'…A woman.'
She lurched, scrubs and batted the clothes with her beaten hands. Each stroke sends an inexplicably amount of jolting pain as the lye soaked garbs mop up each cuts on her hands from laundry and cleaning the stables of the Peglers.
The skin above her knuckles was thin and discolored — pink tinges that shaded her once soft delicate hands for sketching were all red and purple from abuse.
Well, if there were any other ways to actually earn coinage without getting her hands injured and dirty then she would have — however she would have to result in making her whole body dirty.
A mere depiction of how poverty resulted in moral disintegration solely to have a food digested in a growling stomach.
And she doesn't want to be a harlot. She does not want her only lucid perceptive view of life tampered because of the coinage they lacked so much.
"Good day, Vienna…" greeted Pomela as she stride forwards to do the laundry beside hers at the river. "Good day to you too, Pomela."
Pomela is chatty. Quite a blabbermouth, so Vienna was not surprised when she talked incoherently. She talked about men, her brothers' talents and how it's so hard to maintain his education but Pomela said that he was the only hope to make their life actually better. However, the little git was unappreciative, kept demanding more to what she and her mother could make. "—And did you know? Starting tomorrow taxes are 'bout to be paid double?"
In a violent turn, Vienna faced Pomela in a distinguished hysteria and upheaval. "What?"
"I – I could barely pay the monthly tax of two pounds! How – how could I even afford to earn f-four!" She withdrew, almost breathless. The Peglers gives her four pences to every pile of clothes she washes, and five shillings for cleaning their stables.
Of course, her labor is not on constant sought as they have owned slaves. It's either she'd begged another housekeeper of a distinguished families to spare her a chore to earn minimum of pences.
Vienna counted how many pence it took to make one shillings. And she is enraged! Twelve pence equals to one shilling and twenty shilling equals to one pound! How on earth was she supposed to make four?!
"I know!" As enraged as she is, Pomela's face painted in a bright orange. "I might do it, you know…" Her friend chortled humorlessly. Feigning mental collapse edged the two.
Vienna's heart beats' pulsated quickly to what she heard. "Y-you can't mean —" A gasped escaped her lips, her hands that continued batting the garbs with washing bat lied loosely to her sides.
Pomela looked at her with a shattered expression, a choke slipping off of her friend's throat as she continues, "I can't think of another way…" The woman whispers.
"I've been talking to Lilibeth— you know the famous h-harlot." Pomela ran her shaking hands to her face. "I-I…" She laughed. "I can't believe that I'd be soon one of the girls that we'd disparage to their impudent choices…"
"Let's think of another way! You can't do that to yourself, Pomela." Vienna panicky blabbered. She thought of so many dreadful and disgusting things on her mind as she imagined Pomela deciding to enter that kind of life.
Freezing waves slaughtered her spine as Vienna remembers how many harlots were—were killed and battered under their customers. Some laid stone cold soaking with their own blood upon the ground. Some of them full of bruises and skin discoloration.
They can't even do anything to bring justice to their maltreatment, even though they chose that lifestyle in poverty that does not indicate that they are not viewed decent as a human. That they are deprived of an ounce of respect and see them as revoked of their rights to complain of their circumstances.
Men. They are just awful and rubbish.
Vienna plummeted as Pomela slowly shook her head. "I can't think of anymore ways to lessen this burden, Vienna. I have three younger brothers. My mother and I worked hard to make our living less brutal since my father died."
"And of course…" Pomela resigns, "My mother's addictions worsen."
"BUT. You can still — you can still make your life better! Just leave your drunkard father." Pomela cheered her up, however, Vienna scoffed in a tentative belief. "The son of the Lord of Peglers—Master Edmond is it? He likes you doesn't he?" She knew Pomela is just trying to make it seem that she will be alright by pressing her that she will have more luck in life.
"If you keep him interested enough, he might choose you as his betrothed."
Somehow, the idea of Vienna living a decent life while her only friend suffers did not make her at ease all. Shaking her head in disapproval, Vienna says, "That's impossible, you know how nobles deemed us. And even if he likes me, I am sure that I am only fated to suffer from his family."
Pomela nodded with a tinge of disappointment lingering beneath her stupor, Vienna ignorant to her friends' reaction. "You're right…" Pomela sighs, nibbling her lower lips while for the first time they quietly finished doing laundry.
Dreading days passed and Vienna's body grew thinner than it already is. The hours of labor and lacked of rest made her cheekbones depleted; the hollow between her bones were much more prominent and her garbs loose-fitting, only the corset made it stay in place.
She reduced her already charred meal pattern into one. Barely have enough pences to make two a day. Her father making the situation worse due to his habits.
She'd have to hide her coinage under the creak of their floor. Vienna was hoping her father won't ever find out about it or either they get thrown out of the city or die in starvation.
Sometimes when time allows her to, she'd pick up herbs from the forest. When she's lucky she'd find some edible mushrooms under trees or eucalyptus or mint for her bruises.
There are so many things she wished that were changed, nonetheless of what is it she'd knew it's far unattainable than exhausting herself to pay that four pounds.
"Hello, Vienna," a raspy voice hailed. Vienna turned around, only to be flushed with embarrassment as Master Edmond's sleepy eyes meandered over her.
The latter wearing an expensive piece of clothes, his shiny black boots seems like a sin to step over the dirty and putrid floor of the stable.
She stood to properly greet him. Embarrassing. Embarrassing!
"Good day, Master Edmond." She clears her throat. She smelled okay? So badly.
Mix of dainty mint, horse feces, sweat, dust, reek off of her. In a conscious worry of disgust that may flash the nobles face troubled her mind. But, the man appeared uncaring of her stench.
He did not came for her — she chanted inside of her. He's here for the horses… he did not came for you, Vienna.
"Checking the horses?" Vienna lightly said, "Let me finish cleaning the stables first, or your clothes might get dirt."
"Don't worry about it." He coolly said, dismissing the unease that she felt. Specs of light glistened his emerald eyes, and a ghost of smile on his lips.
"I came here for you." Her heart throbbed in nervous? Pain? Trance? She did not know what exactly made her heart flutter.
Vienna gulped down the liquid that jammed her throat when she saw his playful smile. "I heard from the housekeeper you're here."
"How are you, Vienna?" Edmond build leaned one of the pillars of the stable, a quiet screech was heard. He tilted his head to see her face fully. Worry flaunted in his very attractive face, "The Queen made the tax double in lieu of winning the war. It must been hard for you…"
"Well life is always hard; of course it's up to us trying to make it a bit better." Vienna said, then her eyes drifted away from Edmond trailing the silhouette of the young maiden of the Peglers — Maurice.
"Edmond…" Maurice calls, the girl sending her an indifferent look. "The governor wishes to see us. What on earth are you even doing here?" It took Maurice plenty of minutes to decide whether she'd let her expensive dress drape over the dirty floor of the stable.
Of course, the girl did. Her hatred for Vienna is far stronger than letting her dress be muddy. She would not let Vienna seduce her brother. What an irk — Maurice thought.
"Is it forbidden that I visit the horses?" Said Edmond. "No" Maurice answered although skeptical of the reason why he's here. He's not really fond of horses, he had a terrible fall from it when they were a kid, she could only think of one thing why.
And that is— this whore… She shivered. "But, do you smell that? Urgh, I don't think that I can last here any second!" Maurice faked gagging, then turned to see Vienna, "Was it you?"
Vienna shrunk down as Vienna eyed her with disgust, scoffing as her nose crinkle, "What a horrible smell!"
Vienna gulped down every embarrassment she felt, and when Edmond's jaw tensed she wished her body just decayed that instant. "Oh please, Maurice…" His eyes rolled, an irritated snarl showing, "Of course, it'd smell, where do you think the horses shit? Do you want me to build them a bathroom?"
Maurice was silenced for a moment, her face and neck reddish as she glared daggers at Vienna.
"Let's go Edmond before we catch whatever disease is in here!" She clung onto her brother's arm pulling it. Edmond sighed as he looked at Vienna once again.
"Do tell me if you need any help…" He reckons before he left her with Maurice standing and glaring at her.
"Don't think that you can marry to a noble just because one talks to you, Vienna. Stay away from him, you stinking twat." Maurica spat every word with a venomous indentation.
"If I see you close with again, I might just do something…"
"I'm certain you would not like it." As Maurice leave, Vienna is left with an agonizing realization. Although, she thought of it numerous of times, convinced herself over and over again that it became a chant inside of her head every time that Edmond and her met.
In discreet— by the forest, she can't be with him. He is too high, too far from her league, Edmond's a noble and she is just— nothing. She is nothing but a mere daughter of a drunkard fisher who relentlessly dreamed to be a painter.
Nonetheless on how beautiful her works are, they were always overlooked, undervalued, ridiculed because she is…
…A woman.
Somehow, her little world that her and Edmond built, were just a paradox. The consequences of being with him were just utterly dire, and she feared when Edmond choses her he'd fallen.