry as I thought I would be. I was honestly to nervous on what Sidney would ask when I arrived at school. But I know I couldn't skip school. So I walked out the door and started walking. But as soon as I started walking I saw Sidney walking towards me on the sidewalk, with her head down.
I wanted to ask her if she was okay, even when I knew she really was upset. But all I did was walk ahead of her, hoping she wouldn't look up and notice it was me that was in front of her. But sadly, hope wasn't helping me today.
"R...rose, can we please talk?" She said from behind me.
"Um...I don't think that's the best idea right now. Come over after school so than me, you, and my mom can talk. Okay?" I said not even turning around to look at her.
"Rose it's not about that. It's about something else that I want to talk with you about. If I don't talk to you about it I might cry instead." She said with a sad teary voice.
I stopped walking to wait till she had caught up to me. Than we had both started walking with each other. "What's wrong Sidney?" I said putting my arm over her neck.
Sidney was the same height as me. It was easy to hug, and rap my arm on her neck. It was my favorite part about being her best friend.
Sidney wiped the tear the that dropped from her watery eyes. "So...my mom kicked me out of the house." she said not looking at me.
I had wondered why, and I wanted to know so badly that I was about to ask, until she stopped me. "I know your wondering why so I'm just going to put it out there and I hope it doesn't change anything."
Now I want confused. What could she tell me that I didn't already know. I was wondering was she needed to tell me. Whatever she had told me. That wouldn't change me and her's friendship.
"Whatever you have to tell me won't change anything. Me and you have been best friends for years. If this is about you needing a place to stay you can always come to my house. You know that." I said in a serious tone.
Sidney gave a corned smile and than turning it back into a frown. "Thank you but that's not the problem, at least not anymore. The thing is, and I haven't told you this but I'm bisexual and also..." She hesitated with continuing her sentence than finally brought up the strength to finish. "I have feelings for you Rose. I have ever since third grade when you gave me your chocolate chip cookie in lunch when I didn't have anything to eat." She said in a serious but worried tone.
I thought for a moment, not saying any words. The part where she said she was bisexual didn't shock me because of course I would except her no matter what. But it was the fact that she had feelings for me for so long and that now she was going to be staying at my house. Apart of me wanted to tell Sidney not to come so close to me. But the other part of me was flattered and my heart had been racing faster than ever before. I wanted to hug Sidney so badly and never let go but I had not idea was I was feeling that way. I knew I had feelings for boys....did I?
After ten minutes of walking in silence I finally spoke. "Sidney I will of course except you. As far as you having feelings for me. Well I honestly don't mind it. But we have to talk more when we get to my house and me and my mom has to tell you something that can't be shared here. You can sleep on the floor in my room. Is that okay?" I said with a serious to.
Sidney smiled in relief. "Yes yes of course it's okay. I'm so glad me having a crush on you didn't drive you away."
I smiled at her "It will never. Me and you are still and will always be vest friends till the ead. Nothing will changing that."
We both smiled at each other and tan once we got to school we hugged and went our different ways.
For the whole school day I was thinking about Sidney. Sometimes I had caught myself staring at her when she wasn't looking at me.
I didn't understand the feeling I was feeling. I didn't know what was going on with my heart. Every time Sidney came near me I shook and got so nervous. It was like everything that she and I had talked about changed the way we saw each other. But I didn't know how I saw her. I decided to leave the feelings aside for now and try to focus on school work and chores and trying to listen to the People speak on the radio.
Soon enough the end of the day came around. Sidney came out of the building and walked to me with a bright smile "So we're walking to your house right?" She asked.
Sidney touched my shoulder and all the feelings I felt throughout the day came rushing back to me. "Um...yes. Yes we are walking to my house. " I said trying to smile looked at her with her eyes focused on me.
"Okay. " Sidney said walking the way to my house with me following her.
The whole way there was silent. I couldn't think of anything to say to her. She said told me some shocking news in the morning and the whole day I didn't remember doing anything but thinking about it all. About how she had feelings for me and about how I felt now that you have said that. I love her with all my heart because she is my best friend. I didn't think that feeling would really become more than what it was.
We arrived at my house. I opened the door for Sidney and she had walked in with a thank you. When I entered the house, I found my mom sitting at the breakfast bar.
"Rose, Sidney sit please." My mother said calmly as me and Sidney did what we were told.
"So Sidney, dear, Rose knew that she could only trust you with the secret of hers. So I'm going to leave it to her to tell you." My mother said while getting up from her seat. She went upstairs and once I heard the door to her bedroom slam I knew it was time to speak.
"So what do you need to tell me?" She asked looking into my eyes.
It took me a while to find the words. Than I finally spoke. "So remember how I told you about this girl Jessica?" I asked her barely able to look at her.
"Yes. I remember that. I don't really remember if you ever texted me back about what your mom said about her when you asked, if you asked." She said with a thinking face.
"Well actually, I did talk to my mother. She said something very interesting actually." I said slowly bringing my eyes to look at hers.
"What did she say." Sidney asked in interest.
"She said that Jessica Miller was a girl who was wanted by the government badly because she was was and is the first person. Correction, first child to ever be effected." I said trying to keep my eyes on her.
"Wow. That's big. But you said 'is' the first person. How do you even know she's still alive. Have you found her." She asked.
It took me a while to find the words or even the strength to actually speak again. But somehow there was a sound coming from my mouth. "I'm Jessica Miller Sidney."