A day was so beautiful, there's a birds singing, there's a floweres dancing, the morning sun was smiling, people on the street had a smile on their face, children were happy playing. but a young boy at age of 20 was sobbing under the tree.

his parents died in accident at his age of 11, leave him alone with so much trouble. he stop studying and work for food but soon he sold his body in the club and was toyed with disgusting men.

he let it be for money, every weekend he always go to the orphanage to play with children, take care of them, and feed them with that money so that he can forgot that he was a disgusting man.

time pass and he got a lover from that disgusting place. that man respect him and even support him, he dint love him but he want to learn to love him. but he was oblivious at all behind of this, that man sold their video sex and that man even have so many toy boy. they played him until he cant keep up and exhausted.

he sneak that night and end up in this peaceful place, he sob and sob while keep calling his parents name.

"whats the point of living? if i will always be a toy? ma,pa? why did you leave me behind?"

he ask looking up at the sky, he was feeling tired and dont know what to do. he stand up and walk dazely, not caring at his sorrounding. he waked to the road and at that time the cargotruck was also running toward him.

"big brother be careful!"

one of the child who was playing saw this sence and got goosebumps. but that young man dint stop or run instead he just stand there. he smiled and soon a blood spread to the ground.

he is dead, that child was fritened and cry and cry. this news was spread at the peaceful place* an unknown man was dead in suicide.

in unknown place a 11 years old child suddenly woke up from the fever. he look around and saw that he was in the house made of wood. its quite big, he was lying in the bamboo floor with a soft matress. he look around with confused look in his eyes, suddenly the door was pushed opened and an old man enter.

'what was happening? what the hell am i? who is he? '

he ask himself but not getting any answer. he look at the old man with confuse.

'dont tell me i hook up at the old poor man?'

he think and can't come up with any ideas.