HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR AND HAPPY VALENTINES DAY EVERYONE!
I'm so sorry I wasn't able to post for the past few months.
A lot happened in my life that needs more of my care and attention.
I will try my very best to update for those who are still supporting me.
Thank you so much and bless you!
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Nikolai heaved a sigh of exasperation.
He had a huge fight with Kriza, his longtime "date".
He thought everything was already clear to her since the very beginning of their relationship, if it can really be called a 'relationship'.
Some calls it having a fuck buddy or something but for him, it's too disrespectful.
He maybe a jerk but her never was an asshole to any woman who had been in a 'relationship' with him.
Kriza had been his constant date for years now and today she was acig weird towards him.
He started the day right, or so he thought.
He had a jampacked day with interviews and guestings left and right and was supposed to have a quiet and nice dinner with Kriza in his condominium unit.
Fresh flower petals were scattered all over the floor of his bedroom. At the center was the nicely decorated round table where the delectable meodium rare steak was served with a bottle of his favorite wine--Château Lafite 1787.
Kriza seemed so ecstatic when she saw everything he prepared; or his ever-efficient secretary prepared. She was giggling and was giving him hints of what could be the best dessert right after the their dinner.
It could have been the best night for both of them if not for the fact that Kriza mentioned how she hated the fact that KC, her secretary was 'annoying' her.
"She acts like she is a timid and innocent girl but she is definitely a hypocrite. She just wants attention. She is so annoying."
He can still remember how Kriza suddenly got pissed when the topic about KC suddenly popped out.
"I've seen her around and I must say she really is just being herself, Kriz. " He tried his utmost best not to show fondness in his face and voice.
He wouldn't want Kriza to hate KC more. He knows her too well.
"Just being herself?! She became my secretary without me conducting an interview with her. I didn't even read or even saw her resume. It was the higher ups who conducted the interview and hire her. "
He just smiled at her and tried to suppress the urge of talking back or defending KC.
He isn't dumb to know that it would only infuriate Kriza more.
"And you know what's more frustrating? She likes you, and it shows!"
He was no longer surprise at the information. He was more surprise of Kriza's reaction.
"Kriz, let's just drop the topic and--"
"Okay. Sorry about that. I just hate her guts. I honestly think she's just pretending and that..."
Right at that moment he decided to just let her talk and let everything in his right ears and let it out in the left.
Kriza was acting weirdly for him.
His mind suddenly wander to KC.
The timid and sweet girl who seemed to have an innocent crush on him.
He would never think of KC as what Kriza is trying to describe her.
He can still remember how his conversation with KC went the last time.
He can definitely sense that deep down KC's conservative and awkward fashion sense, she is a great woman with a brilliant mind.
She may be too innocent but he can see her wittiness and deep and intellectual her thoughts are.
'You are being a jerk right now, y'know that?'
He wasn't able to tell himself.
'Damn! How can I think of KC when I am having dinner with Kriza and even planning to have sex with her afterwards!'
He tried to focus on what Kriza was telling him but he can no longer comprehend whatever she's saying.
Right after their dinner, Kriza tried to get him into the mood. Unfortunately he was no longer interested.
"May be it's best for me to bring her home, Kriz."
Kriza wasn't able to suppress the irritation on her beautiful face.
She was obviously disappointed and that led them into a fight.
Kriza blurted out how she hated to be his 'secret girlfriend' and that she is already tired of waiting for the right time when he will announce to the world that they are actually together.
Right then and there, he totally lost it.
He can't believe Kriza is acting like a demanding girlfriend.
He never thought that the time would come when Kriza would act like the same and usual way other women would.
All his previous 'relationships' ended in a good mutual way.
He had to draw the line with Kriza and she wasn't happy about it.
She was already nagging and shouting at him when he told her "it's better to end this when we still have respect with each other".
To his astonishment, she slap him before going out his unit.
And now, here he is, alone inside the four corners of his bedroom.
Reminiscing all the things that has happened in his life; all the women who just come and go, he can't help but to ponder if he really is happy for all the outcome it led him.
"When you think about all those years where you didn't have your own personal life, your private life, you should have missed a lot of things."
He can still remember how KC said those words when they last met and talk about the deep stuff and man! It still sting!
He doesn't have a melodramatic history with women, where his past first love cheated on him or something like the movies conflict. But he don't want to commit to just any woman. He wants a woman who would love his soul and not what they simply sees and what they can gain from him.
'Shut up jerk. You gained something from them too. Stop being a hypocrite'.
He can't help the small voice of his conscience from telling him.
He couldn't agree more to that but for him, sex is something that he and his past "relationships" enjoyed.
Aside from VVIP invites here and there to exclusive places and event, he made sure that all the women he went out with can never complain about his performance when it comes to sex.
Upon remembering the act, he wasn't able to suppress his mind into thinking about Tin as well.
The only woman who seems to enjoy using him and his body but never his fame and money.
She was like a ghost that would only appear whenever she wants to.
'Ah! Tin is a woman who is completely different from all the usual women I've been with.'
'Just like KC.'
He was surprise at the thought that suddenly came to him.
But he cannot deny the fact that the two women are really rare in a very different but good way for him.
Tin being the liberal, tactless, independent woman that she is and KC being the timid, naive, awkward but cute and endearing on the other hand.
'How would it feel to have KC in my arms?', he thought.
Then mentally shook his head at the thought.
'KC seems to have a pure soul. I shouldn't think of her in a carnal way. I shouldn't taint her with such thoughts of mine.', his conscience kept on nagging him.
He likes both women but in two different ways, like million miles away.
When he can no longer stand the silence, he decided to stand and walk out of his unit.
"I definitely need a drink but in a noisy place".
"This silence is making me have crazy thoughts going inside this crazy mind of mine."
He immediately went out and decided to spend time at his friend's bar--first favorite bar.