Could i really be blowing my shot at happiness out of fear?
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Moonlight pack
"What is wrong with you huh? We could've had a little pup by now but it seems to me like you don't want one! I should've never chosen a weakling like you to be my mate." Jason spat with so much frustration causing his chosen mate to let out a whimper in pain.
Mia just layed there staring at him blankly. Five years ago she made the greatest mistake she could ever make and it wasn't even her fault. She grew up with Jason since they were little kids because her father was the beta of the moonlight pack when Jason's father was the alpha.
Their wives were best friends and Mias mom would always insist that she spends time with Jason just like their parents did and at the time she saw nothing wrong with it because Jason became her bestfriend.
Little did she know that her mother had bad motives but she only really saw them when she got to high school.
When one turns 14 was when they would have their first shift also known as turning into your wolf. Your wolf becomes your other half, your everything.
When you turn 16 was when you were to be able to find your mate, your real mate. Others would find them immediately , others wouldn't because they would be dead.
I guess mine was dead because i never found him, my mom forced me to accept Jason's proposal , be his mate and produce him with an heir and all for what?
So that she could have someone in her family with a higher rank , Luna , since she couldn't be one.
It wasn't my fault i found out Jason did actually have a mate that he rejected for a stupid reason like wanting to have me as his mate. I can't imagine what his real mate went through but i do know his wolf hasn't spoken to him in five years now. Nothing , not even linked him or anything so he has to get pills from the pack doctor to help him forcefully shift .
I wish i could go back in time and just find my mate but that little hope i had left that they would be alive , was long gone.
"I didn't ask you to , Jason. You could've had a beautiful mate with little pups by now , but greed stopped you from thinking straight and now you want to blame me for not reproducing? You know you can't produce an heir with anyone BUT your mate , and I'm not your mate , Manuel-" i didn't get to finish my sentence because i felt a slap on my left cheek.
"Do NOT SAY HER NAME!" he shouts angrily and i just held onto my cheek and stared at him in disbelieve. Never in my life has he ever layed a hand on me.
"I'm sorry Mia , i-i " he says but can't think of anything and i slowly get up walking to the door.
I turn and look at him saying , "we need to go, we've got a meeting in town with a few counsellors. " and walk out before i could hear him respond.
When we walk towards the car where his beta and a few people from the pack house we're waiting , he tries to hold my hand but i move my fingers from him slowly and keep then clasped together infront of me.
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"Alpha , uhm can you help me tie my shoes please , my mommy cant help me because the baby stops her "
A random child from my pack comes to me and i just nod giving her a small smile before getting on one knee and tieing her laces and doing the same with the other but i feel someone staring at me and i look up to see andrew sitting with a few kids from his pack , all of them asking him many questions.
"All done, say hi to mommy for me okay and tell her i say congrats on the baby." I say and ruffel her hair a little before walking to where Tyler is .
"Hes good with kids i see , definitely a keeper. " Belle purrrrs and i smile a little before nodding in agreement and still making my way to Tyler's office.
"Alpha , we have a problem. A few uh hunters where spotted in town. It turns out they were responsible for killing a rogue pack a month ago and it doesn't look like they'll be stopping anytime soon." Jack tells me through the mindlink and i feel my blood turn cold.
"Hunters? Why are they here? How did they find us?" Belle asks me the same questions i was thinking but just more afraid.
"Thank you Jackson , I'll call for a meeting in a few minutes at the pack house , make sure you have men stationed around the border." I link back and get a quick yes alpha.
I need to get to Tyler i say and finally reach his office.
I open the door without knocking and stare in horror at Justin thrusting into tyler while Tyler's bent over his desk.
My cheeks flush and i quickly turn bringing the door with me while apologising.
"I- sorry about that" i say and stare at the close door while hearing them curse and start shuffling around, probably to get dressed.
"I told you to lock the damn door you ass , how am i suppose to explain this to our alpha " Justin says angrily and i hear a smack as Tyler continues to laugh which causes me to laugh at his frustrations a little but to myself.
I didnt want Justin to feel even more embarrassed than he already did.
The door opened and they both walked out, Tyler being infront as Justin tried being as invisible as possible with his cheeks as pink as ever.
"Alpha im really sorry about that-" Tyler said but i just gave them especially Justin a reassuring smile and wave it off.
"It's alright"
"Did you need something alpha?" Tyler asks curiously and i snap out of it and give him a short nod.
"Yes it's important, i need you to call a short meeting at the pack house" i say seriously and then they give me a short nod .
They walk to gather everyone and i walk back to Andrew to let him know too and to tell his men that aren't guarding our border to join us too.
I see that he was still with the pups and i kneel down smiling at a little boy before saying
"Hi there little guy, mind if i borrow your alpha for a little bit"
He gives me a nod while clapping his hands happily and he giggles while running with the other little ones to go play.
It was now just Andrew and I.
"You've been avoiding me " i say before i can stop it from coming out and i see him staring at me blankly.
"I've been busy , but what does it matter, does it bother you that I've been too busy to see you?" He asks curiously but still bored and i roll my eyes.
"Don't flatter yourself. I called for a pack meeting , you and your men need to join us since you're basically part of us now" i say seriously and i don't miss the glare he sends when i say hes pack is part of mine now.
"We're not part of you, we're equals here and what is the meeting about anyway?" He asks still with a blank expression.
"Hunters, they were spotted in town and my spies think they're the ones responsible for killing a pack of rogues. " i tell him angrily and calm down as soon as i tell him.
I can't have him asking me why i hate hunters so much, I'm not ready to talk about that, just like everything else.
"No you're ready to talk about it, you're just scared to open up to your mate" Belle says with an attitude and i block her out .
I see that he sees through me and that he sees i don't want to talk about it so he doesn't ask.
He gets up and tells me that he linked his men to meet us at the pack house and tells me to help him up.
Since i was standing and he was still sitting on the chair , he puts his arm out for me to "help him" and i laugh a little.
"You can't be serious, you're too heavy for me to lift and i know damn well you can get your heavy ass up" i say with my arms folded to me.
"I am serious and no i can't get up, I've been sitting for hours my legs are numb, just help me up already" he says almost whining and i sigh.
"Ugh fine you big baby. Come on"
I take his hand into mine and feel tingles move from my arm to the rest of my body causing belle to purr in satisfaction.
I let out a small grunt and move backwards while pulling him and as he gets up effortlessly i lose my balance causing me to fall back and he falls on me.
I didn't land hard as i felt him put an arm around me to prevent me from hitting the ground hard and he was on top of me with one hand still holding me, while the other was on the side of my head , stopping him from crushing me with his weight.
We stare at each other for a few seconds and I find myself getting lost in his red orbs.
"You're so beautiful you know that? I can't get enough of telling you that" he says softly so that only I heard him even though no one was around.
I feel my face turn red but still don't know hiw to respond.
Before I know what im doing I wrap my arms around his neck and bring his lips down to mine.
It was a slow kiss that sent shivers down my spine and caused my toes to curl from how amazing it was and all the tingles just kept on spreading around my body in a nice way causing Belle to purr in wild satisfaction.
When we pull away for breathe I look into his eyes and realise what I did before I start to apologise.
"Im so sorry , I didn't mean to do that i-" I didn't finish my rambling when I felt him give a nice sweet peck on the lips before putting our foreheads together.
"It's okay , I don't mind. I indeed want my mate and I'll never rush you into anything. When you're ready I'll be here , waiting for you." Andrew says and gives me a kiss on the forehead and i feel an emotion rush through me but I can't make out what it is.
I just give him a nod but still tell myself , hes just saying that because he just wants a mate to control.
"Let's get to the meeting then , come on. " Andrew says and lifts himself up taking me with him so that I was standing and we cleaned the dust of ourselves and make our way to the pack house.
Oh yeah , the hunters , I thought and pain slowly comes to me with the memories of what happened the last time I ever saw hunters and what they did to my family.
I am going to find them and make them pay.
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