Everything I ever loved was gone, my mom, my house, myself, everything was so damaged that there was nothing left that I could recognize, my only light in this moment was my brother but, he looked empty, just as I was and even if wanted to blame him I couldn't, life since 6 months ago was horrible.
My mom died because of frontotemporal dementia, we all knew that would happen when the treatment didn't work but no one told us what that would do to her, she was lifeless and scared, she could only recognize my dad and sometimes my brother and I, but most of the time she would scream or throw things at us because she didn't remember she had sons, we understood the situation but that didn't make it less painful, she was our mom, the creature that was supposed to loved us more than anything but instead she was someone we couldn't recognize.
After she passed away our father change completely, everybody told us it was a matter of time but the time only made it worse, at first he would be with a neutral expression and didn't show many emotions, but then he started drinking, he started acting like he didn't know me and would treat me as a servant even tho he would hug my brother. Then 3 months after my mom's dead everything changed, he woke me up and dragged me to the basement, he chained me to the floor inside a dog cage and then he went back to bed, I didn't understood why but I decided to stay silent, i didn't want to make him mad. The days went by, in the daylight he would act normal and let me be out of the basement, but i wasn't allowed to eat on the same table as him, or called him anything apart from sir. But when the night came I would go back to the basement. My brother wasn't aware of the problem until the week when my father didn't let me out of the basement, he would bring me bread and water for my lunch and that was the only thing I would eat in the rest of the day. When my brother noticed that he confronted my father. He wasn't happy about my brother's attitude, he started beating him, but when we thought he had finished he took out a gun, I had discovered how to open the doors cage since a long time ago so I opened it, took a liquor bottle and smashed it in his head. He fell to floor so we run to the exit and started screaming for help. The help came, just to discover that my father was dead, when he felled his head hit a corner and killed him.
That's what put us here, in the entrance of the hiakuya orphanage, I entered first when my brother pulled me close to him.
What's wrong Zake? I asked
Don't go far away, we don't know what type of people are in this place.
What type of people could be in this place? The worse you are gonna find are adults.
Just stay behind me, please.
He looked very concerned, so I did what he asked. The place was actually very nice, everyone was kind, but there was this horrible thing in their eyes that just made us mad: pity. They looked at us as if we were helpless, even if were actually helpless, pity won't turn back the time when we were happy.
After knowing the place they put us in the senior section, or the "forgotten section", the senior section was the section were the teens were put. We knew no one would adopt us but we weren't concerned, after all we were in a high economic status.
So this is it, you're gonna live here since today. The woman left when someone talked to us.
Hi there, my name is Kiyoko and I'm the supervisor of this section, I hope we get along.
I hope so, I'm sorry but we're do we sleep? Or is there a specific place to put our things? I asked
Oh! Of course, follow me please.
We went to the room, it had a bunk bed were 4 kids could sleep so I assumed we would share the room with more kids. We put our things in the closet, and change into our pijamas, miss kiyoko told us that we didn't have to share the room because the section only had 13 kids, so there was enough space for everyone, we didn't want dinner so we went to bed.
Hey um Zake?
Yes akane? Is everything okay?
No, I said sobbing, all the tension went away, I was relieved and terrified at the same time.
Nonono, don't cry we are gonna be okay. Zake was panicking, he didn't thought I would cry.
Is just that, Mom and dad are gone, what are we gonna do now?!
I- I don't know, but I think we are safe for now, we should probably go to sleep.
Can I sleep up there with you? Just this time?
Yea, of course don't even need to ask, come here you little fluff.
Zake started tickling me and making me laugh, we went to sleep after a while and god i remembered why we started sleeping in different beds, Zake is like a bear, once he grabs you he won't let go, but at the moment that was comforting in a way. We went to sleep, hoping tomorrow would be better.