Chapter 16 - Sorry.

It's when I don't say sorry, that you should be scared.

Sorry is like a cry for help from me, it's me begging for you to care.

If I'm upset and I don't message you "sorry"? I've given up.

I have decided not to beg for your attention, because I've caused enough problems already.

I've decided not to reach out because, I'm only in the way.

I've decided to hide my feelings.

I've decided to cry alone in my room.

I've decided to deal with my own problems by not dealing with them at all.

I've given up. I've given up on myself. And you should be worried, I guess.

Nothing feels worthwhile anymore. I don't care about school or college. I don't care about money or punishment. I don't care.

I just want to be upset. I just want to avoid anyone and everyone. I just want to listen to music. Alone.

I just want to torture myself. I just want to cry. I just want to bleed. I want to leave.

I want everything to end. I want everything to be over. Ive been here too long. I don't want to be alone.

I want to be with my friends but I don't want to bother them. I want to cry with my friends but they will judge me. I want to scream, yell, sing, sob.

I want to be loud.

I want to be someone who doesn't care. But I care too much.

I want to not care.

I can't yell.

I can't sob.

I can't sing.

I can't scream.

what if someone hears me?