Even when Volca lived her life as Hara, enjoying gardening, there was something she missed doing.
When you are good at something never do it for free. And when you are too good at something, try not to quit them too. Maybe it could be that special thing that might heal you, keep you entertained and tell you who you really are. They are hobbies, the skills and the talents you have inside you, born along with you. It can never be buried. Some choose to make it a profession while some like to keep it as a hobby forever.